Not a Choice
19
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...“A great woman is a woman who can go through her slump. Although he had to pass through the sharp pebbles and make him walk with full wounds to reach the perfect end.”...
...~Sandyakala~...
...*****...
“Run?” Sandy approached Runa who was sitting in the middle room. He sat down next to the woman.
Runa budging. Sandy stared fixedly at the face of the heart that looked worried. After a brief encounter between Runa, Sandy, Khan, Ata, David, and Alea, Runa became quiet. Many things raged in Runa's mind. While Khan has been asleep since 15 minutes ago after being satisfied to play with Sandy.
“A-aku.” Runa stuttered. Ata's presence back in her life makes Runa confused in acting.
“Please yourself first! I know this all surprises you. There I am, don't worry.”
The warm grip of Sandy that surrounded Runa's fingers made Runa a little calm. Sandy was always reliable. Runa rested her head on the shoulder of the man who was always there for her, and Sandy greeted by wrapping her hands around her shoulder.
“Before, I also met him,” explained Runa.
“When?” sandy asked with weak intonation. Sandy could not hide her surprise. He thought that this was the first meeting between Ata and Runa, after they had separated for a long time. Turns out he was wrong.
“It was a few days ago, time at the resto. We accidentally met.”
Silent.
Sandy had yet to issue any rebuttals from the sentence she had just heard, until Runa continued her story. “We only had a minute to chat, asking about the news. That's it.”
“Then, how do you feel?”
“Which feelings do you mean?”
Sandy's speechless. Indeed, he wants to know whether Runa still loves Ata, or has buried the feeling of love that was once so passionate.
“If what Mas meant about the feeling of love that used to exist, it has long disappeared, Mas. Seiiring with his departure first.”
Sandy breathed a sigh of relief. Really, he didn't want to lose Runa after all they had been through together. In the past, he was able to hold his love and let Runa happy with Ata. Not this time. Let's say Sandy is selfish, but her love is now much greater than it used to be. He could die without Runa and Khan by his side.
“But, Run, I see there's still love in Ata's eyes for you.”
Runa looked up, looked at Sandy's charismatic face, “That's just your feeling, Mas. Ata already has Alea. And I already have Khan as well as you. So, don't think weird!” pinta Runa's.
“I believe in you. But as a fellow man, I know very well that there is still a lot of love in Ata's heart for you, Sandy's inner”. However, in order to calm his female heart, he just nodded at Runa's request.
Sandy held Runa tightly, “I'm afraid of losing you and Khan.”
“I'm not his choice. So what are you afraid of? I can't go back to her. I see Alea is also a good woman. They are a matching couple. And Ata was lucky to get a pretty girl like Alea.”
“I'm more lucky to get you, Run.”
Sandy kisses the head of Runa with affection. Runa could feel how much love Sandy had for her.
“A great woman is a woman who can go through her slump. Although he had to pass through sharp pebbles and make him walk with wounds to reach the perfect end. And that woman is you, Arunika Pramesti. I'm not gonna let you go anymore. Let me be selfish for now and I promise to always make you happy, Sandy's inner”.
***
“I think Ms. Runa is the same Mas Sandy is your client, dear. Turns out your college friend.” Alea struggled spoiled in Ata's arms as they walked down the hallway towards Alea's room. Ata only smiled slightly in response to Alea's ravings. His mind raged thinking of Runa and her little family.
“They're handsome boys, yes. Later if we have a son I hope to be as handsome as Khan."
“It's night, sleep!” Ata again did not respond to the words of the lover. He instead told Alea to immediately enter his room, as they arrived at Alea's doorstep.
“Do you want to go directly?” Alea looked at Ata with sadness. Although she looks cheerful, in fact her heart feels tight when her future husband is cold since Alea arrived in Wonosobo.
“It's been night, Al. I'm also tired, want to rest.”
“Do I do wrong?” ask Alea. Netra hazelnya has cultivated a clear liquid that is urgent to get out of the contest.
“You mean?” Ata stared fixedly at Alea's face that looked cute.
“You ignored me. Is there anything that makes you uncomfortable when I'm next to you?”
Ata's heart felt pinched. It should be him who apologized to Alea for her attitude lately. Ata grabbed Alea's chin. When their views meet.
“Not you wrong, Al. I am the one who apologizes to you. Forgive me for my bad attitude lately.”
“Do not ignore me anymore. I'm tormented by your attitude like yesterday. I miss my old Ata,” pinta Alea.
Ata nodded. Alea soon burst into the warm embrace of the future husband. He misses the chest of this field, the scent of this perfume. He misses romantic moments with Ata.
“Already, don't cry. It's already night. Rest!” Ata unraveled Alea's embrace and opened Alea's door. “Great sleep, Darling.” One kiss he landed on Alea's forehead, making Alea feel at peace.
Just as Ata was about to leave, Alea pulled out Ata's hand. “What's up?” ask Ata.
Alea slashed the distance and whether she got the courage from where, she scooped Ata's lips. Maybe because of her longing. He smacked the lips, smearing them with tenderness.
Ata was initially surprised by Alea's treatment. Because, all this time only Ata started to kiss Alea. Even so, Ata welcomed the warm kiss offered by his future wife. It smeared her lips so tempting.
The originally gentle kiss turned into a stirring and demanding one. Ata pressed Alea's nape so that their kiss deepened. There is a desire that is suddenly unstoppable and wants to be fulfilled. Slowly Ata pushed Alea towards the bed without letting go of the link of their lips. Pushing slowly for Alea's body to collapse.
However, just as Ata was about to start completing the desire that was already on the edge, Runa's face flashed in memory. Forcing Ata to end her hot kiss with Alea.
“Why?” asked Alea who was confused by Ata's attitude.
“I have to go back. David must be waiting for me.” Ata rose from her confinement.
“David can definitely understand. We are taking off miss.” The disappointed face could no longer be hidden.
“There are a few things I have to deal with David. I went.” Without waiting for an answer from Alea, Ata left Alea who was staring at her pushyly.
“Shittt! Stupid you, Ta!” he said to himself after closing the door to Alea's room and walking towards her room.
“Run, I won't let you down again. I will not be lulled again with this pseudo desire because it is only you that I love, Ata's inner”.
Ata walked hurriedly towards her room. After opening the door, David's tense face greeted him.
“At last you came back too. There's something I want to say.”
“Serious very, very, Vid.”
Ata took a seat on the sofa while closing her eyes, while David sat cross-legged on the bed.
“It's about Khan.”
“Khan?” David manages to steal Ata's attention when one name is called.
“You're watching Khan, no, anyway?” ask David.
“You mean?” Ata still can't guess the direction of her best friend's conversation.
“Jonestly with me, Ta. You did it with Runa, right?”
Ata looked at David. How could his friend think too far.
“Khan.” Again, the name was called by his best friend, “the boy is very similar to you. You can't deny it, Ta.”
Ata's body was instantly riveted. Until a memory rolls through his mind. When Ata and Runa were declared to graduate from the thesis trial. Because they are so happy, they forget everything. Although Runa had refused, in fact Ata managed to take the most valuable property of Runa.
“Job!” Ata cursing herself. His hands clenched until his fingers turned white.
“So right?” David tried to make sure again after seeing Ata's facial water. He got out of bed to win Ata.
There is anger, disappointment, regret, happiness, and no idea what else Ata is feeling right now.
“I have to meet Runa.” Ata got up to go outside the room.
“It's night, Ta.” David shrugged Ata's shoulder.
“I have to make sure of everything, Vid. I have to make sure I'm a father. I have to make sure that I'm the most depraved man ever. I have to make sure that Khan is my son.”
The tears suddenly flowed from the corner of Ata's eyes. He was now stabbed with such a deep sense of regret. It feels so crowded. Is this what Runa meant when he decided on Runa first. After everything they've been through together. Although only once they did, in fact the crown in Runa had Ata snatched away and he dumped Runa just like that for the sake of his ambition to become a famous architect.
‘Bajingann’ that one word that will continue to stick in Ata. He is a jerk according to his own version. He slid to the floor against the sofa. He pulled his own hair to vent his helplessness. While David was only able to look at his best friend.
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...To be continued...
