Life, matchmaking and patience

Mama I Miss

**In Hospital VVIP Room

Sherin Wiryoatmadj**

My eyes were stunned to see the figure of a beautiful woman standing right in front of me. The woman I know. The woman I always miss. The woman who died.

"How is it possible???" my screams in my heart.

"I'm sorry your mistress got the wrong room" said Rey, who doesn't know who the woman was.

"Sherinns.... Come Nak!" ask the woman with teary eyes.

What I should do. Whether I should run into her arms and forgive her or I should run away from her without me knowing why.

"But why does my heart feel restless. His face was the same but there was not the slightest bit of inner sensitivity towards him. Who exactly is he??? help me find the answer, God. Should I pretend" I said inwardly feeling something was awkward.

Rey with her worried face tried to get closer and tried to hold me.

"Sherin are you okay? Sherin, I'm going to tell her to leave so you can rest" Rey said, trying to make me comfortable. I held her hand gesturing if there was no need to tell her to leave.

Rey tried to get me into bed.

"I'll stay here. I don't want to leave you with someone you don't know" she said convincingly.

"Sir Rey," I beckoned her to come out for a while.

"alright. If there's anything to shout about, I'll be right in" he said worriedly.

"Hm.. It's over there!!" I said yes.

In a step he turned again.

"Mijah actually shouted out loud" he said repeating his words loudly while glancing at the woman sharply.

"Yes. Get out!!!" whinek.

Not to mention a step Sister Rey turned around and approached me again.

"Sherin I really can't leave you" he whined.

"Om Tejo.." I shouted.

A heavy heart walked out of this room. Occasionally turned around and stared intently at the woman as if threatening her.

"Please sit down Madam" I said awkwardly.

"Mama Sherin can explain everything" said the woman trying to draw my sympathy.

"Sorry Madam, you are mistaken. My mom has been gone since I was 5 months old. I was raised by my grandmother. I have never known my mother's face either. Maybe you mistakenly recognized your son Madam" I said politely.

"No. You're my son. How could a mother forget her child. I know for sure you really are my son hyks hyks hyks" he said in tears.

"Mijah... Are you okay??" ask Rey who suddenly opened the door to this room. I looked at him with sharp eyes. Out of fear, he closed the door again very slowly.

"What is the need for the madam to come to see me?" my many.

"Son, can Mama explain everything" she asked me expectantly.

"Please Madam!!" answer's short. Though I was eager to hug her, indulge in her, vent my resentment and anger at her but it was as if all of that was still held back.

"When the accident happened that day, Mama wanted to meet your father. But in the middle of the road the car brake does not work. Whether it's broken or something's ruining it Mama really doesn't know. What comes to mind is that you have to survive. Mama can't leave you alone in this cruel world. Sherin forgive mama, because of that incident you suffered a lot of hyx hyks hyks" he explained.

I gave him a tissue. I, as a child, cannot blame him. All I know is that it happened because it was His will without being negotiable.

"The lady's okay?" I asked quietly in answer with a nod. After a little quiet, the woman continued her story.

"At that time I slammed the steering wheel to the left hoping that no one would be the victim. Mama's car plunged freely into the deep riverbed. After I was conscious of my coma for 10 years. Mama lost her memory from a violent impact. I don't know who helped and financed Mama's Hospital. Mama keeps trying to remember Mama's past but nil. What always comes to your dream is your smile when Mom leaves and it becomes your last meeting until God's will meets you again. Sherin, can you forgive Mama? Can you call me Mama again someday?" the question confused me. I don't know, it seems unbelievable.

"Who is buried in my mother's grave? Alright. For now I will consider you my mother until the time comes. Every truth will be revealed in the end. If you were my mama then I would love you completely, but if you only cheat for your benefit, you would suffer the consequences" I said in my heart to give him a chance.

"May I ask you, madam?" ask awkward.

"Ask anything. Mama will answer everything" he replied with a happy smile.

"Am I born an illegitimate child?" askaku. My mother was surprised by my question.

"No, there is no such thing as an illegitimate child. That was the fault of his parents. Actually your Mama and Dad are married religiously. We used to elope because your grandfather never agreed to your mother's relationship with your biological father. Vice versa Grandfather of your father also disagreed.

It was only after Mama's memory returned that Mama knew the reason they were against our marriage. Your grandfather didn't like your Dad's Grandpa and vice versa because they both loved the same woman. And that woman is your grandmother.

On the run with your father accidentally Mama met your grandfather's manners exactly after Mama came home from checking the contents and coincidentally your father did not come because he was working. At that time the age of the mother was about 3 weeks. Your father doesn't know Mama's pregnant. Mama thought, this pregnancy news will be good news but it turns out God wills another. Your grandfather took Mama home. Grandfather locked Mama underground and guarded some bodyguards. There's no gap at all. During that time, Mama broke off communication with your father.

My mom doesn't know anything about your dad. Mama thinks Mama can come out when the prison is open, it turns out Mama was wrong. That day she married a young man named Armanto. I want to feel like I killed myself if I don't remember you in my womb.

Mama should marry a stranger. Mama doesn't know who she is, how and why she wants to marry a woman she's never met.

Before Ijab qobul on that day, Mama begged Grandpa to talk to Armanto. Grandfather approved. Mama told me everything. Mama said that Mama already had a husband siri and Mama said she was pregnant with her child. He doesn't care at all. She married because of the coercion of her parents too" explained Mama at length with sobbing recalling the bitter memories.

"Who saved my mom back then?" my question began to be touched how Mama kept me when the problems she faced were not as simple as they thought. I saw her eyes glazed over and her lips smiled as I called her Mama.

"Your Bladder saved Mama. It turns out that secretly your father told people to watch over Mama and when Mama wanted to meet her the accident happened.

Although Mama forgot the memory of patiently taking care of Mama. It also did it secretly without your grandfather knowing until your grandfather was not only your father took care of Mama at home" he explained.

"Sherin will you forgive Mama son?" ask my mom to cry.

"Of course Ma. Mama Sherin kangen mama..hiks hyks hyks" I answered while hugging Mama tightly.

"Don't stay Sherin again Ma.." I held my arms to Mama to let go of my 17-year longing that never got a warm hug from a Mother. But on the other hand there was a different feeling that made me reject his presence.

Rey came in with a crumpled face, red eyes and there were tears left on her cheeks. He must have listened to everything.

"Mijah, don't cry anymore, I really can't see you crying. My heart really hurts. Your chubby cheeks will be deflated hu hu hu" he said who joined in crying and took the opportunity in a narrowness to hug Mama and me.

"I miss Mother hu hu hu" he said, hugging us again. I stepped on her foot so as not to embrace the woman who just claimed to be my mother.

"Haduhhh sick Aunt... Mijah oppresses me hu hu hu" his whining is shameless.

"It's my Mama. Om Tejo if you want to swoop there home hug aunty!!" godaku's.

"Ahhhhh... Evil spawh!!! Naughty naughty naughty naughty.." she said that made me ticklish. The three of us cried happily and laughed together.

"Sherin whoever he is you must not show your dislike for him. This time consider her your mother. Treat her like she really is your mother. Fight Sherin....fight!!!" I said to be patient and strong.

In this world since grandma died, I've gotten used to taking care of and taking care of myself. I only believe in what I see and I believe in what my heart says. If anyone suddenly entered my life trying to protect me then should I trust them??? Should I give my life to them????