Love Me Please (Related cruel husband)

Not ready to lose

The most painful longing is to miss someone who is gone, to crush the whole body because it will not find a meeting point even though the world is turned upside down five hundred million times and will not meet even if waiting for hundreds of years.

I wasn't ready to lose you. Not being able to get away from you is always in my heart (Stevan Pasaribuan)

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Rachel POV

I stared at that face, my face asleep with my eyes closed tightly. Ayu's face, which was once beautiful, is now beginning to wrinkle. Black and long hair that used to be beautiful, now decorated with white equivalent.

God, I don't feel like I can cry anymore, these tears are really dry. Why and why? They left me here alone, to whom else would I complain? Who else am I talking to about how tired I am at work? To whom else would I ask, when there was no money in my bag? And to whom I tell you how tired I am of my domestic life.

"Mother, hikssss." I just kept crying, hugging that stiff body. Her hands folded neatly over her stomach and her face looked beautiful after being dressed.

"Mom, why would you leave Rachel here alone? I woke up, Mom, woke up.. Rachel hikssss." Even if I keep crying won't make you wake up again.

I felt a warm swipe on my shoulder, a swipe from someone who had a dark burly hand from yesterday continued to hug me and even he did not leave me at all. And for some reason the hugging could slightly make this tired soul again feel the warmth.

"Mother." Rima's screams also sounded loud.

Rima cried hysterically, however Rima was the closest to Mom, because after I got married they just stayed alone. But now that I'm gone forever, no matter who else this heart is going to complain about.

"Mother, don't stay in Rima Ma'am. Rima can't be without Mom". Mey's screams are still echoing. Ayunia hugged Rima tightly, trying to calm her down and give the girl strength.

"It's Hel." He hugged me again and again, I looked up at his face.

"Mas hiksss's." The aduku can't hold back any more feelings that really want to make me die.

"You must be sincere, this is the way of life's destiny." As she hugged me tightly near Mom's corpse.

"Hel patiently yes". Said Alvan who was also trying to calm me down.

"Bags, hikssss". Again and again I complained, when I was not a weak girl but already almost two high I just kept crying, moaning with everything that happened to me.

It was not only my tormented and depressed inner self but also my soul that felt fragile and helpless at this moment.

I looked back at Mom, I wiped Mom's face for the last time. This face I won't see again until the world is turned upside down a million times. This face will disappear from my eyes.

I wanted to, I felt angry and screamed in front of his face but it was all for nothing, Mom would never come back to me again. Mom's gone forever, haven't I cried enough and why else am I angry?

It was like a dream that felt real. Two weeks ago Mom told me and asked when I was coming home and see now why did she close her eyes and refuse to welcome me?

And now, he also chose to go and let me live alone. I didn't even say a word, didn't say goodbye or just goodbye.

Rima's cry goes hand in hand with Mother's coffin, while I'm already unable to scream or just cry. The whole flow in my body seemed to stop and made me just silently stare without moving in the arms of Mas Choky, the second man after my father who made me feel protected.

"Mom, torch Mother". Rima hysterical if only not Alvan and Ayunia who holds it certainly Rima also entered the ground with Mother's coffin.

"The strong rhyme". Ayunia hugged Rima's body tightly, my best friend was always present twenty-four hours and even Ayunia had not come home since yesterday.

"Sister, Mother, hikssssssss". Rima rebelled again, but was soon embraced by Alvan and Ayunia

"It's Rima, you have to be strong. Don't keep this up". The real Ayunia is also fragile.

Alvan and Ayunia together embrace the rebellious Rima, the two of them seem to be working together.

"Mom, hyx hyx hyx hyx hyx hyx". I was the one who was looking back to cry hysterically, in front of Mother's belly button. The tombstone that says his name.

"Dad, Mother. Why did you leave Rachel so soon, Rachel still needs you guys to have a hex". I hugged the tombstone with a cry.

I stared at the two tombs with hearts as if they were sliced away from my life forever. Five years ago I was crazy the same way. Not yet I rose from heartbreak because of the loss of Father and now followed by the sudden departure of Mother. And even my heart will never heal from all the wounds that are more than the wounds of my husband's cruelty.

Why does God love to torture this self? After being severely tortured and rejected by my own husband and even bathed in tears every day and now I have to face the eternal farewell of separation that will never find its meeting point and even separation there will be no end, even if the world is turned upside down five hundred million times and even waits for hundreds of years.

My head really hurts, after marriage I live in tears. There was no one including Mama and Rima. Even the pain I felt today was more than the cruel torment of my husband on my body.

Why is my life destiny so different? Let me give my eyes to Rima who already looks calm in Ayunia's arms, if not for my sister Rima maybe at this time I also choose to leave this world. But when I saw the innocent face of that teenage girl, making my heart ache even more how could we live without anyone?

I closed my eyes, enjoying every pain that was lived and lived. I can't escape all this, I just keep having to go with the flow of this life story.

"Hel."

Mas Choky buried my face in his field. This hug is comfortable. I really need a hug. I want to cry for a long time in Mas Choky's arms because after this I will return to my cruel husband.

"You're never alone, there's still us who's always there for you." His words sounded sincere, I flinch and only remain silent. But the tears that shed signified that my soul was so fragile.

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