Love Arrum

14. Statements

On the way home, there was little talk between Andi and Arrum. The atmosphere inside the car was cooling again. Arrum continued to look out from behind the car door glass, while Andi focused on the steering wheel.

There is something Andi wants to tell Arrum. But just sitting together in the car alone he was groggy and awkward not playing. Same thing with Andi, a clumsy feeling also wrestled with Arrum, feeling very ignorant of themselves being in one car and only alone with the employer.

Suddenly, Andi's car stopped. Arrum was confused because this had not yet reached home. Seen in that place is a garden that many shady trees. Each tree has a lounge chair that all overlooks a small lake. The park is cool but unfortunately in the afternoon like this very few visitors who stop there. The park is so beautiful to spend an afternoon.

"Why are we here?" arrum asked but not answered and Andi pulled Arrum's hand to follow him.

Arrum refused by removing his arm from Andi's hand.

"just come along for a second." forcibly Andi pulled Arrum's hand back.

Now they were sitting in a chair under a shady tree. Right in front of them, just a few meters away was that green lake.

"Arrum,," call Andi to open the conversation.

Arrum looked at Andi. His face is a little tense. His hands are still squeezing each other. Andi took one from that hand, in his hand so tightly. Do not be asked how the condition of the heart and blood flow belongs to Arrum, it is very unusual.

"I wasn't sure about the feeling I was feeling. At first I felt sympathy for you. I started to be interested in you for a long time. I don't know what attracted me, I don't know either. But every time I hear you cry in every single one of your tahajud, I feel like I want to heal your loss. I know I can't take your husband's place in your heart. But I assure you that I'm not kidding. I like you, I love you Arrum. I know you are not a woman who is insensitive to my attitude towards you. Lying when you don't feel the attention I'm giving you. I really hope you accept my feelings. I'm not a young man anymore. And if you want to accept my feelings, I'll see your parents soon." And finally word for word it escaped Andi's lips. Somehow, in an instant the sentences were arranged by themselves. Surely before Andi had gathered all the courage he had.

Actually, this is not the first time he expressed love to a woman, but this is the second time, of course, he only has one experience. It was natural that he was still nervous.

Arrum cried after hearing Andi's words.

"Arrum,, are you crying?? what was? did I say wrong? did I offend you??" Andi was very nervous to see the sobbing Arrum.

"Why Arrum? don't you like me? are you not ready yet? I can wait for you. Listen Arrum, I don't know why I feel actually you feel what I feel too. Am I wrong ?"

"Mas Andi.mas is an established, kind and handsome man. You can definitely get a woman who is fit and fit for you. Beautiful, educated, and certainly not a widow like me. There are a lot of better women out there than me. So do not look at me." replied Arrum still with a sob.

"If I'm looking for a better one, there's a lot out there. But what I'm looking for is what my heart is comfortable with and I only find comfort with you."

"I don't care about your status. Because I like you for who you are. I like the softness of your attitude. I love your loyalty to your late husband. I like your fortitude. I love the sound of teaching you. I like your cooking. I love your closeness with Dian. I love everything you have."

"Arrum please listen to me. Trust me, I really mean my feelings. I've been thinking about it for a long time.It's not a day or two that I like you even from the first look I've started falling in love with you." this time Andi was already in front of Arrum, sitting on her knees before him.

"Mas Andi, I haven't been able to forget my late husband. I still love him very much. It is very difficult for me to open my heart to others. I haven't even wanted to think of replacing it from my heart."

"Arrum, I don't mind waiting for you until you can love me"

"Mas Andi.It is better to use your time to find a good woman for you. Right now I just want to focus on my son. Please don't waste your time for free. I did find my husband's figure on you, you guys have a lot of similarities. That's what makes me like you. But I don't want to love you, I'm not the woman you deserve."

" I'm not gonna give up rum. I will prove that I really mean it. And don't ever think that you don't deserve me. Because in reality I'm really in love with you. I'll wait until you accept me."

Arrum still shed tears until they reached home. Although it had not made a sound, but the clear liquid was still flowing with its swiftness.

Andi was very frustrated. His mixed feelings between relief because he could finally express his feelings, as well as the guilt of still forcing to wait until Arrum received it which made Arrum constantly cry. But that she did because she felt that Arrum actually loved her too, evidenced when she said she liked him because Andi was very similar to Arrum's late husband.