LET ME CHOOSE MY OWN PATH

chapter 9

I still hear my ex-husband screaming from the outside, really testing my patience this guy.

I'd better pretend I didn't hear them so they're out of this house.

I took the device and checked to see if there were any messages or calls I didn't hear. 

Sure enough there were five missed calls from a number I didn't know. I don't know who's calling me, I don't really care because I don't know.

Half an hour passed apparently the voice of Mother and Mas Amar was no longer heard, maybe they had left. I wanted to leave the room but I was tired.

Let Bik Ijah take care of the kids, I better take a break. 

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Morning illuminated by the beautiful morning sun, very bright today may my heart be as bright as the sun.

I went out of the room for breakfast, walking slowly towards the dining table I saw that there were already breakfast children accompanied by Bik Ijah.

"Well! You guys are already at breakfast here why are you not invited?" I ask those who are equally engrossed in feeding rice into his tiny mouth.

"Yes bun! we had breakfast first, after all, the mother was still in the room earlier," replied Tegar innocently.

"Aunty has breakfast?" Lani asked because she saw me still standing watching them.

"Breakfast dong! You're the only one who wants to have breakfast, not a aunt!"  I answered while pulling up a chair to sit with them.

While touching the rice sitting on the plate, I saw that Lani had started to get familiar with Tegar and Bik Ijah.

Rigid and Lani seem to be their age. I was thinking of sending Lani to school instead of her at home with no activities.

If there really isn't anyone looking for Lani, I'll adopt her just to clarify her status later.

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I'm delivering Hardcore to the school and I'm asking for a form for Lani so she can be accepted at the school immediately. 

While waiting for Tegar to learn I take care of Lani's registration, and all that is needed, but registering Lani is not easy.

Because he's not my son and Lani doesn't have the papers to qualify for the registration.

I have to quickly take care of the papers for Lani so she can go to school soon and enjoy her days as well as the kids in general.

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"Bun, can we buy anything for home?" Tanya Rigid when we were already in a crowded traditional market.

"We buy vegetables and side dishes and buy fruits" I replied as I walked to the sellers who had sold their wares.

All the kitchen needs we have purchased without exception, this is to facilitate Bik Ijah so that no need to bother every day should be targeted.

We walked to the parking lot where my car was parked there, as we wanted to get out of the market to the parking lot by accident I met someone who had not met for a long time.

I saw a man get out of the car with a woman but I didn't know who she was. But that man is no stranger to me.

I try to remember his name that is already on the tip of the tongue but difficult to pronounce. Makes me think hard about remembering his name.

I got in the car and put all the groceries in, sat in it for a moment. Trying to remember that guy.

From a distance I watched him because I did not dare to say hello, I really forgot his name I don't know what the name of the man was 

The man was sitting in the car with a boy who was probably two years old, excited about playing together.

Seeing the familiarity between the child and the father made me recall a past where my son had never felt that way.

There were no tears falling when I saw the man's relationship with his son. If Mas Amar had not betrayed, maybe my family would have lived happily ever after like now.

I had to fight alone to raise my son without the help of a husband.

"Bun, why don't we go home?" Tanya Tegar suddenly broke my daydream.

"Yes, son, let's go home."

I slowly drove the car out of the market while occasionally I still noticed the man I knew but forgot whose name was.

As my car passed by the man's car I slowly noticed him still playing with his son.

The happiness between them makes me envious. Quickly I pat it because it will make me hurt.

The car drove defending the highway to the house, because we were shopping, all the way I still tried to remember it. 

Yes I remember now with the man I saw in the market, why after halfway I just remembered him.

I should have remembered him at the market earlier so I could greet him and ask him for news.

Turns out he …