Life, matchmaking and patience

Ferocity

Reynan Gunanto

All limp bodies heard the answer from Mong Mong. Things are not going according to my plan. Want to scream as hard as possible to take off the load that felt tight on my chest. What I did felt useless. How ironic.

I stepped on the brake pedal because the light was red. A moment later, I had a wonderful memory with him. But then I remembered how my answer to him in front of his parents made me even more frustrated.

"Rghhhhh. BRAKKKKKK" I hit the steering wheel hard.

"Rey, just find another woman. You are handsome, kind and rich. There must be many women who willingly give themselves up to you. Why are you waiting for a little girl, such a fool. Don't waste your time!!" my evil thoughts appeared instantly.

"Rey, no!! You've been waiting for him for a long time to cook you want to just give up. Prove to her that you really love her. Where else try to find a woman with an almost Perfect personality like that. Wasn't he the only one who managed to drive you crazy like this?? Wasn't he also the one who filled the color of your life long ago?? If he's like that isn't it natural?? he is still a child with innocence and a childish mindset. You should be able to lead him and convince him!!!" my good thoughts suddenly appeared.

"Rey, you fool!!! The kids are still kids. Wait until when are you??? You have waited enough for him. Do you want to be an old virgin just for the sake of that snot boy??" my evil thoughts once again.

"Rey, you believe in God's destiny. If you believe, you know what is a good answer for you. Don't deceive yourself. Do not betray your heart. Ask your little heart and find the answer" said the kind mind in my brain that was getting me confused.

Tin tin tin.... Tin tin tin.... The loud sound of the vehicle horn in the back blew away my daydream. I'll get my car's gas pedal in.

"Mong Mong... Why are you making me like this!!!" I screamed loudly in the car.

I drove my vehicle to downtown Jakarta. A weekend night that should be beautiful for young people ends tragically for me.

"Arghhhh shit why is it also jammed like this. It could all be so fucked up like this!!" I muttered irritatedly hitting the car driver once more out of frustration.

Adzan isya has been reverberating. Soon I sought out the nearest mosque to carry out the command of my Lord. After praying I left my car in the parking lot of the mosque.

With a feeling of anxiety and worry I set foot enjoying the night air in this crowded city of Jakarta.

"Ahhhhh" I let out a long sigh hoping to get a lot of oxygen so as to clear my brain. But the air in Jakarta is not friendly only dust and smoke pollution that I breathe.

It was like going to a disco, downing beer or Vodka accompanied by beautiful and sexy women as my escape. But I'm aware. I have to wipe it all out. I don't want to fall into the whisper of the devil because I know once if I just go in it, it won't be easy to get out of it.

I set foot in a big park. There seems to be a very happy family. A man who I had estimated his age far below me held the hand of a 2-year-old boy and next to him a very young woman of Mong Mong's age laughed happily playing together. A sight that makes me jealous.

"How can they live it. Is it so easy for them to get married at a young age. Is it hard for Mong Mong to marry me? Why.. why is everything so hard. If only Rian gets in our way, even Roy or Raka, I don't care. But Sherin why??? Why???" I just can't believe it.

"Is the time we spend together really worthless in your eyes? how hard are you to accept me??" I didn't feel a single tear coming out of my eye.

I continued my journey into the elite housing complex. With a disheveled face, tired legs, and chaotic thoughts, I pressed the bell many times. Like a toy.

Ting tong Ting...

Ting tong Ting...

Ting tong Ting...

Ting tong Ting...

"Whispering really. Who's the lunatic less of a gini night job? I've also chastened this person" yelled annoyed residents of the house that clearly sounded in my ears.

Ting tong Ting...

"dither. I'm crazy, Ka.." The man opened the door with his mouth open and his eyes widened, surprised to see my arrival.

"Can I come in???" ask him who still looks at me wonder.

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"Don't you be angry then for you heaven".