Longing Curtain

Episode 18's

"Am I dreaming? Taking off and letting go of you is that easy"

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I was like dreaming, feeling the pain of the hurt feeling. Letting go and letting go are 2 things that are difficult to ascertain. These tears were unbearable to hear all the words that were so painful. I left the room, not running away from reality but running to calm my mind.

When I got home, I poured all the sadness into the silence. Looking up at the sky to whom am I complaining? And everyone no longer cares about me. Where to run? But there is no stopping place.

Enough's enough! I do not want to dissolve in sadness, I realize there are things that cannot be forced. I expect too much from people who don't deserve it.

At a time like this I need someone who can calm me down.

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"Ra, we're going to Bela's yuk jenguk hospital"

Nanar my gaze was blank as if deaf and mute could not think about the incident the other day.

"I hate .. I hate!Hate it! "

I screamed in light of what happened in the hospital. The pain is still in the heart. Especially considering the hate speech from him increasingly makes tight in the chest. I hit my head slowly crying out for a hiccup without noticing people's gazes.

"Ra, what's wrong with you? "

I turned to the side, Laila looked at me softly. I could not bear any more tears, he escaped without asking permission.

"Hiks .. hikss"

I wiped my tears rough. I'm too weak and cowardly to get through this time.

"The same story as me"

I immediately hugged her tightly once in a while she rubbed my trembling shoulders. It hurts to tell me what happened.

"Sarif la hiks .. "my words.

"Sarif why? " He let go of a hug cupping both his hands on my face.

"Sirarif is evil! "my curse.

"Evil why? "

"Evil! " I screamed and cried, almost like a madman. I don't care if it's in a public place or whatever I know just crying right now.

My crying is tightening. Laila grabbed me in her arms, transferring energy so I could be as calm as possible. But nil, I even more sobbing.

"Yaudah if you don't want me to just go there you go home okay"

I was trying to neutralize my feelings.

"Where do you want to come? "

"I want to see Bela's sister"

I don't think I can be selfish with my feelings. He was sick because of what I did.

"Jude, come on"

I decided to go with Laila to the hospital where Bela's sister is being treated. I wish he wasn't there. So that I don't cry as usual.

It didn't take long, until I was in the room that left the wound, when Laila wanted to open the door I prevented it.

"Why? " I'm shaking.

"I'm outside" I said briefly.

"Yes, you're fine if there's anything to say to me ."

I nodded in agreement with Laila's words. I sat in a chair by the door, and as soon as my hatred grew, it was revealed that day that he felt nothing. I took the device out of my shirt pocket. Scroll the page so that my saturation is gone.

SYARIF POV

Three days I was in the hospital, not until when Bela's sister recovered from her pain. I was willing to take time off college just to be with him. Really am! I'm afraid of losing her.

"Rif, you don't just go back to Jogja already three days you're on leave, brother is better yet" I smiled at him.

"Later if it has healed properly then I'm behind my brother, can't bear to see Bela's sister like this "my words.

"No Papa Rif, my brother is well"

Tok Tok Tok!

The sound of the door being knocked, slowly the door opened. The woman walked over with a fruit parcel in her canine hand. He is none other than Laila, Zahra's best friend.

"Assalamualaikum "

I was looking for someone. Usually he would come alone with his friend but now there was no one.

"Girishal"

"Sister Bela is better? Sorry for my new brother coming now, because he just found out also from Zahra" he said briefly.

"Thank God, which Zahra? "asked Brother Bela.

"There's something outside, he said he didn't want to go in"

The deg!

Then he came here but didn't want to come in. Did my words hurt her so much that she was afraid to meet me? I looked at Bela, her cynical eyes were relapsing looking at me as if I did not want to let go.

Not enough of my sister to do that, Laila also looked at me with the same gaze. This atmosphere was still quiet, until I finally spoke up.

"Why are you concerned about it? "

much

"what are you doing, Zahra? "

"I didn't do anything"

"if not to say nothing, Zahra can not hate the same sister "he said.

It felt like my mouth was silenced, unable to say a word. Zahra hates me? I'm guilty, and I should apologize. But my ego says that I hate it. God, I'm sorry I hurt your servant again.

"He deserved it, and his own fault "my word is without sin.

Laila further glared her eyes while acting chesty.

"Astagfirullah brother, aware of what you say! Someday you'll understand what it's like to lose the most dear brother!"

I just ignored his words, again they said I would regret it later.

I opened the door and I saw the right side of the door of someone who was sitting and busy packing his cell phone which was none other than Zahra.

He looked up at me, blackened eye bags, puffy eyes and pale lips added to the impression of my guilt. There is a sense of regret that has hurt the innocent virgin, but what is the power when emotions rule the soul.

Want me to embrace her tiny body, hold it in her arms, and channel energy so that she is strong to undergo. But it felt impossible to do that, the hatred was clearly visible in both eyes.

Until I don't intend to greet him. After a long look, he stood up Taking the bag and stepped away. I looked at the back that was moving away, full of sadness.

'Believe Zah all I do for your good, and rest assured that I love you too'

Pov's End.

I'm sick of seeing that sinless face. No apologies or anything. It seems like he really hates me. I decided to wait for Laila in front of the hospital, actually very eager to see the condition of Bela's sister but later I was yelled at for injuring Bela's sister.

"Let's go home "

I looked back, Laila smiled at me while embracing me.

"Old!" I'm blinking lips.

"Don't be angry dong. later beautiful ilang loh" Laila looked at me with a seductive look.

"Oh, it doesn't work" I said.

"Eh, I saw Bela marahan brother Syarif as there was a problem like that "Laila looked at me, I nodded definitely the problem at that time.

"We go home yuk, I'm tired," I said.

It's not that I'm arrogant not to visit Bela today, just tired of dealing with that person.

Although not visiting me pray to heal quickly and return to how it was. He was like this because of me, too. Only, can he listen to my explanation first?

O God, do not find me with him again.