My Idol Boyfriend's

78. Don't Shake (2)

Yana looked at herself from the mirror. Outside is Max, he's still trying to control his jerking heart. It could be bad if Max hears his heart beating.

A red tinge was seen on Yana's cheeks. Max's distance that was close to him earlier made his heart comb. He thought for two years he had handled his heart well, but his guess was wrong. In fact, his heart still trembled when he was close to Max.

"It could be crazy of me.."

Yana turns on the water faucet in the sink and then wash her face. He had to call his family immediately, because of panic earlier Yana forgot to give the news. He forgot to bring his phone. Yana actually came alone without bringing anything to the hospital.

"What did the doctor say about Jemima's state?"

Yana came out of the bathroom after locking herself in the bathroom for almost thirty minutes. Before coming out Yana really made her appearance neat.

Max looked at Yana's voice. He was still faithfully sitting on the sofa. But his eyes did not fall off Jemima's fingers.

"Gastrointestinal disorders only. Jemima will be fine after a few days of treatment.."

"How can it be like this?" Yana's voice was weak.

He approached the bed and sat down on the side.

"I'm sorry, there's an important meeting I have to attend so I leave Jemima to one of my assistants who already has children. It's my fault for letting Jemima alone.."

"You'll keep your promise, right?"

Max wails. He got up and approached Yana.

"Well, can we forget that first? The most important thing now is Jemima. I will definitely keep my promise, but after I make sure Jemima is okay.."

"But you've been.."

"Ssttt. I beg you.." Max clasped Yana's hand. His eyes look hopeful. He couldn't have just left before Jemima was in the care.

There was no choice but to nod. Just leave it like this first. Max has promised. Yana nodded again to say yes.

"One more. Let me take care of you.."

"No need, go home. Me and Jemima are fine. Jemima will recover soon. Your help's enough to get here.." Yana took off Max's hand.

Don't keep on Max.. Inner Yana thrashed. Yana has been pushing away her love for Mad for a long time. Open means Yana is no longer in love. Yana still loves Max. But I don't know. who has been away a long time better not come back again, which is over should not be started again. That's what Yana thought.

"I'll stay here. I brought you your needs. You haven't eaten all day? Let me go eat. Don't let you take care of Jemima.."

Yana was as strong as she could push Max away. Hypocritical. He is a hypocrite. Deep in his heart he wants Max. But in the mouth he always told Max to stay away.

"Someone who?" Max's forehead shriveled.

"Whoever.." Yana turned her eyes.

"No one would be like that. Why do you always make your own conclusions in your head this is Yanaku. Persisi like two years ago.it feels like I want to split your head and I see the contents.."

Max stroked the top of Yana's head. She loves Yana very much. Never changed until anytime. Should she tell Yana that she suffered so much all this time. So much suffering that he lost his footing to stand up. Makes himself fucked. Living life like a dead person. Yanalah. It felt like Max was yelling loudly at Yana. But there's Jemima now. Max broke his intention.

"Don't go again without saying goodbye to me. Don't repeat two years ago Yana...don't judge me again.would you promise me?" Max's speech is sincere.

"You let me go.."

"Yana. You misunderstood me. There's a lot I have to tell you about two years ago.."

"No Max. I don't need to know. That's your business, not mine. We're long done.."

Yana gets up but is prevented by Max when he wants to stay away.

"You are so stubborn. Are you giving me punishment? If so, you have succeeded Yana. You've screwed me up these two years.."

"Let go. don't bring up the problem two years ago. I don't want to talk about it anymore.." Yana tries to let go of Max namu's grasp failed. His hand is pulled by Max and his body falls into Max's arms.

"I'm sorry I was stupid for letting you go. At that time there were many things I had to take care of. I thought leaving you alone would keep you safe. But it turns out I was wrong. I made the wrong decision. I wasted you.."

Max buried his head in Yana's neck.

"My relationship with Swan is just a charade. I made a deal with him. I want to protect you from getting hurt again Yana. Sorry I didn't tell you. I'm afraid bad things happen again to you. Woon hyung told you to wait, didn't he? Why are you leaving?"

Yana breathed deeply.

"Max.The relationship is about two people. You decided it yourself then. For whatever reason if you don't ask for my opinion doesn't that mean you've already chosen him? Ahjussi told me everything. Since I was tired of waiting for you, I chose to leave. From the beginning our relationship was too risky. We don't fit in with each other. If we continue that relationship it will hurt both of us. Don't apologize to me. The decision you made was right, Max. You saved a lot of people. Our destiny is like this, nothing will change. Please let me go.." Yana's voice shook. He was still struggling to overcome his heart.

Ah I don't know what this reluctance is. Max still loves her, he knows. But remembering the pain two years ago made her heart reject Max. Why wasn't he chosen? Why did Max choose Swan? The question always turned around in Yana's head. A relationship about two people who share their joys and sorrows. If one party decides on his own it means that the other party is no longer considered to be his existence. That's what makes Yana's heart hurt. The feeling of being an unelected party deeply hurt his heart. Max will never know how much Yana got hurt. He always understood Max but Max couldn't understand him. It's just one-sided contact, and Yana won't do it again. He doesn't want to be a mistress anymore. It never will.

Even though you know why Max chose Swan because of you. Please don't waver Yana. Your story was finished two years ago. Set heart! Let's go back to each other's lives.

Seriate...