Mom, Why Am I Different?

Chapter 17

Since earning a decent income from writing online. I am determined to continue to improve my writing to be more beautiful and more attractive to readers. Although I know it is not easy to be a great writer with only a low education capital like me.

"Now that you take a shower and take a nap, I want to continue Mother's unfinished work" I ordered my little daughter.

"Yes Ma'am," Luna replied as she walked into the room to put down her groceries.

What I feel right now is happy and proud of myself. What I initially thought was impossible turned out to be something I could do. Even without the help of a man beside me.

"I have to be able to make Luna happy, she has to be able to get the best life and education" I said while sitting on the living room sofa.

I began to write word for word, and paragraphs that were in accordance with the course of my life. Without any subtraction and addition in any of my writings. I do not intend to open the disgrace of my life, all this I do as an expression of heart that I have never revealed to anyone.

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A month passed so quickly that I had managed to write some stories in some online applications. Since the divorce, Niko still often went home to visit Luna. I also never forbid or limit the meeting of Father and son.

"Assalamualaikum," said Mas Niko while knocking on the door.

"Waalaikumsalam," I replied as I walked towards the door.

"I'm sorry if I bother you, I just want to meet Luna" Mas Niko said after I opened the door.

"Yes, please come in Mas" I replied as I let her in and sat down on the sofa.

"It seems that now you have a better life" he said as he watched me tidy up some books, cell phones and laptops.

"Alhamdulillah, you wait here for a while I make a drink first all call Luna in the room," I said as I brought my laptop and work tools into the room.

"Thank you, Rani" he replied in a very friendly manner.

I just smiled faintly as I turned to Niko who was sitting on the sofa. I did deliberately not talk too much, because I do not want if Mas Niko put back the old taste in his heart. After calling Luna I walked straight to the kitchen to make a cup of warm tea for Niko.

"Please drink Mas" I said, putting a cup of warm tea on the table.

"Yes, thank you Ran," he replied with a smile.

For a moment I watched Luna and Niko play happily. Niko also seems to love Luna very much. While sitting in a chair I began to ask the circumstances of both my former in-laws and Niken.

"Papa died 2 years ago, exactly 1 year after my marriage and Niken," Niko said as she turned to me for a moment.

"Innalillahiwainnailaihirojijun, why not from that time tell me Mas," asked Niko. 

"Because at that time I was busy asking you to come back to me again, so I forgot to tell you about Papa's departure" Niko explained as she looked at me sharply.

"Then how's Niken doing, is she okay?" ask me while switching the conversation.

"Niken thank God well, she is currently pregnant young," Mas Niko replied to me.

"Pregnant! Can a person who has a blockage in the uterus get pregnant?" my mind was a little surprised.

"Alhamdulillah yes Mas finally Niken can get pregnant," I replied with a smile full of question marks.

I'm happy to hear about Niken's pregnancy. However, what is a burden on my mind right now is what it is possible for a person who has a blockage in his uterus to get pregnant without surgery. Or maybe he has already done surgery. 

"Rani, Rani I want to leave first, because Mama asked me to buy Niken some fruits," said Mas Niko as she nudged my hand to make me realize from my daydream.

"Oh yes Mas, greetings to Niken and Mama," I said with a little surprise.

"Darling, I'll go home if I'm not busy playing anymore" said Niko and then kissed Luna on the forehead.

"Yes Well, if you come here to buy Luna a new toy again Yes Well," said Luna while looking at her face.

"Luna, you can't talk like that" I ordered with a little snapping to make Luna immediately put her lips together like she wanted to cry.

"It's okay Ran, yes later Dad will bring a lot of toys for Luna," said Niko while seducing her little daughter.

Hearing the father's answer, Luna who had looked annoyed now immediately smiled happily. I forbid Luna to ask for money or anything to Niko not because of prestige. However, I don't want Luna to rely too much on Niko.

"Luna, next time don't talk like that in front of Dad," I explained to Luna when Niko was gone from my house.

"Why Ma'am, Luna's going to ask Dad instead of someone else" Luna replied while looking a little angry.

"It's not that I don't allow it, even though it's Luna's father but it's still rude, after all, I've bought Luna a lot of toys, too" I explained, asking my daughter to sit on my lap.

"Is it because Dad doesn't live with us so Luna can't ask for anything?" asked Luna while looking into my eyes.

"One day Luna will know what is going on between Mom and Dad" I said, inviting Luna into the room.

I don't know why tonight I suddenly remembered Mas Niko's words about Niken's pregnancy. I who started to be curious about what Mas Niko said immediately took my laptop and searched for information about the blockage in the womb. The answer on the internet surprised me.

"If pregnancy can happen with a baby tube process or surgery, then how can Niken get pregnant purely or maybe they do baby tubes," my mind while continuing to stare at my laptop screen.

When I was daydreaming about Niken's pregnancy. Suddenly I was surprised by the sound of my phone next to my laptop. Mas Niko's name is on my phone screen.

"Why do these nights call me, if I accept, doesn't that make Niken angry?" I said while staring at my phone screen.

After a while I received the phone call. There was the sound of Mas Niko talking to me while whispering. It makes it hard to hear what he says.

"Hello, what could Mas please a little big suarami," I said while trying to hear the sound of mas Niko.

"Can pregnant women menstruate?" ask Mas Niko to surprise me.

"Menstruation, why are you asking like that?" I asked a little surprised and confused.

"I accidentally found a sanitary pad in a garbage can in the toilet, and it looks like it's a used sanitary pad" Mas Niko explained in a whisper.

"Slayers?" I thought about Niken's pregnancy.