My dear Siomay

Dag dig duerrr

I have been a little less focused these days. My concentration was broken when I remembered or saw Mas Zein. Am I that sweet?oh, no, I need to be in control. But that handsome face made me unable to turn away. As the flag-raising ceremony went on I kept seeing Mas Zein, and as our eyes looked at each other, I immediately looked the other way. My heart was beating like it was chasing a ghost.

The students continue to admire his good looks, especially now that he comes to school more often, because he wants to see me. It is wrong to express my liking, to an ordinary girl who does not have any advantages. My cheeks are flushed and I smile at my own smile like a madman. If I keep this up, I can go crazy.

I smiled when I remembered Mas Zein but when I saw Sofia's empty stool, I was sad. Shown by our togetherness. He must have liked Mas Zein so much that he hurt his best friend. I want to go to the toilet first, wash your face so be sane. When inside the toilet, there was a sound from outside.

"Eh, did you see the news?", someone sounded like he was chatting.

"What news is there?", one responded.

"Say Sofia will be in law for a maximum of 15 years, pity ya!".

"This is all because of hanging out with Isna, Sophia who was innocent so wild like that, she said Sofia behaved like that because Isna snatched her fiance".

"Well, right, who is Sofia's fiance?the man was blind, yes, I could prefer Isna to Sofia, if I had obviously chosen Sofia who was beautiful, rich, smart and of course had this school".

"Yes, that's a fool".

Their conversation ended and they were not heard from again after they came out of the toilet. What I heard made me sad. It's true what they say, this is me. What would happen if everyone knew that the man was their principal?I don't want to imagine, surely Mas Zein will be the subject of gossip like them.

And I will be bullied one school because it has become an actor who does not deserve to be with a man as perfect as Mas Zein. My steps are getting heavier. I was going to follow Tio's advice saying to follow my heart. But it seems very difficult. I actually wanted to reach for Mas Zein but, when I saw myself in the mirror, I felt like a bad girl.

After finishing on the toilet, I wash my face while looking at my shabby face does not attract one bit. I took a breath and came out of the room. Someone suddenly called me.

"Isna!", my class chief called.

"What's wrong?", I asked immediately.

"You're called to the Headmaster's office".

"What's the matter?", I find it strange.

My class president just lifted his shoulders, a sign of not knowing. I immediately headed to the teacher's room and then to the principal's office. All the teachers looked at me, while some whispered like they were talking about me. Moreover, Bu Yanti, her face looked sharp, I was without a smile, passing through the place was like walking on a hot stone, it was terrible. I continued walking towards the headmaster's office with sweat on my face. Actually my heart dag dug duerrr, it feels nano nano. What did Mas Zein really want to talk about?does he want to ask how I feel?or want to ask about my siomay?or maybe he misses me so he wants to meet in person?wow, my mind is fucked.

I knock on the door. There was a sound from inside the room, "please come in!".

There were already 5 people in the room, including Mas Zein, 2 women and 2 men who were aged. They look like Mas Zein's parents, other than Mas Zein, the face I recognize is Sofia's father's face. What does this all mean?.

"Isna, right?please sit down", a woman my mother's age allowed me to sit down.I just nodded and immediately sat on the sofa. Silent mood. Zein did not dare to look at me or speak to me. Without saying anything, the woman spoke.

"Include me, we're Sofia's parents, you must know her because you're friends. We would like to apologize for the actions of our son, Sophia, on you Isna, for trying to harm you. And we want to ask you for help, can we?", the woman looks wise.

"Please stay away from Zein, she is Sofia's fiancee, we have long since arranged for parents and expect them to be united, Sophia did evil to you because she liked Zein from a long time ago, even from childhood. I beg you not to disturb their relationship so that we especially Sofia feel calm, can you do that?", the woman asked politely, she banished me from Mas Zein's life subtly. I was confused and could not answer. Mas zein's reaction after hearing that, as if to defend but could not.

"Sa..maya.".", I did not have time to answer, Mas Zein interrupted my conversation.

"Mom, this isn't Isna's fault, but I'm wrong. I can't be a partner in her life and can only be a big brother to her", Mas Zein defended me.

"You don't have to talk, let us decide, we know better what's best for you my son", the woman who is likely Mas Zein's mother to speak with.

"But Mom, I've said many times that I don't love Sofia" Mas Zein bluntly said.

"But love will grow by itself when you get married" she insisted.

"Already Zein, just follow what your parents say", the middle-aged man advised Mas Zein.

"But, Well, getting married and liking someone is not to be forced and I want to have a partner of my own choice".

"What do you mean this girl?", Sofia's father pointed at me.

I felt adrift in the war and could only watch without wanting to get involved.

Zein did not answer.

"Is a girl like this your choice?what will you get from him?he's just an orphan with nothing", someone Mas Zein called the father attacked me.

"Yes, I like Isna, because she is sincere, hardworking and unlike you who measure everything by treasure", Mas Zein becomes more courageous.

"What is it all for?all you need is money that guarantees a bright future for you and your children", their conversation is heating up.

"Money isn't everything, Mother!", Mas Zein with a sad face.

"But everything needs money, and with Sofia you will get a lot of benefits, she is young, beautiful and smart, as well as abundant wealth, so Sofia is perfect for our family, filling and complementing each other",mas Zein's father doesn't want to lose.

"But Well..what about my forced heart?", Mas Zein seemed to want to cry.

"Here, it's our decision, if you and this girl don't want to give up, then all the facilities you give me will take" Father Mas Zein spoke as he passed,followed by the others leaving the room. The teachers were curious about what was happening.

I was still in the room, with a sad face I saw Mas Zein shedding tears.

"Mas Zein, follow what your parents say, they want the best for Mas, and maybe I am not the best choice for Mas, I have many shortcomings and do not deserve to be with Mas Zein,choose Sofia, she is the choice of your parents who might make your life more blessed, because the Ridho Alloh is in the spirit of parents and the hate of Alloh is in the hate of parents",I say every word while crying, maybe this is a hint from Allah for us so that we do not continue this relationship that has not even been established.