Married Because of Ijbar

Chapter 73.

Shortly after hanging up the phone, Maula cried while holding her phone very tightly. He knew he would always be like this.

While Khayru was beginning to feel what had happened to Maula, it was quite abnormal.

“What happened to him. Could he be sick?”

“Ah, no! nay! This is impossible.” He shook his head to shake off the suspicions that suddenly appeared in his mind.

“But ...” He returned wondering as the suspicion continued to bother him. “What if this really happened?”

After thinking long enough, he finally decided to call dr. Luthfie because she's the only one to talk to right now. Especially because dr. Luthfie is a psychiatrist who may better understand a person's psychiatric condition.

“Wah, phone tumben. What's up, Ru?” Fortunately doctor Luthfie can still be contacted even though he was on guard at his hospital in Bandung. They asked each other the news because it was quite a long time did not meet, before finally, Khayru to ask a few things.

“Sorry, doctor, I interrupt these nights.” It seemed, he would not be able to sleep if he had to wait until tomorrow to ask this.

“Don't hesitate, I'm a standby doctor, Ru,”. “Any phone call anytime, 24 hours.” he continued while chuckling.

Khyaru uttered some expressions of admiration for the doctor because he was a role model in his hospital.

“Where, how? Can anyone help?” bargained for.

Even though the night was almost late, but his tone still sounded aloof with excitement. This is Khayru's opportunity to ask some things about the habits and behavior of someone he values is not common to most people.

Doctor Luthfie just silently listened to what Khayru said about someone he did not mention by name. However, it is unexpected that Luthfie's doctor can guess exactly who and what happened to someone who was the subject of conversation tonight.

“You just noticed, Ru?” ask doctor Luthfie to make Khayru frown.

“Against what, doctor?”

regarding what Maula has experienced so far, it has been a long time, she established the diagnosis that Maula suffers from BPD (Borderline personality disorder)⁶

“What?!” Khayru could hardly believe that Maula had been suffering from such a psychiatric illness.

“You think, why would Mr Zul insist on asking you to look after Maula? Yes, it was because she realized that her daughter needed special treatment from the people closest to her that was you. He's a little different to the other kids.”

Khayru was stunned, instantly her mouth was unable to speak. He has made the biggest mistake of taking the trust off his father Maula.

“BPD, generally attacks teenage children until adulthood. And Maula realized something was wrong with her more than a year ago. Before you go to Morocco.”

“Why didn't anyone tell me? I should have known whatever happened to Maula. Not even let me go away from him.” murmured as if to blame doctor Luthfie.

“You asked not to tell anyone and it was his wish for you to go far, Ru. The symptoms are like that. Feeling having to shy away from someone, a changing mood, stress, fear of rejection, feeling worthless, empty and lonely.”. “I don't think you will obey Maula. You suck, Ru!”

His mouth is getting stiffer. He had no choice of the best words to express regret. She is increasingly reminded by Katia's remark that Maula has often spent time in the bathroom just to cry alone.

Could it be that Maula was lonely. I shouldn't have left, no matter what. He took a long breath.

Condemning himself for letting Maula live that time alone.

“Maula is struggling to avoid the scariest thing in her life which is ... suicide,” explained doctor Lutfie carefully.

“Astagfirullahaladzim!!” Khayru again said Istighfar while rubbing his chest. “That's it?” Khayru's concerns are mounting.

“I hope not. Because he always said it could still be controlled. It's just, there might be a little fear if at any time he loses control.”

“Maula had indeed expressed a desire to kill herself when Papa died. I think that's normal, because he lost his parents. Another thing with the incident of Mama Rere who died by suicide. Maula's responsive attitude is very unorthodox because she associates her with many things.”

“Yes, for people with BPD indeed such things can trigger to do things that are impulsive. Feel life is worthless anymore because the people she cares about have abandoned her.”

“What should I do to be around her, doctor? I don't want to make any more mistakes.” His eyelids are now getting wet with the ball getting flushed.

“Avoid debates while being around him, as he tends to get angry easily. That's it first.”

“Good.” Khayru nodded slowly to herself.

“Tomorrow we meet in Jakarta. I will make an appointment with doctor Aini sp.KJ at the hospital.”

“Doctor Aini?” The name was like no stranger to Khayru's ears.

“Iya, doctor Aini,” clear Luthfie. “When I was prevented from coming to Jakarta, it was Dr. Aini who faced Maula directly when she came for consultation.”

Shortly after hanging up the phone, Khayru immediately drove forward. In the middle of the night, he called Ferdi to open the door for him.

All the residents of the house were sound in the dream cradle, while he stood facing Maula's room while raising his face.

“From now on, never ask your brother to leave, because you will always be in the closest place to you like a shadow. Don't be lonely anymore.”

That morning, at the same time as Maula, Khayru came out of her room. The presence was quite surprising, especially at that time, Khayru immediately hugged Maula without cues. This time he ignored the rules again, because what he wanted to do at the moment, was to be as close as possible to the Maula.

*K-why is it suddenly here*?

“Abang! Release me!”

Khayru doesn't care about Maula's voice. Until a few minutes passed, he just let go of his embrace

Maula stared in surprise, no one knew when the man entered her house. He returned to occupy the room he had left for a long time.

“Ish ... don't hold it carelessly!” gerrutu.

Khayru took a deep breath, while stretching both hands upwards. “Thank God, you haven't changed anything in this house. If so, you could lose all the sweet memories of the two of us.”

He walked behind Maula who stepped slowly because she had to tidy up her veil. “Sini Brother help.” Khayru offered help while extending a hand.

“I told you not to hold!” pekik. “Abang can stay in this house because it's Abang's house too, but that doesn't mean you can touch-touch me at will.”

“What if Abang khilaf?”

“Yes don't khilaf, dong. That's khilaf.”

The sound of Maula's chatter is enough to seize the attention of all residents of the house who gathered in the dining room. However, Khayru presence that morning more attention again. Because only Ferdi knew that last night Khayru came back to this house.

“Wah, early in the morning this is already here, sir Iru?” katia asked as she stood up to welcome her presence.

“Sorry for everything, because maybe from now on I will stay here again. Hopefully no one will mind.” She shifted a chair to Maula while she sat next to her.

Of course he got a good reception from Bi Sulis, Mbak Tina and also Neneng who is currently present all in the dining room with their respective duties when preparing breakfast. Neneng who brought all the food menu from the kitchen, Madam Tina prepared dishes, glasses and spoons and others. While Bi Sulis filled the dishes with rice and poured water into crystal glasses that reflected the sparkle when the sunlight touched it from between the windows.

“I'm happy sir Iru, because I need someone who can be harvested in this house. Especially if I get married later, maybe I can't stay here anymore. I have to go with my husband, dong. Yes, right?” say Katia before choosing a complementary dish of rice, on her plate.

“You ... so get married, Kat?” khayru asked while focusing on the face of Maula who had started devouring her food after praying for a while. Talking about Aldi and Katia's marriage again, makes her worry if Maula doesn't like it.

Katia nodded with a smile. “Tanya Maula only. He arranged everything, really, so I can be sure of my decision, because he helped talk to Aldi.” Katia looked at the Maula in front of her. “Still, Deck, help.”

“Indeed ... what are you talking about with Aldi last night?” khayru asked Maula in between chewing food while remembering Aldi's unfinished speech last night he listened to. Aldi just said that if Maula greatly complicates the way for her to marry Katia, because her views on marriage are very complicated. Aldi has not had time to say that Maula finally proposed many conditions to him just for the sake of Katia to live happily after marriage without Risa or any woman who would disturb their household. Khayru too quickly hung up on Aldi last night, making him misunderstand.

“Why ask me? Didn't you know that I had poisoned the mind of Kak Tia and Om Aldi so they didn't get married?” ketus Maula while remembering the words of Khayru who suddenly blamed him last night.

“You guys misunderstood, huh?” katia asked a little confused.

Increasingly, Maula is increasingly realizing that the negative paradigm of a marriage overshadowed by a third person is unlikely to end happily - it still fills her mind. However, in the case of Aldi and Katia, Maula is just trying to anticipate. He couldn't possibly be selfish by forbidding them to marry. That's what's happening right now.

Khayru patted her own head when she realized that she had misunderstood. However, it was because of his mistake that he could know the disturbance that Maula had experienced all this time.

“Pardon your future husband, yes, dear?” khayru said while lowering her face to be able to look at the face of Maula who was looking down and focused on the food on her plate.

“Abang is not my future husband but my ex-husband,” he said slowly because the distance of their faces is quite close.

“Do not. Brother proposed to you. You can apply whatever conditions you want, as long as you accept Brother's application.”

Khayru several times held back the hand of Maula who wanted to devour her food in order to hear the answer from the mouth of Maula. “Accept, yes, yes?”

“Abaaangg!! I'm eating!” maula shouted as she put the spoon she failed to send to her mouth.

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Note :

⁶Borderline personality disorder (BPD) or borderline personality disorder is a condition that arises due to the disruption of a person's mental health. This condition affects the way you think and feel about yourself and others, as well as the presence of abnormal behavior patterns. (Source: Hallodoc)