Not a Choice

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...Not always something that we think is good will be good for others....

...The author...

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Mira still tries to calm Sekar, however Sekar is his mother. He did not want to hurt the woman who gave birth to him. Mira is also a mother, she knows very well how painful it is if the child is born by betting his life to hurt a mother. Not that Mira justifies Sekar's opinion, Mira just does not want Sandy to be disturbed again because of the noise made by Sekar.

Mira thought, maybe next time he will slowly give understanding to Sekar, if Runa is not as bad as Sekar thought. Theapi, for now it is better to focus on the recovery of Sandy first.

"Why are you still standing there? You cheap lady, really have no shame on you. Do you want to see my granddaughter die, then you're satisfied and go find a new prey?" screams Now.

"Astaghfirullah, Ma, don't talk like that! Istighfar, Ma, words are do'a. Mama don't blame Runa constantly. Runa is not like that, do not let Mama regret accusing Runa who is not! All of this has been the fate of the Powerful, Sandy must be healed, Ma. Mira please, don't say that again, it's better now that we pray for Sandy's recovery." Mira rubbed Sekar's shoulder, so that Sekar was a little calmer. Then Mira invited Sekar to sit down. Mira also gave a glass of water to Sekar, hoping that Sekar would calm down a bit.

Runa, who had been standing next to Sandy's bed and trying hard, could no longer hide her sadness. Looking at Sandy's weakly lying body at the moment, Runa's tears had already flooded both of her cheeks. Coupled with the words Sekar like a sekilu that slashed his heart.

Want him to deny, if all that Sekar accused him of is not true. But he's not that brave. Now Runa increasingly realizes that Sandy's existence means so much to her, without Sandy she is so fragile. He lost his life spirit.

"I'm sorry, Runa, Grandma" said Runa, who ran out of the room where Sandy was being treated. Runa couldn't stand being there anymore.

"Runa," Mira tries to chase after Runa. However, his hand was slightly pulled by Sekar. Makes Mira look over and undo her intentions.

"Let him go, Mira. Sandy's health is more important" Sekar said.

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After exiting the room where Sandy was treated, Runa still sobbed. Her eyes were so puffy from crying for too long. Until Runa did not dare to return to the room where Khan was treated. He did not want to make all his family worried about his current situation.

Finally, Runa also chose to sit on a bench that was not far from Khan's treatment room. He wants to calm down for a moment, from all the problems and trials that have lately been falling on him.

Runa again shed tears considering Khan and Sandy's current condition. Two people who meant so much to him, now both of them are lying weak helpless. They both struggle between life and death. Runa is increasingly intrigued to remember the good times with Khan and Sandy first.

Runa looked at the sweet face of Khan who was on the front screen of his phone. "Khan, I'm sorry, son. You should not have ignored you. Forgive the mother who has been selfish, to invite you to work hard while you are still in the womb, son. You should pay more attention to you, so you can grow into a healthy and strong child. Forgive me, dear." Runa's chest became increasingly crowded, as she recalled her struggle to conceive Khan seven years ago.

So heavy were the times that Sandy and Aunt Mira came, like angels who helped Runa rise from her slump. The sincerity of Mira and Sandy is able to make Runa back into a strong and strong woman.

"Mom, Miss Runa why?" Runi, who was coming out of the room where Khan was being treated, saw a crying Runa coming towards him immediately.

Runi sat next to Runa, rubbing Runa's shoulder. Runi knew her brother was not okay. Runi did not ask much more, he let Runa cry in his arms. Runi's heart was so painful to see her brother who was crying as if he was holding a burden so heavy.

After a while, Runa who was still slightly sobbing broke into Runi's embrace. "Bad shit, huh, Run? Mbak has made his own biological child now lying helpless. All because of my carelessness, Run. Maybe that's why Khan was angry and disappointed. So Khan chose to leave from the mbak." Runa paused for a moment his sentence. Accompanied by the sound of crying back.

"Grandma Sekar is right, Run. I should have listened to his advice before. Should have gone from Mas Sandy's life. I never dreamed of being Cinderella. Maybe if you are not selfish, Mas Sandy must be healthy now, and live happily with the woman of Grandma Sekar's choice." Runa's cry broke even more after saying all of her heart to Runi.

"Bak Runa, you can't say that. It's not all your fault, ma'am. Khan must be cured. Ma'am is a great woman. Runa's mom was amazing. Khan must be proud of you, Ma'am. Don't blame yourself, Mother. Sandy's also gonna be cured. You have to be sure of that. Everything that happened to Khan and Mas Sandy wasn't Runa's fault." Runi tries to convince Runa.

"Khan is a living mbak, Run. Only Khan became the life spirit of mbak. For the past seven years, Mas Sandy has also been a very meaningful person in my life. Sandy always helped me take care of Khan. Give his affection to Khan. So Khan could grow up like the other kids, but now they're both lying helpless. It's wrong, Run. Mbak will not be able to forgive himself, if anything happens with Khan and mas Sandy. You're afraid of being alone, Run. Only they're Mama's precious treasure." Runa was no longer able to hold back her tears.

"Mbak Runa is not alone, Ma'am. Lookatme!" Runi who had started to tear up slightly shook both shoulders of Runa.

"There's me, Mama, and Dad. We are Runa's family. Runa is not alone. We will always be with Runa. Mas Sandy and Khan must be cured, Ma'am. You have to be sure of that, Ma'am. Everything's gonna be fine. Better now we wish Sandy and Khan all the best, yes!" Runi hugged her brother again. He rubbed his sister's back full of affection.

Runi knew, all these sudden events, must have been very heavy for Runa. As much as possible Runi will always support Runa. He will not let Runa get worse with the situation that is currently befalling her brother.

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While not far from the place where Runa and Runi were, there was Ata who had since seen and observed the interaction between the two brothers.

Ata initially wanted to visit Khan in his room. However, his steps came to a halt when he saw Runa who was crying in Runi's arms. Ata wanted to get closer, but that intention was undo. Ata could only listen to the cries and expressions of Runa's heart from behind the door.

"Runa, forgive me for being too selfish. Now I realize. Why Khan loves Sandy so much. It turns out he was that good. I'm sorry I hurt you, " said Ata.

Ata could not bear to see Runa who was so fragile. He didn't feel like he was shedding any tears. Ata took a deep breath, and then she exhaled. He decided to leave the hospital and not visit Khan.

As the saying goes, not always something that we think is good will be good for others. Sometimes we have to share something we love for the happiness of others. Selfishness will only lead us to destruction.

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...To be continued...

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