Life, matchmaking and patience

Can I get Angry????

"Sherin why you? Why crying??" My mother stopped me from running while crying.

"There's nothing about Ma. Sherin's gonna be out for a second. Looking for some fresh air" I left my Mom and Dad at Aunt Mey's house in confusion.

My footsteps stopped in a small garden. Very quiet but this is what I need to let go of my worries.

"Why didn't Rey ever speak honestly to me???? Why should I know all this myself??? Why do you have a heart for me, hyks hyks?? I was stupidly waiting for my sister all this time. Hiks hiks hiks Brother has been fooling me all this time. Maybe since the first time I met him he knew it was me...... I hate brother!!! huhu huaaaa" my tears broke instantly as I realized my stupidity all along.

I've been in the park for over an hour. Just sit and look. I know I was wrong. I never realized it all this time. Big brother Panda that I have been looking for was really very close to me even very close.

"You're such a fool, Sherin. You're really stupid. You may not have recognized him all this time. Sherin you're such a fool!!!" I shouted loudly to release the burden on my chest that had felt tight from earlier.

The Gunanto Residence

"Assalamu'alaikum, Rey Mom's home" I got off lazily.

Not as usual. My feet are too lazy to step. I wanted to go after Mijah and explain everything. But this is not the right time. He needs to calm his mind.

"Wa'alaikumsalam Ma'am" I answered listlessly.

"Kok you didn't say at home there's Aunt Nay and Om Angga, I saw their car in front. Should you call Mom? Where's Sherin?? Rey why your face? You fighting again?? Ama who's Rey, Oh God Rey??"

I don't know what to answer first. All of my questions made me even more upset. All this time Mom and Dad kept Rian's whereabouts a secret to me. I hate being angry too.

"Rey called Mom but Mom's phone wasn't active" I said lazily.

"Didn't Mom and Dad owe Rey an explanation?" I said a little cynical.

"What do you mean Rey? If you speak politely with Mom!!!" shouted the angry mother.

Coincidentally Aunt Nay and Om Angga again rest in the room. Maybe they are tired because the trip from Bogor to Jakarta is arguably good and did not hear my mother's screams.

I asked Mom to talk in Dad's office.

"Quick now you explain to me. Why are you being so polite to your own mother?" mother said confused but still I was angry and upset not playing.

"Who is Rian Gunanto?"

"Mom answered!!"

Mom was confused at once. I just kept quiet like I usually do. I saw Mom shed tears. It's making me sick, sick. I'm a bad kid making my mom cry but I need an explanation myself.

"Where do you know Rian?? Is Rian here??" ask my mother who I answered with a nod. I saw Mother immediately limp and bowed lethargic. Is there a secret I can't know all this time. Why should they hide the truth that I have a twin brother.

"Sorry Rey Bu, it's not Rey's intention to make me sad but Rey also needs an explanation. Rey will accept whatever Mother explains" I said, making Mom hold me tight. If I were a woman, I might have shed as many tears as I could.

"Sorry Rey's Mother. Mom should never have lied. Rian is your twin brother. Sorry Rey's mother, hit it off!!! It wasn't that we hid your twin brother's whereabouts but everything because of circumstances. Mom and Dad can't tell you. Now I'm sorry. I'm sorry Rey's mother hicks the hysteria" Mother's words further confused me. How and what circumstances forced them to hide it.

"Mom. Whatever explanation Rey's mother received. Don't make Rey confused, ma'am??" I said beg.

"Whatever it is, you have to promise me that you can't hurt your sister. You have to be nice to him. You can't get out of control. Redden your anger!!! Can you really promise Mom? Give up on Mom!!! I don't want to lose you again!!! hiks hyks hyks" said my mother increasingly makes me wonder what's really going on.

Flashbacks

When you were 3 years old, that was when our family's destruction began. Every day until the last 6 months this house is like hell. You guys always fight but what mom fights doesn't know at all. Your brother always beat you up, even when he was a toddler he could think of killing you. Until then I can no longer keep him hyx...

"Rian stop!!! Don't hit your sister!!!"

"Dead you, die you. I am the best. I am the most beloved. I'm the most handsome. Rey you must die!!! I don't want you to have my face!! Duk Duk brak plaque takk"

"Rian Mother please stop!! Daddy help!!! Rian rushes again hyks hyks"

I tried my hardest to save you. I don't know what demons are inside Rian. A 3-year-old child can have that much energy even the mother alone is unable to stop it.

The father who had just come home from work was shocked by what happened. I tried to hold Rian as hard as I could. We were forced to tie Rian's tiny body with cloth and rope. On the other hand I can't bear to see you lying on the floor covered in blood. It hurts so much to see you like that.

We'll take you to the hospital soon.

"I'm sorry sir. It was likely that the father would lose his memory due to the blow he received so hard. For now we can only monitor it and hope that the father and mother can be aware immediately. If tomorrow morning the father and mother are not aware as well then the father can we say coma. Pray your best so that the father and mother are aware immediately" said the doctor who really hit the mother.

We went back to see the doctor who treated Rian. While heading there, I saw Rian thrashing with his hands tied. His eyes widened like a man of disobedience. He was screaming to kill you. O Allah, the trials are so severe for our family.

"I'm sorry with a heavy heart we have to tell you" said the doctor who made the mother have to prepare the heart with the worst possibility.

"What's up with my son Rian Doc?" ask your dad to be curious.

"Ananda Rian suffers from a mental disorder called NPD (Narcissistic Personality Disorder). Personality disease is an abnormal behavior characterized by excessive feelings of self and this includes rare diseases. Only 1% of people in the world experience it. If you see what he has done to his twin sister, I suggest that they do not grow up together. Because his sister's life will always be in danger. I'm sure you can handle this. For a while we could only give tranquilizers. At this hospital, there are no facilities to help heal your child. Because this disorder is long-term due to genetic factors so we apologize profusely. This is a hospital recommendation that you can visit to do therapy on your son" the doctor's explanation is like heartbreaking for a mother anywhere. You guys need to be separated. I have to choose one of you. It's not an easy decision.

Mom and Dad kept fighting. It was finally my mother who decided to put an end to this suffering. Mom lets Rian live with her daughter in Canada. Your daughter is a doctor, I'm sure she can take good care of her niece. While you're here with us.

That night you were conscious.

"Rey, are you aware, son?" I asked you, but you didn't answer, and you dodged Mom's hand.

"Who are you?? me who?" my question is getting mom hit. You either completely lost your memory or you really don't want to remember the sad event. It always boomerangs for my mom. A great guilt for you.

A week later you are allowed to go home. All about Rian we keep in the warehouse. We always tell you that you're a child. You don't have a brother. But every time you dream of your twin brother and ask Mom, mom's heart really hurts. Those are the days without Rian this house so happy. But Mother is still a mother as bad as any child especially it is not her fault, just because the disease makes the mother look happy outside but very sad inside.

"Mothers... Sorry Rey!!!" I apologize with tears breaking. The burden my mother bore was heavy. Behind her smile, behind her great affection, Mother kept my wounds, my brother's wounds. I want to be angry but who is to blame!!!!

Ceklek...

"Mommy!!! What happened Mom, you're cry?" that voice pissed me off, fed up, angry but I promised to give in.

"Rian... When's come?? Why don't you call Mom if I can pick you up at the airport? How's Aunt Rose? Aunt isn't coming?"

I left my mother and sister in Dad's office. So that Mom can let go of her longing all this time. With a blank mind and a sense of laziness I headed for my room but there was a hand pulling my shirt.

"Sir Rey, we need to talk!!!" said Sherin who I can't believe she called me sister. Should I be happy or sad. All this makes me worried and frustrated. I followed him to a small park where we met for the first time.