Mom, Why Am I Different?

Chapter 9

After reading Mas Niko's writing, I began to think again about the divorce I wanted to file. However, I was all just patted. I try not to be influenced by what I read. 

"No, I must not be weak, I sure can make Luna happy even without Mas Niko," my inner self while looking at my little princess's face.

After making sure if Luna has fallen asleep. I took my phone and started writing back to the app that Mia had told me about. Word for word I write and I put it in my story. Until without feeling I fell asleep with the phone that is still in my grasp.

"Luna!" I shouted as I woke up and did not see my little princess.

Because there was no answer from Luna I rushed out of the room to look for her. It looks like Luna is sitting on the living room sofa with Mas Niko. I who just woke up from sleep went straight back to the room to clean up immediately and went straight to Luna and Mas Niko.

"Here Mas" I said as I pulled Mas Niko's hand violently.

"Mother" said Luna as she watched me pull her father's hand violently.

"You wait for Dad here, son, we will go for a walk" Mas Niko replied with a smile.

"Why did you come here again?" I asked when we were a little bit away from Luna.

"Why? It's not that I still have rights over my daughter" he said, letting go of my hand.

"Good, how many times do I have to say that if Luna is not your child, she is my child because I fought alone all this time!" I snapped to Niko in a small voice.

"In a moment," Niko said as she walked into my room.

"This room, this room is still the same as the first time we got married," said Mas Niko as he looked around the room.

"You better get out of here quickly, and never come back to this house again" I said, pulling Niko's hand.

"No! I'm not leaving this house!" niko snapped to make me let go of my hand.

"What do you want from me, are you not satisfied you hurt me," I asked in a high tone.

"I will leave here as long as you will forgive me and come back to me" Mas Niko replied as she drew closer to me.

For a moment my chest felt like it was beating so fast that it made me have trouble breathing. Seeing Mas Niko who was getting closer I started to step my legs back away from him. Laughing, he began to bring his face to my ears.

"I'll make sure you get back in my arms again" he said, hugging me.

"No, I will never go back to a cowardly man like you!" I snapped at Niko while letting go of her embrace.

"Are you sure, Niko who is now not the poor Niko you knew before, I can give you a decent life and Luna so that your life is not lacking like now," he said while tidying up his clothes that were tangled due to the push of my hand.

"plakk," a slap I gave Niko.

"I know you're a rich man, anything you can buy with your money but don't forget you can't buy my happiness and my feelings with your money" I replied with teary eyes.

"Are you sure you can make Luna happy with the deficiency condition as now," he said as if insulting me.

"I'll prove if I can make my daughter happy without your help, now get out of my house!" I snapped while pointing towards the door.

"Well I wait for your promise, and will make sure you won't be able to make Luna happy without my help" Niko threatened with a cynical smile and walked out of the room.

Luna who was enjoying the cake in her hand immediately turned her head as her father walked towards the door. He immediately ran over to teach Niko who ignored him. I who was still standing in the living room immediately chased after Luna in the front yard.

"Dad! Where are you going" cried Luna as she chased after Niko who kept walking to her car.

"Patience, son, Luna will play with Mom alone," I said while hugging Luna. 

"No! Luna hated Mom, "luna snapped as she shouted and ran into the house.

"O Allah, am I wrong if I want to make my daughter happy alone" my inner self began to shed tears.

Since that incident Mas Niko never came to my house again. Luna who was angry with me because of her father's departure has now started to open her heart again. Until I arrived on my daughter's birthday, I received a short message on the green app from Niko.

"How, have you been able to live luxuriously with your little daughter?" write Mas Niko in his short message.

"Where does he know that I have this app" I said, reading the message.

"I'll make sure you kneel at my feet and ask me to help you meet your needs" she sent me a short message.

"I'm sorry you better take care of your wife so she can be a sholeh woman, and I'll prove that I'll never ask you for any help for a dime," write me to the short message I sent to Niko.

"Based on the arrogant woman" Niko replied after reading a short message from me.

After reading the message sent I went straight to the house of Miss Santi. When I locked the door of my house suddenly Luna cried while hugging me from behind. The surprised me turned and sat in front of him.

"Why you, honey?" I asked while wiping her tears.

"Mother, today is Luna's 6th birthday huh," she replied as she was a little bit excited.

"Yes son, then why are you crying," I asked with a smile and tidying up my little princess' long hair. 

"Then why Luna does not celebrate like other friends," he asked again.

"O Allah strengthen me, strengthen my heart," my mind while looking deeply into Luna's eyes.

"Mother, why don't you answer," Luna's voice asked me a little surprised.

"We sit in a chair first yes, I'll give you a good story" I asked while standing and holding her tiny hand to the chair on the porch.

After sitting down and holding Luna's small body. I also started to explain what a birthday is. And why I don't celebrate his birthday.

"Darling, birthdays are the age of every human being, so if Luna yesterday was 5 years old now to be 6 years old," I answered while wiping her tears.

"Then why is Luna not having a dinner party and singing in this house like other friends?" asked Luna while looking at my face.

"In Islam there is no such thing as a dinner party or singing party on your birthday, so I deliberately did not throw any party for you" I replied, pinching her little nose.

"What's wrong, ma'am" he asked curiously.

"Because Allah does not like his name to be spoiled or excessive partying, or just this later in the afternoon Mother will make your favorite yellow rice and we share it with Luna's friends and some of it we give to the poor," I said while hugging Luna's shoulder.

"So if we want to celebrate the birthday must be a way to share it, ma'am," he asked while a little curious.

"Yes, as a sign of our gratitude God has given Luna a long life and health" I replied with a smile.

"Then what's today you're coming here?" asked Luna who instantly made me pause for a moment.

"We go to the house of Miss Santi yuk, I've been bad luck," asked me while holding Luna's hand.