My dear Siomay

Guilt

"Are you able to accept me for who I am?", I asked Tio to convince myself.

"I'll accept you for who you are" Tio replied without thinking for long.

"I am a poor man, my brother many, my job is a siomay man, an ex-con, not beautiful and not smart. It was all my flaws, can you accept it?", I tried asking in more detail.

"It doesn't matter to me, I already knew all that from the beginning, if indeed I don't accept you, why would I propose to you?", Tio replied without hesitation.

"Well, I'll decide to say ....yes, but I'm not ready to get married yet, how about we go out first?", I give Tio an offer.

Tio immediately bowed in gratitude, how much do you hope, Tio?.

"Alhamdulillah after all this time", Tio while rubbing his face.

"It's like you just passed the exam until you bow down in gratitude", I smiled.

"Because this was my prayer from a long time ago, I wanted to be your girlfriend", Tio innocently.

"Tio, I'm not perfect as you can imagine, there are so many flaws that I have, even I feel strange, why can you like someone like me?", I took out all the unk.

"But I love you so much, my heart beats when I see you or with you and my longing when you're not next to me, and it has nothing to do with any of those flaws,I still feel that even though I know you have a lot of flaws", Tio was happy.

"You are still plain. Now I wear this ring as a sign we're made, can't I?", I asked Tio.

"Oh, of course I can" Tio looked so happy.

Frankly, I felt what Tio felt, heart thumping and longing if we didn't meet, but there was still a wedge in my heart that wasn't completely finished yet. Will Tio's parents bless us?that's a big question that's definitely the answer. They will definitely reject me, due to various events and my different background with the Tio family. It would be exhausting to get a confession out of them. It took a super effort to melt the hearts of his parents, as well as my heart that still holds pain. Now how should it be?yes, I will follow the flow where I go.

Today is the most beautiful and unforgettable day. Tio and I now have a status, even if we are only dating but now obviously I am not single anymore. This is the best gift ever.

In the morning, I started with a bright smile as bright as the sun today. Last night was still warm in my mind. I smiled at myself like a madman while looking at the ring I was wearing. Even if I work alone, I have to stay motivated.

"The ring!!!kring!!!", my phone rang. I saw that new number. Then I lift it up immediately. Apparently Erna.

"Erna, how are you and sister?" I asked.

"Alhamdulillah, Sis, we're fine. Brother Isna, I'm sorry, Erna can't help", Erna in a sad voice.

"Are you there getting coercion?", I'm worried.

"No, but Erna was bored of not being able to play and feeling cooped up here" Erna said.

"Edo won't let you play outside?", I wonder.

"Yes, Sister Edo prepared all the facilities to play for us, from the traditional to the modern, but we were bored, because we should not go out", Erna complained.

"But he wasn't rude to you guys?", I kept investigating.

"Alhamdulillah then!", I feel calm.

"Erna wants to remind Isna to change the husband and wife's order, which is when Kak Isna spilled, Didn't Isna remember?", Erna reminded.

"Oh, yes, thankfully you reminded me, Brother Isna forgot, meaning it must be sent immediately huh?!".

"Yes, we promised!", Erna kept reminding.

We talked at length, like friends who had not met for a long time and told each experience we had. We talked for over an hour.

After my phone closed, I remembered Erna's word to change the order siomay husband and wife who turned out to be Sofia and Mas Zein. It actually felt heavy for me to step up, but when I saw the ring around my ring finger, I felt like bragging it in front of Mas Zein. He who just left, left me alone in loneliness and guilt. I ventured to meet him. Erna said she had sent her address. Soon I open my phone and I see that address. It turned out that the address Isna sent was the office address. I opened the internet to find the address and apparently it was the address of the office in front of my store. I didn't think we were this close.

I prepared two servings of Siomay and I immediately took it to the office. I took a deep breath as if I wanted to fight with something, I prepared myself to be ready to face Mas Zein head-on after a few years had passed. I approached the receptionist and asked Mas Zein's room. After I found out, I immediately went to the room. Before I enter, I knock on the door first. And there was an inside response asking me to come in. I opened the door wide and my heart was so nervous, a feeling of fear mixed with curiosity, what did Mas Zein feel for me?does he still hate me?is there still a love in his heart for me?. When my door opened, Mas Zein didn't realize it was me. I stepped foot into the room. Mas Zein still looked busy and concentrated on his work.

"Sir, here are two portions of Siomay from Siomayku Darling as compensation that I spilled, apologize and enjoy!", I did not say much and chose to leave immediately. When I turned around and wanted to take a step, Mas Zein looked at me.

"Please sit down!", Mas Zein invited me to sit down.

Deg.......

My heart just wanted to explode. My body feels hot. I don't know what it's going to be like, but this is all I have to deal with.

I turned around and sat down on the long sofa chair that was available there. Mas Zein got up from his chair and moved to sit with me on the sofa. We're facing each other.

"How are you, Isna?", Mas Zein opened the conversation.

"I'm fine!", I nervously answered the question.

"I want to apologize as much as I can, for misunderstanding you. After seeing the video of the evidence, there was so much guilt that I felt, sorry, sorry and sorry. I have left you alone and do not believe you", Mas Zein sounded regretful.

"I've forgiven Mr. Zein for a long time, and I'm glad there's video evidence. That's proof that I never lie", I replied with satisfaction.

"I'm guilty of making you suffer in prison, what should I do to make up for it?", Mas Zein really felt guilty.

"There's nothing Mr. Zein needs to do, with us forgiving each other, that's enough for me" I've been calm.

Mas Zein came up to me sitting next to me.

"But this heart still feels guilty Isna, what should I do?", Mas Zein while trying to hold my hand. I shifted so there was some distance between us. But Mas Zein kept getting closer. I feel confused.

From the outside, we hear the footsteps of shoes. The door was violently open.

"What are you doing?!", Sophia suddenly appeared from behind the door shouting.