My Annoying Superstar's

Cruz: Wounded Self-Esteem

Cruz is on his way to the next set and currently he keeps staring at his phone without blinking.5 seconds, 10 seconds, 2 minutes, 15 minutes his phone remains silent without sound.

“ Wow, crazy... how dare he ignore me”, Cruz suddenly shouted in frustration in the car made his manager, driver and staylist jumped in shock.

“ Cruz why are you yelling? “, Letu reprimanding.

Cruz realized then put on a cool-ass face. “ No, I'm just getting annoyed”, he replied as he put his phone in his pocket.

Cruz stared out the car window recalling the night they were together at the hotel. There's one thing Cruz didn't tell Noa. Just before the action Noa undressed in front of Cruz, something happened that made Cruz nervous until now.

“ Why it is so hot here “, Noa said in a daze.

“ That's because of the alcohol you drink too much . Now you sleep here. After my shirt comes I'll go home first”, Cruz stands up from his seat.

Noa watched Cruz without blinking. Cruz saw it in wonder. “ What's up? Why are you looking at me like that?”, Cruz asked.

“ You...”, Noa pointed towards Cruz's face.

“Finally he realized who I am, out also his true nature”, inner Cruz.

“ You... I love candy”, shouted Noa excited in her drunkenness.

“ *Candy? What candy? “, Cruz confused.

Just as Cruz finished speaking, Noa grabbed Cruz in the face with both hands and tiptoed and kissed Cruz's lips, chewing Cruz's lips like eating candy*.

*Cruz gasped at this sudden attack. Cruz slightly felt the warmth of Noa's mouth inside his mouth. A sharp smell of alcohol burst into Cruz's mouth. If this is done by another woman, maybe Cruz will push her and sue her for assault.

But for some reason when Noa kissed him for thinking his mouth was candy, Cruz did not get angry and instead welcomed the kiss*.

Cruz grabs the nape of Noa's back and replies to Noa's gentle kiss. When Cruz let go of his kiss Noa looked at Cruz and then spoke “ sweet candy. I like”.

*Then Noa fell on the bed and fell into a deep sleep like fainting .

Cruz looked at the sleeping Noa, if he noticed that Noa's face was beautiful.

“ Can yes there is a riot when drinking alcohol, ck ck”, then Cruz smiled and blanketed Noa*.

Back to this moment.

Cruz is touching his lips with a finger. Noa was the first girl who dared to kiss him first and the first girl who dared to ignore him. Ignoring a superstar who was judged by many women, a superstar who dreamed to be the girlfriend of all the water demon girls. Cruz's ego is on the rise, this rejection is hurting his self-esteem.

Cruz finished filming that day with no mistakes, and he had a mission to wait for Noa at Ran's Cafe. Who knew Noa would show up there and Cruz could catch the girl.

But Noa never showed up there again. Many times Cruz waited for him but never met Noa . It seems Noa knows the danger of being in love.

“ Ran, I want to ask you”, One night Cruz started scraping information from Ran about Noa.

“ What ? ”, Ran responded.

“ Noa it works where? ”, Cruz asked with a face that seemed unconcerned but actually very curious.

“ Noa? Noa my friend?”, Ran make sure .

“ Yes, your friend who threw up on my shirt”, replied Cruz calmly.

“ He works as a writer, it seems under the guidance of Editor Ying. What's the name of the office? I forgot”, Ran explained.

“ Yes right. Noa is the author of a horror genre book that has been turned into a film. What's the title, huh? The Greenhouse? Home marmot?”, Ran trying to remember.

“ Bloody Greenhouse?”, Cruz guessed.

“ Yes it is. Which was booming at that time”, Ran said yes and then sipped his drink.

It was a film that Cruz rejected, because at that time Cruz was experiencing a bad period because of depression and the heaviest in his life.

“ Noa stay where?”, Cruz ask again.

Ran looked at Cruz. “ What are you asking for? You liked her? “, Ran investigate.

“ I only have a little need with him “, Cruz replied misbehavior.

Ran nodded. “ Cruz listen. Noa is a good woman. Don't fuck with him. She is different from most girls. Even if you're my best friend if you have bad intentions on Noa, I'll be mad at you”, Ran gave a serious warning.

Cruz was stunned for a moment, Ran's words were heartbroken.

“ Hah, I have no intention of anything to him. I just have a little need and again he is more suitable to be a friend. He's not a tiepku”, Cruz lied smoothly.

“ Good. You want to meet him?”, Ran asked again.

“ Yes, there's something I have to give back”, Cruz didn't completely lie because one of Noa's earrings was on him. The hotel contacted him to return the earrings.

“ Next Saturday come to my wedding anniversary dinner. I'm just inviting you, Noa and Jim”, invite Ran.

It seemed like the universe was siding with Cruz, he smiled and replied steadily. “ I'll come. Definitely come. But can you keep it a secret from Noa that you're charging me?”, Cruz asked for help.

“ Why? You guys have a problem?”, Ran is suspicious.

“ No. It's just that I want to give a surprise to my new best friend”, Cruz smiled and then sipped a drink in his glass.

“ Alright, I'll do”, Ran agreed without suspecting again.

Cruz smiled at his glass. ’ Finally judgment day is coming Noa, how dare an ordinary girl like you ignore me. I've never been rejected in my entire life, every woman always looks at me with a sense of belonging. And you came to vomit my clothes and car, kissed me not because I wanted to but because my teeth looked like candy in your eyes, and then you refused my phone call, it's not enough that you dare make me wait for you to reply to my message. My pride is hurt because of all you do. I'll reply if I meet you Noa, just watch’, inner Cruz spoke with vengeance.

***

Cruz spent his days with great enthusiasm. Either because he was eager to make money or because he was waiting for the day of vengeance on Noa.

Cruz looked at Noa's profile photo, the image of Noa looking behind showing off her smooth back. The back that Cruz had seen directly with both eyes. The shadow of Noa's body that night was vividly imprinted in Cruz's memory. Each time Cruz's blood rippled, Cruz realized that he wanted Noa in his arms. Even to this point several times he still thought about and wanted the girl. And this is enough to bother Cruz.

But with all his strength Cruz suppressed that animalistic desire within him. Cruz breathed repeatedly. Letu who was sitting next to Cruz in the plane was astonished.

“ Are you sick?”, Letu asked.

“ No. Only now my blood often ripples by itself, My heart beats very fast and some times it feels like I am not a superstar ”, explained Cruz origin.

Letu narrowed his eyes trying to deduce what disease the artist was suffering under his care.

“ You were angry with your mother for buying useless goods again?”, Letu guess.

Cruz looked at Letu lazily and said “ No we are not suitable, only Brother Tan understands me. Brother inconsiderate”, Cruz nagging make Letu scratch his own head see the strangeness of Cruz.

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