Love Arrum

23. Apologizing

Pov arrum

This morning Arya and I, my son, went on a pilgrimage to the tomb of Alm mas Yahya. Mother had prepared in the morning a bag of flowers that she collected from her own yard and some of them asked to the neighbors.

The goddess accompanied us. During the trip, Dewi who more often talk Arya. As for me, I kept thinking about my decision. Is this the best?

Our trip did not take long, because the distance of the house with the location of the tomb was only about one kilo. We're just on foot. During the walk, many people noticed me. There are some who say hello, there are also those who just look at me with a difficult gaze to interpret.

I didn't respond, I knew whatever happened I could get through.

I rubbed the tombstone of the deceased, the tomb looked clean and well-groomed. I know this is thanks to my parents who cleaned it so diligently. I guided Arya and the Goddess to prayer. Begging that the deceased be placed in the best place, kept away from all grave torments. However good the deceased, because indeed he is a very good figure, as far as I know, but every human being will never escape sin.

I saw Arya's tear drop in her tiny hand. He must have missed his father a lot. Looking at this scene, I was already unable to hold back my tears as well. How I feel so guilty for opening my heart to someone else, for loving someone other than her father.

I feel again the land in which the body of a person who is very meaningful in my life.

"Mas... Look at our son. He misses you so much. He's a good boy. He always prays for you at every prayer. I often hear her teaching in a sweet voice. He's also a smart kid at his school. You're proud, aren't you...??" I asked in my heart.

"Mas... Are you mad at me mas? Would you be angry if I said I loved another man? I'm sorry, mas..."

The goddess stroked my shoulder and took me home. I sprinkle the flowers I brought from the house while Arya splashes water over the navel of the deceased.

"Dad, we're going home. Tomorrow before Arya goes back to the cottage to study again, Arya will come again to visit father. Assalamu'alaikum." said Arya, I took my son's hand and went home.

***

"Sir, have you taken care of all the administration?" ask Dian.

"Already mas. But kok brother Rangga has not come yet mas? isn't that a pick-up?" moo Dian was a little worried.

"So soon, he's sending a message that it's on the road." Andi replied while playing her phone.

"Cock his face looks so masem? no seneng ya want to be picked up by Rangga, want her to be picked up by Riana??" Dian was a little suspicious because from then on Andi looked agitated.

"Your conscience, I'm just confused because mas messages are rarely really in the same bales Arrum, why? kayak now, even though it has been sent a message many times and all sent, but do not be in bales, it is not open. He was always making the mas restless, very mysterious, and then he was a woman who could make mas wait until almost crazy like this." explained Andi.

"haha.... I swear, Dian has not known Andi now. This is not the Andi that Dian knows. A very cold person is now a super romantic person. Even the same time mbak Riana did not like this deh." kekeh Dian.

The sound of knocking on the door stopped Dian's laughter. Then Dian opens the door and it turns out Riana is coming.

"Bak kok come again anyway, it was said yesterday if we will be picked up by Rangga" exclaimed Dian

"Yes Dian, I came here just to see your sister's situation anyway." replied Riana softly.

Dian was forced to let Riana in. The girl chose to come out because she was lazy to see the face of her ex-sister.

"Ri, please don't see me anymore" Andi said to Riana's back.

"Why An? didn't you say yesterday that we could be friends?" ask Riana. Andi just kept quiet.

"After all I won't be long. I just want to see how you are. But if my presence bothers me, I'm sorry. I'm gonna go." Riana's out.

Andi feels bad, actually that's not what it means. Although Riana had once hurt her heart, but that woman was a good figure in her eyes. In addition to her gentle nature, she was also a caring person. Nothing has changed since Riana.

But if you have to be close to him, it feels uncomfortable for Andi. He didn't want anything he didn't want to happen. What is meant here is if there will be a misunderstanding between him and Arrum.

Because little or much, the story of the past can certainly inculcate a doubt. What Andi wants right now is to convince Arrum, the woman he now loves to be his life partner.

"I'm sorry, Riana." muttered Andi.

Not long after Rangga appeared, then they moved out of the hospital.

"Thanks to Ga... Lo is my best friend who is always there for me" Andi told his best friend while in the car.

"Yes, relax." replied Rangga.

Rangga drove his car at a moderate speed. Towards the house of his best friend who had been considered as his own brother.