My dear sister

episode 65's

It's been almost two weeks and I haven't heard from Lay.

We decided not to hurt each other not to tell each other.

My days were quiet away from Lay.

I've been through it all myself.

Yesterday mom came and asked Lay.

I still have to lie and say that Lay is on campus.

Mom did not seem suspicious.

But today Aunt Vani said she'd stop by to take us for a walk.

I need to find a new reason.

Oh Lay, why does it have to be like this.

I shouldn't be this stupid to let you go.

But the guilt in my heart to Cath I can't escape.

From the beginning Cath asked for my help to be close to you.

And I've agreed to it.

I don't know if my feelings for Lay are gonna turn out to be baby.

If I knew it would all be like this.

I'll never promise Cath anything.

And now I can only go through the circumstances.

I hope Cath gets well soon.

****

The longing made me come here.

In a taxi I came to Cath's house.

I want to know Cath's situation.

And want to make sure Lay's okay.

I'm standing outside Cath's gate.

I dare not step in.

I breathed a long breath, as if I were about to start a battle.

I feel like I have to strengthen my heart.

I put my feet slowly.

A gardener approached me.

"Who's looking?" tannya

I immediately stopped my steps.

"Em. I want to see Cath.." I replied.

The gardener was watching me.

"I've never seen you before.But okay, our lady hasn't come home from the hospital" he explained.

I was a little surprised, so Cath wasn't well.

" Can I get the hospital address?"

The old man nodded and immediately entered the house.

I just wait there.

And the old man came back with a piece of paper he had poured on me.

I accepted it, thanked him and immediately left.

*****

A fairly large hospital, I immediately searched the room where Cath was being treated.

I carefully guarded each hallway.

Suddenly my eyes fell on a slightly open space.

I saw Lay and Cath.

I tried to peek and get closer.

Lay is feeding Cath, fortunately.

Cath's situation is better.

Lay is the loving type, he is always gentle with anyone.

I shouldn't be jealous.

But watching them joking, laughing and seeing a happy smile on Cath's face.

Why does my heart feel hot and sick.

Without feeling my tears dripping.

I have given my intention to enter.

I slowly back off.

I've had enough to know about Lay's situation.

He's fine here.

****

All the way home, I kept thinking about what I had seen.

I'm trying to be sincere, I can't be selfish.

I have to trust Lay.

Lay couldn't have betrayed me.

But still my tears can't be contained.

I don't want to go home first.

I stopped in a park.

I sat there long enough.

Until I decided to call Will.

I miss Will, I need him now.

"hello, Will.." I said, I can't talk.

I held my cry with all my heart.

"Widya, what's up?you crying?" Will asked in an anxious tone.

I can't talk, I feel like my chest is tight.

"what's up Widya, what's going on, did Lay hurt you?"

I took a deep breath and tried to control my heart.

Don't let Will misunderstand Lay.

"no.no, that's not it.." I tried to talk.

"News, what's up?"

I rested my body and tried more rilex.

And I finally told all my heartbreak to Will.

I still can't deny, Will can always be my opponent.

I feel a little calm right now.

Will blamed me for letting Lay go

But he could finally make me feel at ease with his words.

This has to happen anyway.

There is nothing wrong and right here.

All processes to be undertaken.

****

I came home a little late this afternoon.

There was an additional course.

I hastily entered the house.

Rassnya I've wanted to take a shower after a day of activities.

Hey, why isn't the door locked?

I forgot to lock it this morning.

Not likely.

Did I forget yes...

I stepped in, the house was still tidy.

Thankfully, no thieves came in.

I immediately entered the dining room and took some drinking water.

"hi.." a woman's voice.

I put down my glass and looked.

How surprised I am, Cath.

Lay appeared from inside his room.

He stood behind Cath.

I feel like coming to Lay and hugging him, I'm so scared.

But realizing that there was Cath I paled my intention.

"Ep..Widya, I'm sorry.From now on, Cath will stay with us."

Like a hard slap for me.

I can't talk, I'm looking at Lay in disbelief.

But soon I mastered the situation.

I hold as hard as the water that wants to come out of my eyes.

My eyes may be glazed now.

I tried to hide it all.

I turned towards my room.

"Good, so it's closer to the campus.." I said.

I immediately entered the room and locked it.

I sat behind the door.

I'm crying, why?

Why does it have to be like this?