Nastity

Chapter 69. A Fuck.

Titi Pov.

I don't understand what really happened to Bang Ari.

It is changing more and more, not at home.

The house is just like an inn.

Every night go home just to sleep, shower and then go.

As soon as that happens.

He didn't care much about our first child either.

Rarely did he take the time to play with his son.

But his attitude towards me has not changed.

He is still good, still likes to joke and be romantic.

Every day bang Ari will be home late at night.

When you are home, you will listen to music until you fall asleep.

If I get angry, he'll sleep downstairs with a blanket next to the bed.

Sometimes I don't care what he does.

Really, I was saddened by the change in his attitude.

There was a fight between me and bang Ari, all because I was upset.

He had just come home and was leaving again.

I'm not the type of woman who likes to nag if I'm angry, I'd rather be quiet and will not say hello.

Bang Ari was offended when I didn't want to say hello.

I'm still preparing all her needs, but I don't want to reprimand her.

At that time, my parents were not at home, and my son was sleeping.

At home there is aunty son Neng and his wife and his son who is the same age as my son, is staying at home.

I and bang Ari had a big fight, the first fight for us, because I couldn't stay silent anymore.

I denied his words until I could no longer speak.

Bang Ari was trying to find the key to the room I was hiding.

I locked the room so he wouldn't come out and we could talk.

" Where are the room keys? give it to me because I'm going out! "

Bang Ari forced to ask for the room key.

I just kept quiet not responding to his words.

He sat on the edge of the bed and I calmed my son so as not to disturb his sleep.

Seeing me just shut up, he got angry.

" What do you want? where's the room key? "

snapped at me.

"I don't know, what do you want to get out? solve our problems first! "

I answered his words.

Bang Ari tried to snatch the room key from me.

I'm grateful, my son didn't cry hearing our commotion.

There was a feeling of sadness because my toddler son had to see and hear our quarrel.

Even though my son was sleeping, it was inappropriate to have a fight in front of a child.

I felt pain when bang Ari yelled at me, my parents never said rude, let alone snapped.

My tears I can't stand anymore, I'm crying because my heart hurts.

The one I'm grateful for, as angry as any bang Ari, he never played a hand.

Never once did Ari bang hit or slap me.

Like me, if he gets angry he will follow my way by silencing me.

It hurts, that's how I feel.

Because I couldn't speak anymore, I subconsciously hit the glass of the wardrobe until it broke.

I can't fight with words, I prefer physical fights or I'd rather hurt myself.

For some reason, I can't say many words, if I say then there will be a curse that will hurt when I hear it.

I don't want to hurt with words, so I'd better shut up.

Maybe bang Ari was very surprised by what I did, lucky my hand was not hurt.

Bang Ari led me to sit on the edge of the bed.

In her arms I was crying.

He rubbed my back and head.

Looked at the hand that I used to punch the glass cabinet, lucky there was only a small wound on my finger.

Bang Ari took my hand which I let hang by my side, she put my hand on her waist.

" It's decked out. forgive brother..! "

He told me to stop crying.

I am not a typical person who likes long when feeling angry, I will easily forgive the mistakes of others.

As well as bang Ari, I can't be mad at her for too long.

He kept persuading and calming me until I fell silent.

Actually, I'd rather give in if there's a problem going on.

I never bothered about trivial things, never tried to provoke a commotion.

But if I feel unappreciated, what should I do.

It was once in my heart to part with bang Ari.

" With my son as a child, it might be better if we split up. "

I said in my heart.

But I went back to thinking, isn't the purpose of me getting married I want to be a godly wife?

In the past, I married bang Ari because I want to be a godly wife, a wife who can serve and serve the husband.

" If I give up on this marriage now, how will I go forward? I will never be able to think maturely.

Wouldn't every marriage have its test? Maybe this is the test of marriage that God gave me.

If now I give up, where my struggle as a wife should be able to resuscitate the husband when he makes a mistake. "

In the arms of bang Ari, I still sobbed. I am still at war with myself.

Will I give up on this marriage, or will I persevere and try to resuscitate Ari bang so that he returns to what he used to be.

" O God, I never wanted a breakup in my household.

Give me more strength and patience, God. "

In my silence, I continued to monologue in my heart, pleading with God that I might pass this test well.

I am still young and may still be able to get another man as husband.

But if I am impatient and not in the face of the household exam, there is a chance that I will again fail the marriage, because I am sure there is no household that is not tested, she said, whatever form of testing it is.

" Dek.. forgive brother, huh? don't cry anymore. "

Bang Ari still persuaded me who was still sobbing.

It's hard to stop this crying, because it's the only way for me to let go of the tightness I feel.

Bang Ari laid my body on the bed.

He stared at my face that was still wet with tears, and with his hand he wiped away my tears.

Bang Ari smiled as she continued to clean up the remains of tears.

He also did not feel disgusted when cleaning the liquid from my nose, cleaned it using his hands, then wiped it with a washcloth belonging to my son who was on the bed.

I'm grateful, it seems my son understands our situation.

He did not wake up at all or feel disturbed by our quarrel.

I tried not to raise my voice when I had a fight.

I calmed down, and was quiet while sleeping beside bang Ari.

Not a word has been said from my lips.

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