Love to My Widow

The Longing that Begins Unstoppable

Time seems to pass quickly. Entering the three months, Nila had not yet received any news from Biyan.

He could only search the internet for information about the condition of the conflict area where Biyan was assigned.

When I heard there was a suicide bombing near the camp shelter of the auxiliary troops.

Nila's heart was pounding uncharacteristically, worried if something happened to Biyan there.

He ran hurriedly down from the second floor to the ground floor directly towards the study room where Vina was working overtime.

His face was panicked with bawling breaths.

Vina looked at Nila, her face wondering what happened.

Nila immediately turned on the television which was also in the workspace where the news of the suicide bombing was still being broadcast.

Nila was tense, her hands were trembling, her legs could not stand still when Vina asked her to sit down.

Vina tried to calm down and find more accurate information about the whereabouts and condition of Biyan's troops.

"How is Vina, there are casualties there from the auxiliary forces?" Nila anxiously bit her lower lip, she stood up and paced behind Vina who was sitting in front of the focused work desk facing the laptop.

Vina opened an English-language article directly from a foreign journalist there, explaining that there were no casualties, only the body of the perpetrator was smashed apart.

"Huffp.." Nila was relieved but her eyes did not escape the tears that began to flow.

"Hum" Vina simply sighed seeing Nila's current condition.

Nila sat down in front of Vina and covered her face in a careless manner, she lowered her head on the table, the sound of sobbing began to sound.

Vina approached and hugged tightly Nila encouragingly.

The commander who just peeked at them from the slit of the workspace door was slightly open.

"It's been... Biyan is fine, you calm down huh." gently stroked Nila's head

"Do I always have to feel this way, beware, how he is there, amankah he.. I...i..hiks" still in a position down his body shaken because his crying began to break'.

"You should try to calm your heart and always positive thinking that Biyan will be safe and come back soon" Trying to wake Nila up.

"Biyan" her hands still covered her face.

"Have not cried" Vina opened Nila's hand covering her face

"I'm not ready to lose him" with tears streaming down

"usttt..good prayers.may Biyan always be given safety" wiped the tears.

"Hopefully"

Nila began to calm down.

The commander saw that Nila was starting to improve, he returned to his room.

He sat on the bed and held tightly to the back of the bed.

It seems I mishandled Nila with Biyan.

Such a small girl would have to withstand such a heavy burden.

Newly married must be left behind her husband to carry out duties in the conflict area and almost three months there has been no news of him.

Huhhhhhhhhhhh...

Lord forgive me.

maybe I used to torture my wife like this, too, until she left this world.

But .... This is the mandate that we must carry to be a soldier of choice, guarding and defending for the sake of the homeland.

Huff...

God, may this conflict be over quickly so that Biyan can return home soon and Nila can be happy again.

There was no water at the end of his eyes.

***

Back to work

Nila began to improve, Vina patiently advised and encouraged Nila.

Vina must indeed be a sister figure where Nila who is still a teenager must be the wife of a soldier, with a unstable mental condition. Although Nila always tries to mature herself but it is undeniable when she hears bad news she will easily panic.

"Now you have to focus on college to graduate quickly if you can 3 years already graduation, so Biyan is proud"

patting Nila's earnest quietly after she calmed down enough.

Nila tried to smile

Biyan I might still like to trouble the people around me, because I can't stand crying when I hear the mess where you're assigned.

But I will begin to organize my heart, act calmer, and reach my goals so that you can be proud when you come home later.

***

She takes a shower and wears a white Biyan shirt and Nila remembers that shirt she wore at their wedding.

Look in front of the mirror and hug yourself wearing that shirt.

Only this shirt can be my miss Biyan.

It felt warm, warm as you hugged me.

Your scent is still clinging to your body

down here.

Let God see me as crazy as this,

But this is the only medicine when I really miss you...

He lay on the bed, a puppet with Biyan's face on its trunk soft.

"I'm actually a little angry with you. Almost three months without any news from you.

Actually it's your game or it's God's destiny that's playing with my heart.

I hate.. hate..."

banging dolls

But it's taken back the doll

"I'm sorry Biyan has doubted you again. God please don't let him forget me for a second, haunt him with my face...

But if I keep in mind he'll be in danger in his duties because he can't focus.

Huh. I'm confused.

But I still hate you, what good is the phone you bought until now still empty no message from you only your portrait that meets the memory of the phone.

Biyan I miss.haaaa.haaa"

Crying hugging tightly doll

Still lying down, Nila kissed the Biyan Shirt she was wearing.

Only the smell of this shirt can make me slightly treat the longing for your love Biyan.

Hurry home baby.I'm really crazy not being able to stem this longing anymore.

Nila rambled again all night with the doll she thought of as Biyan, until it fell into a deep sleep.

It is often done if the feeling of longing is heavy .

***

Next morning.

Although his head was a little heavy he tried to be fine in front of the commander.

But different if he is with Vina he shamelessly tells all the heavy burden of being too long with Biyan.

Nila has left for college by herself on a motorcycle. He looks happy in the morning but languishes at night.

Now Mr. Mir is in charge of escorting Vina and the commander in his new company which is built around the area near the house. He opened a cross-provincial cargo expedition service.

With Vina's cleverness, she actually developed the company's wings of other sector commanders.

From every company that Vina runs always get a decent share from the commander. He strongly believed and relied on Vina, this was considered a reward for him. Although not as large as the shares given in the name of Nila and Biyan. But Nila didn't know that.

**

Nila was so crazy studying on campus that she often forgot lunch. Sometimes eat just any, often eat spicy foods that he thinks make the spirit.

At night he stayed up studying and still missed Biyan.

It was starting to make Nila a little thin. What's more this midterm exam is her first semester she doesn't want the results to disappoint.

After the lecture hours are up he will be a lot in the campus library or city library, deepen his knowledge.

By late afternoon Nila came home, sometimes until dark she just came home.

He preoccupies himself with learning, learning and learning.

Only then did he slightly forget his longing for Biyan.

Although in learning a little bit staring at the phone that wallpaper his portrait Biyan.

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