LET ME CHOOSE MY OWN PATH
chapter 4
It's unfortunate your fate, son, I'm still sobbing looking at him who is still so small to have to live without a father.
For the sake of the woman who does not know herself, Mas Amar could leave his children and his wife.
What I was afraid was really true, now the child who still did not understand anything must grow up without the affection of a father.
***
"Why are you still in this house?" My toot.
"Please go and never come back" I said to Mas Amar.
"I want to offer you one more time, who knows you'll change your decision" he said, raising a corner of his lips.
"I'd rather live alone than have you Honey Mas!" My speech.
"Well then don't blame me" he said as he left the house.
There was no guilt on him while committing this betrayal, what a heartless man.
Disappointed, of course, I feel like I'm pierced with pain, pain, pain, but not bleeding. Just one week old Hardcore he had forgotten the presence of our son.
Long ago when we were together trying to strengthen each other because they did not have children, now when the child was already in my lap in leaving me.
I wept and mourned the life I was going to live. I have to be strong for my son.
***
Oek ... oek!
The sound of a loud cry built me up, these eyes were hard to open like they were in the corner of this eye.
Kutepis drowsiness that hit for the sake of the baby, I give ASI to firmly.
My son is so handsome, I look attached to his adorable little face is really happy to have you, son.
After I gave breast milk to my son, I let Teagar fall back asleep in my lap, really this is a great pleasure to be a mother.
I am strong, I must rise to live with my son.
***
"Where's Hardcore?" Ask my mother-in-law.
"Mother, when is it coming?" I asked while kissing the back of his already sepuh hand
"Mother where? Early in the morning like this?" Ask again.
"From Home, I came here to see my favorite granddaughter."
"Fresh still sleeping, ma'am" I said.
"Where's your husband Mil? Have you been to the office?" Search Mother.
"I mean Mother! Mas Amar?" My toot.
Don't you know if her son left us a few days ago.
"Mother's son has left us, for the sake of another woman" I said.
"What!"
"Mother will look for Amar, brash she dared to hurt the wife who had just given birth to her child" Mother repet.
There was disappointment on his face and full of anger.
"All right! you take it easy, dear grandma will take your father home," said the mother while kissing Hardcore.
"Mother first."
"Yes Mom," I said.
There is a sense of pleasure because it has in-laws who want to defend me, since the first mother is good unlike other in-laws who are more on the side of their children even though the child is wrong.
But my mother-in-law always stood up for who she thought was right. Even if it was his biological son he would still blame.
***
The days passed Tegar more adorable, make me always excited to live our days.
Since the departure of Mas Amar, he has not once visited my son, I don't know maybe his heart has become stone.
Mother had tried to advise him but was never heard by him.
He'd rather stay with that woman that I know his office co-worker.
Now they have moved out of town to stay away from us, really drunk to your darling Mas.
Tired of lamenting all this, it was time that I had to rise from the brink for the sake of my son
***
Five years have I raised Tegar alone in helping Bik Ijah who always faithfully accompanied me.
Mother-in-law often visited us and helped charge Hardcore.
Today is the day that Tegar my son started school in kindergarten. I was getting ready to drop her off at school this morning.
"Mother" call my son.
"Yes baby!"
" It's a school day, right?" Her chattering.
"Yes dong, let's go!" Take me.
"Nek Ijah watch the house, Tegar left school first," he said to Bik Ijah.
"Yes, Nek Ijah will cook at home," Bik Ijah replied to a Hardcore who was already in the car.
I drove the car at moderate speed, defending the highway that had started to get crowded with activity.
In the car, Tegar began singing songs that had been taught at home, with a smile on his face.
***
"How was the first day of school?" My toot.
"It's very nice Mother, Tegar has many friends and they are all good at Tegar," he said with a cheerful laugh.
"Well! Mother's child now has many friends, Mother will be forgotten," I said with a smile.
"Mother will always be in the heart of Hardcore" she replied as she kissed me lovingly.
If you were here, Mom, you would be so happy to see the cuteness of our son who grew up healthy and smart, I suddenly remember my ex-husband who is out of nowhere now.
I drove the car towards the road home, when the car I was driving was traveling at medium speed.
Before it. Back home we stopped by Mother-in-law's house for a while because Tefas had not visited his grandmother for a long time.
My mother-in-law has been ill since the departure of her only son since then, so my father-in-law has often fallen ill. Maybe too much thought or burden.
"Assalamualaikum, Grandma open the door, Grandma!" A loud scream from between the windows called out to her Grandma.
Mother lived alone because when I offered to stay with us she did not want to, afraid of being troublesome she said.
"Waalaikumsalam, wait a minute!" Answer the mother from within.
Crews!
Crews!
The door opens, a smile expands on Mom's face when she meets her granddaughter, because Tenacious is her only grandchild.
They hugged each other to let go of longing, that's how they met.
"Come in," Mother.
" Sir, Tegar has started school, try Grandma to see the school clothes are firmly good, Nek," he said.
"Grandma's grandchild is now getting more handsome again like Dad," said Mother slowly but still heard.
I turned to Mom and looked at her fixedly, I smiled at her.
I knew there was a burning longing in his eyes for Mas Amar who had for years left us.
His mother was not once visited by Mas Amar, whether the influence of what the woman made until my ex-husband forgot his own son and birth mother.
***
"Assalamualaik."
"Getishalight."
Looks like there's a guest, Mother's thump runs to open the door. Who's coming might be a neighbor or a payroll friend I thought.
The door opened to my surprise how I saw the light in front of her.
"You ... This is a fact that I didn't dream."
"Mila .. Mila," cried Mother who confused me.
