Nastity

Chapter 32. The Titi Diary

Ari Pov

Tonight, I'm trying to get the courage to play at Titi's house.

I want to meet and talk to Titi.

I felt bad when I saw her at the party and I didn't go near her, not unwilling.but I felt ashamed to come to her.

Ma'am Titi was also just paying attention, not approaching me.

Perhaps, he was also just like me, feeling ashamed to approach.

When I came, her mother opened the door and called Titi in her room.

At first, he was surprised to see me, probably not expecting me to come to his house.

He also looks a little embarrassed, maybe remember the incident at the party.

But Titi was able to master the situation, and we were finally able to have a casual chat.

" When it's a holiday, what are Titi's activities?" I'm trying to ask.

" Just take a break, at best a house.

Relax, listen to music or read a novel!" answer her.

" Do you like to listen to music and read novels?" ask me again

" Yes, just for entertainment and to fill free time during holidays or when there are no activities at home.!" answer again.

I was thinking, it looks like Titi is a home child, doesn't like to wander.

Spend time off by looking for entertainment outside the home.

I was happy to be able to chat with her, from our chat, I found out that Titi likes to listen to music and read novels.

From her hobby of listening to music, there is one song that became her inspiration to be a godly wife.

I just smiled as Titi sang the song and guaranteed what Titi wanted later.

May Titi really be a godly wife.

Satisfied chatting with mbak Titi, discussing about her hobby, until it did not feel late at night.

At ninety and thirty, I went home.

Not to forget, I borrowed a few Titi novels to take home and read at home.

After saying goodbye and saying hello, I went back home.

Really, tonight I am very happy to be able to visit Titi's house and chat with her.

By borrowing this novel, there will be a reason for me to come back to Titi's house. ☺

*****

After Ari left home, Titi saved the glass and jar of chips to the kitchen, then he returned to his room.

He threw his body in a mattress, then hugged the bolster.

Titi could not sleep even though she was already feeling sleepy.

He remembered everything that happened today.

Last afternoon, Huda who came to visit his house and took him for an afternoon walk.

Then tonight, Ari who came and chatted together discussed what Titi liked.

"Today, it seems like a lucky day for me, somehow two guys who feel a little have a special place in my heart can come today.

Fortunately they did not come together, so I was able to enjoy a moment of togetherness with them at different times. "

Titi monologues in her heart, accidentally her lips also sing a smile. 🙂

Happy, that's how Titi feels right now.

Unable to sleep, Titi woke up from the fall, then opened his sideboard and he took his diary.

Titi opened the last sheet of diary she had written.

Then, he lay face down on the bed, thinking what he would write this time.

When something crosses her mind and her mind, Titi starts moving her questioner, filling the next diary sheet.

Dear diary's,...

Dy...

I told you about my relationship this afternoon with Mas Huda.

But, on your sheet, I want to write about my relationship with Ari.

Dy, uh,..

I didn't think that the one who knocked on my door was Ari.

Because we didn't have an appointment to meet or Ari said he was coming home.

When we met at the party, we didn't even say hello to each other.

He was with his friends and I was with Feni.

But tonight, he came and we chatted for a long time.

Dy...

From the way Ari looked at me, the way he smiled, my heart told me that he liked me.

He has an interest in me.

I don't know, maybe it's just my feeling.

Dy..

What if Ari really likes me?

I don't feel right for him, Dy..

We were three years old, the older I was.

He is very young, and of course many girls like him.

I was also self-conscious, there was no way I could approach him.

Maybe, I'm just GR huh, dy?? 🤭

Not necessarily what I think and I feel like what Ari feels.

Dy...

I don't feel worthy to be with him.

Although the word different age does not matter, the important thing is to feel comfortable.

Dy...

I just pray that Ari can find a better girl than me.

Who can accept her and be worth her.

I will always pray for his kindness.

Ah... I'm weird, huh, dy..?? why should I think so far?

Ari just didn't say anything to me, I just thought about my feelings.

But dy. usually my feelings never miss, what I feel is actually what happens.

You know dy?? I'm not easy to be comfortable with someone.

If my heart says uncomfortable, then I will stay away, but if I feel comfortable, then the person will approach me.

Dy...

I just want what's best for Ari.

May he meet a good and beautiful girl who can make him happy.

*****

Titi ended writing her diary.

He reread what he wrote, then closed his diary.

After reading what she wrote, Titi sat on the bed holding her diary.

Then Titi monologued in her heart.

" I want the best for my friends.

Make Huda mas, hopefully mas Huda lasting with his fiancee until they can continue to the level of marriage and foster the same family."

" For Ari, I pray for the best.

Can get a partner who matches his expectations, can get a beautiful girl, good and commensurate with Ari. "

*****

Long Titi sat on the mattress until the hour has shown eleven o'clock late.

I don't know what makes it so hard to sleep.

Titi simply turned back her diary, skimming what she had written.

Memories that he had passed and recorded in his diary.

There is also still writing Toni who filled her bio data, and there is still a photo of half the body taken from the right.

Titi only smiles when she remembers her memories with Toni.

Remember when Toni waited for him to go home to school under a fir tree.

Long behind the diary, finally Titi began to feel sleepy.

He closes his diary and saves it back into the sideboard.

After repeatedly yawning, Titi also put her body down and began to pick up dreams. 😴😴

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