Imitation of Two Hearts

Meaning of love for Sarah

Andre was more silent all day. He locked himself in his room as well as his study. He only went out for lunch and occasionally took drinking water.

Andre just knew this. It turns out that Andre is very focused on work and indifferent to his existence, that's the only thought that comes to Sarah's mind.

Sarah who felt bored at home finally chose to go shopping.  Buy some groceries for their kitchen that start to empty. Sarah left a message for Andre that she stuck in the fridge, ‘I'm out shopping’.

While taking the drink Andre found the message. He realized that his wife was not home.

Andre looked back at Sarah's writing. He thought back to himself who no longer missed Susan much.

A message appeared on Andre's phone

‘There is a need for you that I bought?’ write Sarah

Andre looked back at the message. Sarah's attention made her feel something she couldn't understand.

‘no’ Andre just answered the message briefly

The late weather was hot making Sarah sit alone on the back porch to enjoy the cool night breeze blowing from their lush backyard.

He chose to play the game himself and did not dare to disturb Andre who had since noon locked himself in the room. Sarah just thought that the man might be having a long-distance relationship with the lover. He had to think that way to fight his negative thoughts.

Sarah recalled some time ago, she accidentally heard the sound of Andre's sigh in the middle of the night. He was worried, but he was doing a solo hot video call with Susan.

Andre approaches Sarah who is engrossed in playing the game on her phone. Not having a job like now makes him often play game games on his old mobile phone.

“Seriously very!” he approached Sarah

“You keep me!” he lost again in that game

Andre sighed while sitting on one of the chairs. This is the umpteenth time Sarah heard the grunts of Andre's tired breathing.

“Successful meeting yesterday is not good huh?” Sarah tries to ask why Andre looks stressed since he returned from his duties.

Sarah stopped playing and put down her phone

“I was asked to take care of another branch as well!” lampleness

“Business dong?”

“Now no! because the program starts next week” obviously Andre sounds tired

“Means you had dong to Paris?” Sarah tried to remind Andre of Susan

Andre looked at Sarah.

“Susan! Iyeah... Susan!” he said it like he was hesitant to say that name

“I don't know why you guys? But you should not miss her birthday.. Don't make her think you changed!” Sarah looked at Andre with a worried look at their relationship

“You're worried my relationship with Susan is affected?” Andre convinced himself by asking what the meaning of Sarah's gaze on him

“Yes! I'm worried!”

Andre just looked at Sarah without answering any more.

How could Sarah be worried about our relationship, not you! That thing speaks

“It looks like I caught you” Andre turned back

Sarah was still looking at Andre who looked tired. He stared blankly at the darkness of the night.

“I think back about me and Susan!” the silence was broken again

“what is the cause of your moody today?” ask Sarah again

“hem!” Andre assented

“Kok can you do that? What makes you doubt?”

“Entahlah.. When you didn't call me yesterday, I asked in my heart why you didn't call, why you didn't ask me for breakfast today, why you didn't ask me if I was home this afternoon, why don't you give me a warning tonight don't drink coffee.I asked your habits to me all this time!” andre's story is down

“It all crossed my head. Finally I sent Mr. Budi and you said your HP error a few days. I also calmed down” Andre smiled slightly and sighed.

“But Susan! I haven't called him in a few days because he's too busy, he doesn't even call me at all. I told her, I kept quiet, I waited, Susan would ask why I didn't call her” Andre's heavy breathing was heard again.

“until the 20th day I did not call, he finally contacted me. At first I was happy, but what, instead of wanting to ask me or kangen, he just said, ‘kok my credit card was rejected yes.. you have not paid yes.??’”  then Andre fell silent with a disappointed expression

Sarah was still confused to respond to Andre's curses to her.

“I don't know what Susan feels like, but.. somehow because of what, I seemed to realize that I was only financial to him” complained Andre again

“You love Susan right?” he looked at Andre beside him

Andre looked into Sarah's eyes asking him that.

“you love him?” ask Sarah again because Andre just silently returned his gaze

“when you love someone, shouldn't we give more than ask. Love is not a demand for how the person we love should make us happy, but how we can make the person we love happy if you have not felt it, that means you haven't loved Susan completely” Sarah explained

“But Sar, shouldn't the feelings of him and me be the same?” Andre doubted Susan's feelings for her

“That's what I said the demands. If you love him, if he forgets, then you remind him, if he falls, then you help him wake up, if he does something wrong, help him fix it.. That's what I mean give”

“You alone? Are you that rich?” back to Sarah

“Hmm.” nod Sarah

“I never ask the person I love to always be there for me, but I always wish I was there for him when he falls, when he gets tired and when he forgets.”.

“you love your man like that”

“ulu!” sarah turned to face forward. Andre was still staring at the side of Sarah's overcast face as he said the word.

“Now you still love him?”

“So, now I'm off limits.”

“Barred? She's married?”

“entahlah.. I do not know if now they are married or not”.

“dia left you?” andre asked and Sarah answered

“me who used to cut ties with him!” continued Sarah

“Why?”

“Because he was able to make me realize, being with him was a disgrace for him”

“Cela?”

“Yes, at that time, I accidentally saw a message from his friend, the message laughed, I was curious what made his friend laugh like that, after I saw the history of the message, I saw the history of the message, turns out her friend mocked her when she asked out the street with ku” Sarah fell silent.

Whether the pain or disappointment that made him seem to hold the word until he was unable to continue for sure, Andre could not interpret

“It turns out he replied to the message, he said that I am not as level as him, so how could it go with him. While reading that, I realized!” sarah tried to blink her eyes holding back the tears from remembering how painful the humiliation was for her.

“Huh..” Andre sighed

“what kind of person is he?” he continued asking

Sarah looked down

“He's from a family of being, he has a higher education than me, he has more positions as well, he's more everything than me, as I reflect, I realize, I don't deserve to be with him”

“I am so grateful for the message, I was finally able to reflect. I realized, my love was wrong, the day after, I broke up with her without giving any reason. Away for his good.I can only love him through prayer, hoping he finds someone who is worthy of him” Sarah smiled bitterly trying to withstand the outpouring of emotions that now feel piercing in her chest.

“I pray that he is always given happiness. When my prayers were answered, I cried. Because from then on he will only be a memory for me” he said back down

“You regret letting go?”

“Hmmm.” Sarah nodded

“because I love him, not want to have him. For me it's enough”

Andre smiled proudly at Sarah, while Sarah just smiled forced on her sad side with a gaze that described how sad her heart was at that time.

“You still love him, right? That's why you feel like now!” Andre assessed Sarah's sad expression of still loving men in her lifetime

”Not!” Sarah breathed

“i cry for my fate! people like me don't deserve to be loved!” he looked back to the front as if he wanted to complain to a tree that was now moving in the wind.

“Sar...” Andre held onto his shoulder, responding to Sarah's thoughts like that

“As if because I was born an orphan, I have no right to receive love” Sarah turned to Andre sitting next to her, Sarah looked at him so sadly

Andre returned his gaze sadly, he was able to feel how deep the wound was for Sarah

“I was left by my parents when I was one year old, I was raised by my grandmother, and when I was ten years old my grandmother left, I was taken to the place of my father's uncle sodara, there I was treated as a little maid, not a son or nephew by my uncle's wife. I was educated by them, and I was so grateful that there were still people who would support me, so I never asked for more. I'm looking for pocket money from part-time work helping a neighbor near home” Sarah's story about her

Sarah looked down, trying to hold back her tears

“after graduating Junior High, I couldn't stand my aunt's treatment, and I complained to my aunt now, she took me out of uncle's hands, and sent me to high school, aunt always said, I had to be successful to pay all my living expenses during his time with him, he kept motivating me, He kept pushing me to be a successful person with various ways”

Sarah breathed heavily. He only interpreted the aunt's order as a motivation for him, never interpreted another because he considered the woman so dear to him.

“When dating her, I thought there was at least one person who was sincere with me other than my aunt, but it turns out I was also wrong, she never considered me to exist, even embarrassed by my circumstances, she said, daren's presence has helped my trust return. He always assured me that I was a person who meant something to him as a friend. I really like Daren, love him, but he's just my best friend” his smile on Andre illustrates how much Daren means to him.

Andre looked at him with a smile that Sarah could not describe, that look felt different again this time.

“You love Daren?” suddenly Andre asked with that look

The deg!

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