My dear Siomay

losing the most valuable

"Mother doesn't know that the man is a loan shark, so what should we do?", my mother covered her face with both hands while crying a mouthful.

We all cry. I apologized immediately, though,

"I'm sorry Isna too, Mom, for making a mother

get dizzy by making an appointment to the addicts", I cried while holding my mother's hand.

"Pardon us too, Mom, can't do anything" Ridho added.

We all feel sad and confused about what to do to deal with this problem.

"It's okay my children, it's all your mother and father's fault, can't solve this problem for a long time" my mother calmed us down.

"We just sell this house", mom gave me an idea.

"But sister, what about the children, where will you live?", the aunt disagreed.

Mom suddenly felt claustrophobic and we were asked out by aunt.

"Kids, your mother still looks unwell, let your mother rest first".

We all came out of the room, Rina crying and whining not wanting to leave this house.

"Sister, Rina won't leave this house".

"Yes, Rina, I can't even imagine that we should lose this house" I sighed.

This house is no longer feasible to live in, the ceiling has been a lot of holes, the tile is damaged so it leaks where, where,the floor is also cracked and damaged even the walls are mossy and there are some rooms whose walls look cracked.But in this house there are many memories, beautiful and sad.

Auntie called me from the room to ask me to come in. I'll go to Mom's room.

"Yes,bi, what's the matter?", I'm afraid I'm afraid there's nothing on mom.

"Your mother would like to ask you and your sisters for their opinion on selling this house".

"Isna call the sisters first ya,bi", I go out and call all my sisters.We all go in and sit around mom.

"Kids,uhuk ..uhuk".", the mother begins with a cough.

"Mom wants to ask your opinion, how about we sell this house?".

Lina immediately embraced the mother and cried,

"Rina doesn't want mom to sell this house, many memories of dad here are also memories with big sister, Rina doesn't want mom!!! ".

"What do you think of Isna as the greatest brother? ", mom asked me.

"If Isna agrees on anything that my mother thinks is good, we can't earn any more money than that".

"Edo!, you don't talk to me that way! ",i speak with a rather high tone.

"this is all because of the brother who promised to pay the debt in one week, we all suffer, father and mother also why to owe the loan shark, I was tired of living poor, I was tired of living poor, laughed at, chastised, insulted, I hate all this", Edo is getting blind.

"Edo, can't say that. ", I keep trying to advise Edo.

Mom looks like she feels tight. Auntie broke us up, "already, don't fight! ".

"Here you go, brother who should be in charge, why don't you sell yourself to make a lot of money! ",Edo while looking at me.

Plaque!!!!!!!my hand reflexively slapped Edo's cheek, she was seen shedding tears.

"I hate big brother" a hurtful word slid from his mouth.

I also cried, there was a sense of annoyance and guilt mixed into one. Edo immediately came out of the room and headed for his room, he took the bag and clothes from his closet. My other sister followed and tried to ask,

"No, what do you want? where are you going to get the bag? ",Erna asked innocently, Edo did not reply, Edo did not reply,

"Don't, brother, don't leave the house!! ",Ridho tried to prevent it, but Edo remained adamant, and packed quickly and headed for the door.

"Edo, where are you going? don't go, pity your mother is sick",Auntie tried to stop Edo from leaving.

"Sorry, bi, Edo is leaving", Edo with an angry expression.

Erna went to the room and held my hand, "Sister, stop brother Edo from leaving! ",Erna begged me. I wanted to prevent Edo from leaving but this body wouldn't move a bit. Edopun left home.

"Sister, pity mother sister! ",Ridho yelled at Edo, but he didn't budge and left.

We were all shocked by the incident, but not until we sighed, suddenly mom looked hard to breathe, I immediately shouted, "Bi, mom, bi!!! ",Auntie immediately went to the room and saw the condition of mother, we all cried loudly,"mom!!!! ",Rina called to mother, she took her last breath and said the word," laailaaha illalloh", she was shut in her eyes and stopped breathing,.Break the sadness into tears that do not stop flowing, we embrace the mother with deep sorrow, weeping sad because left by two precious people in the near future.

The next day......

I can't say anything, just eyes with tears flowing. Mother's funeral is over. Everything feels so fast, it feels like just yesterday mom ate fried rice that I made, mom really likes if eating fried rice made me. Now that I was in the tomb where my mother was buried, it felt like there was still a mother by my side, like a dream, if this was a dream I would want to wake up quickly and immediately hug my mother, but these tears felt so real, that I couldn't deny it. I stood alone looking at the mother's tomb adjacent to father's tomb, deliberately I did not go home with the others in order to be satisfied to say goodbye.

"Dad, Mother, it's all like a dream, you're like you're still with me, forgive Isna for not being able to make you happy and let Edo go from home. May Isna be able to unite our family and bring Edo back home, also given patience and strength to take care of sister and facilitated in paying off the debt.May Isna not crazy and dark eyes want to commit suicide", he said",I let out my heart and cried loudly.

"Actually, Isna wants to go with you, if Isna does not remember her sister, would want to kill herself, it is better to die, the weight of living life like this", the more tears flow.

"How can Isna live life without you, father......!!!! ".

I desperately cry in front of the gravestones of my parents, can no longer live my life if I do not see a sister who still needs parents and I am the successor to both of my parents.

"Astagfirullohal'adzim, Astagfirullohal'adzim!", I say the wrong istigfar for despair. I must be strong because there is a God who will always accompany me in every step, the father always said that we his children should not despair of the grace of God, I took back the message and I kept it in my heart, with a steady heart I murmured,

"Father, mother, goodbye and see you again in the hereafter and hopefully in God's paradise".