Love Arrum

10. Avoiding Feelings

Andi POVs

It had been a month since I gave Arrum the hijab, but I had never seen him wear it. Whether he doesn't like it or anything, I don't know. Even since then Arrum has been avoiding me. I always tried to give her little attention, trying to get her to feel my sympathy and take care of her. But the more days he avoids me.She returns like Arrum who just first worked here, who prefers to shut himself up and quiet.

I also feel the cry that he used to always shed every tahajudnya now getting longer, like something really bothers him. Though previously he had started to be a happy figure, smiling and joking with Dian. Why, is he disturbed by me?

Like this morning, she looked agitated as I sat watching her prepare breakfast. I was deliberately ready early in the morning to talk to her before there was Dian. But he won't even look at me. I hesitated to ask her this attitude. And I finally chose silence.

"Please breakfast mas, I'll call mbak Dian." he said without looking at me.

"Hmmm.yeah" I replied when he had passed, he did not wait for my answer.

Soon Dian came and immediately took his food. As for Arrum, he returned to his room. I don't know what he did in the room, but before him he often accompanied us to breakfast while cleaning the kitchen.

"Mas,, Arrum, why have rada been different lately?" Dian asked as she put the fried rice into her mouth.

"How different?" I often pretend I don't understand.

" Yes is different. Back to being Arrum's first new job. Quiet again."

" Maybe he misses his family again. Or miss his son deck. You know her little boy's been in the cottage."

"Let's give me permission to make Arrum look at his son."

I'm speechless. Is it true that she misses her son? why did it never occur to me to tell him to visit his son, while he has been working here for almost 4 months. And during that time he could only listen to his son's voice over the phone. He must have missed his son a lot.

"Mas, this week try to bring Arrum to meet his son. The cottage is not too far away. Dian also wanted to say that this Sunday is precisely Saturday and Sunday, at the school Dian held a tourist work, so Dian asked for money for his administration and to buy equipment that Dian must bring mas." obviously Dian. I'm nodding.

"Yes later in the afternoon take the money of the case yes. So tomorrow you can buy what you need"

During the trip I was still thinking about what Dian said earlier that told me to take Arrum to visit her son. Does he want me to take him?

Dian pov

Along the way, mas Andi was just silent, even though he usually always asked about my school problems or just told me about his work. I know, surely Andi's still thinking about Arrum.

I know very well that Andi actually likes Arrum, it's just that he's very good at hiding his feelings.

He never realized that I often caught him sitting in front of Mbak Arrum's room in the middle of the night just to wait for Arrum's madam. I also really know how he often steals the eyes on Mrbak Arrum. Often give the same gift as a gift for me, I'm sure that all of it is actually for mbak Arrum, but Andi must give the same item with me so that no one knows what it means. Unfortunately, Andi always forgets that these items are not my favorite.

mas..mas.

But calm mas.I also like kok mbak Arrum. So I will definitely support you. Although Arrum is a widow, but if love has spoken all there is no problem.

I'll help you mas. I know you're too jaim and afraid of your own feelings. So I decided to start fighting you guys from now on. And that was the first step: to give the idea of taking Arrum to meet his son. hahahaha.....

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At home, after making sure his employer's siblings had left, Arrum began to leave the room with a swollen face. He cried because he felt guilty for being indifferent to Andi. He finished his former meal of Andi and Dian. It appears that Andi's food is only slightly reduced. Arrum sat down and shed his tears again.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to stay away from you. I just don't want to hurt you. I know that all this time you've been paying more attention to me than the employer's attention to the maid. You're always waiting for me every night on my throne. I don't know what you feel for me I don't know, but I can feel your different attention towards me. So I decided to avoid it, avoid things that shouldn't happen. I have not opened my heart yet. I am still too full of my heart with my husband. Not a bit I want to replace it immediately. Even though I saw the figure of Yahya mas, but I do not want to consider yourself as a substitute. I'm not the right woman for you." Arrum spoke to himself.

Although only an ordinary person, but Arrum is also a woman who has feelings that are sensitive to someone's attitude to him.

It is very difficult to forget the figure we love so much who has lived with us for so long . The sorrow of losing her beloved husband has sealed Arrum's heart. All he wants now is to give his best for his son.

It has been decided by him not to open his heart to anyone including Andi. Until later when he is ready to start a new life with someone who will accept him as he is.