JODOHKU MR. DUDA

Start to Understand

"Why is this family like this, Dek?" lament Angga was confused, "not yet Nina reached home, El had to go to the hospital. If God wants to punish, let me accept it."

"Don't suudzon to God. The sins of every man cannot be passed on to others, even if they are his children. Maybe this is a rebuke from him."

"It's all because of my stupidity. I deserve to be punished. Let it__"

"Already, Mas. It is not time to complain now. What happened to El?" cut Nisa. Of course he was sad to see the condition of his children, but watching the gray cloud overshadow Angga, Nisa realized the man was much sadder. Anga really loves her children.

"I think he's just a cough and the common cold, Dek, so I just gave him the medicine in the medicine box. But until night, the cough got worse, early in the morning I rushed to the hospital."

"What's the doctor saying, Mas?"

"Still waiting for the results of the lab tests, Nina how?"

"Hopefully the result is fine, ma'am. Nina I put Mang Adul, she misses the atmosphere of the house."

"Nina wants? Don't you refuse to go with the driver?"

"At first she didn't want to, but after I told her her sister was also sick and needed attention like her, Alhamdulillah ... Nina wants to come."

Angga breathed a sigh of relief. "You go home, Dek. Let me wait for El here."

"Later, Mas, after the lab results came out. I've told you about Nina, '" refused Nisa. They finally waited in dismay.

***

Finally the lab results came out.

"How, Doc?" tanya Angga getir.

Unknowingly Nisa grabbed Angga's fingers, grasped them, squeezed them, like channeling a little strength to make them stronger.

"Symptoms of bronchitis, sir."

Angga drooped, his back drawn to the back of the chair, the look in his eyes radiating uneasiness.

"Patients smoke, huh?"

"Smoking?!" This time Nisa was surprised, "know we don't, Doc." Almost choked Nisa's throat as she said it. Some footage of the possibility of El smoking flashed through his mind. How sad Nisa is.

"I don't want to judge, I'll just say what the lab results say. What can be understood?" ask Doctor Alya wisely.

Nisa nodded her head, unable to speak anymore. Even the explanation from Doctor Alya was like a bee hum in his ear.

Similarly Angga, the condition is not much different from the wife. Many times he rubbed his face, signifying a troubled mind. Why does El smoke? By one's own will or the coercion of others? Whereabouts? School, cafe or home?

Questions sprung up in Angga's mind. Unaware they were in front of El's treatment room.

Not only was El diagnosed with bronchitis symptoms, Nina's sister also had dengue fever. The doctor requires her to be anonymous and this is where El is currently, replacing Nina who just got out of this hospital.

"Don't, Deck," said Angga. Holding the hand of Nisa who wanted to turn the hadle of the room door. "You go home first, lest Nina be busy looking for you. Let me be here. I have something to talk to El."

"But I want to see the condition, just for a moment mas," persuaded Nisa masygul.

"Come when Nina's asleep. I have to speak El, this is a matter between men," Angga refused firmly.

"Don't be too hard, she's still sick."

"Just trust me, Dek. Go home."

***

El threw his gaze to the side. The boy didn't want you to see him shed tears. El felt very guilty seeing papa's face cloudy, although papa tried to cover it with a gentle smile, but El knew that he had hurt the man.

From El's confession, he smoked while at school and in the cafe. At first, it was forced, sucking the tobacco bar because of the bully of his friends. However, after feeling his pleasure, he smoked out of his own will. El feels more macho, mature when sucking on that thing. But the boy didn't know, because it was smoking that left him lying in this hospital.

"Why don't you want to hear El smoke again, can you, son?"

El was still speechless, squeezing the end of the blanket hard.

"You know, son. Fortunately still symptoms of bronchitis, can still be handled. What if it attacks your lungs? Your lungs will stop growing. You're very young, but your lungs are like people who have smoked for 40 years and you're at risk for lung cancer.

You want to hurt yourself this way, El?" urai Angga slowly, but with great emphasis. Making El's tears melt even more.

Angga deliberately did not wipe away the tears of the child who still turned his eyes away. He wanted El to have self-esteem even though the boy was sad.

"Think of your father, mother and sister Nina, when you will do such a thing, El. We care about you a lot."

"No! It's true that Papa loves me, but mama doesn't! He only cares about Nina."

Angga stood up from the small chair he was sitting in, moving closer to the child. Then caress the hair of the responsible teen lovingly.

"You're wrong, son. Mama loves you very much. If you didn't care about you, maybe she went home with Nina this morning. But in fact, Nina came home with Mang Adul."

"If baby, why did you leave home for so many days? Even when I came home, my mom was rarely home."

"Your sister's sick, El, needs extra attention from healthy people."

"But there's no need to leave the house. Mama also needs to rest. How can I sleep in the hospital?"

Angga was stunned for a moment, watching his son closely. There was a haru running through his heart, the plain face of El, the clear eyes of his son. Oh God, you know I love him so much. Now Angga knew that El's rejection of Nisa was not out of hate. There is jealousy and worry underlying El's attitude.

"If you want your mom to come home, you should say it, not ignore it like yesterday. Mama didn't come home for fear of bothering you with schoolwork."

El lowered his gaze. "I'm sorry El, Pah," his great-grandson was barely heard. Now his head is forward.

Angga sighed heavily, then hugged his son with haru. Although he was only a stepfather, but Angga really understood the feelings of El. His anger, his desire, his fear even his love.

"Papa also apologizes for not being able to be the perfect parent for you."

El shook his head, to him Angga was a man he was very proud of, perfect as a father.

***

"Sir, I want to talk about something," softly exclaimed Angga.

Right now they were sitting together in the long iron chair in front of El's room. While the boy was asleep. Nisa's feeling so bad, she remembers being stunned in Angga's arms in front of Nina's treatment room. And now it's like it's happened again .. de javu.

"Forward mas, I heard," said Nisa confused. He knew Angga was watching him from the side.

"If I cancel my intention to part, will you give me another chance to be together?" cetus Angga's.

And Nisa turned her head to the side, just as Angga was still looking closely at her.

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