I've Finally Lose

Repeated (Losing)

Step by step the Princess entered the room. Conditions that have been quiet because some nurses and Puskesmas officers have returned home, there are only officers who guard the night.

"Mother why.. Is there anything we can help.?". Nurse.

"I want to ask, I'm pregnant but why is there blood coming out??" ask the nurse.

Suddenly the Midwife came over...

"What blood comes out a lot, ma'am...?? Ask the Midwife while standing in front of me.

"Blood that comes out just a little, just three days blood out, is this common??" Ask the Princess again.

"Mother do not be too tired, do not often stay up late and try as long as there is still blood out the mother just lie down." Saying Madam midwife.

"Yes Ma.... ". answered the Princess briefly.

"I'm just giving Mom a booster drug for the time being." Said the midwife while giving me a prescription for the medicine and told me to take a lot of rest.

The princess began to leave the room and immediately redeemed the medicine at the puskesmas pharmacy. Arriving at the Princess' house immediately took the medicine. But the next day the blood had not yet stopped coming out which was strangely just a little. The princess went to the health center and asked for a referral letter to go to the largest hospital. The puskesmas also gave the Princess a referral letter. After the letter was finished, the Princess and Rehan rushed to the hospital.

Arriving at the hospital, the Princess was booked by Rehan. Fortunately, a nurse approached the princess and brought her a wheelchair. The daughter went straight into the ER and the nurse said the mother had to be cared for. You see, mom is very weak and mom's face is pale.

The princess was shocked to hear the nurse's words. No and no preparation at all. The nurse told Rehan to go home and get me a holster and take care of the administration first.

"Darling... I go home first yha, I'd like to get a glove and tell Alif and mom that you have to be taken care of." Rehan.

"Yes dear.. You be careful on the road." said the Princess with a body lying down .

Slowly Rehan's face was no longer visible, the Princess who was just lying on the bed while on an infusion by a nurse. The princess did not dare to look at the infusion needle that began to be installed in her hand. The first prick failed because my hand was swollen.

The nurse repeated it again and finally finished.

"Mom rest first while we wait for the obstetrician to come". Said the nurse.

"Yahaa... Sus.." said the Princess briefly.

So many patients in the ER room specifically for pregnant and giving birth. There is bleeding, some are finished in surgery, some are swollen legs or high tension they are all treated in this room.

Not long after, Rehan came with a pillow and a holster.

"Darling... Alif was crying looking for you." Rehanku.

"Why can..?? Alif crying.??" Ask Princess

" Alif was crying because he wanted to come along and he was sad to hear his mother go to the hospital."

reply Rehan.

"Pity Alif." Say Princess with teary eyes.

The nurse came and told the men to come out. Rehan left the Princess alone in the room without anyone accompanying the Princess. Rehan was just waiting from outside the room just behind the window. Rehan occasionally looks at the state of the Princess.

In the evening, the two Princess in-laws and her brother came to visit while carrying child Alif. Children are forbidden to enter the room. Alif was just waiting outside the room with his grandmother after the others entered and my mother-in-law came in.

They took turns to look after Alif. When mom came in she told me that Alif was very sad, sometimes she was alone, her eyes were teary as if she understood her mother's circumstances.

The next day I asked to go home because I was worried about Alif. Fortunately the nurse allowed me and told me to come in control Monday.

Alif was so happy to see me home, his heart that was originally sad now changed drastically to be happy to see Alif. I hugged Alif tightly and he said to me

Though my stomach hurt like I wanted to give birth, Princess did not want Alif to know, she hid it in front of Alif. Not long after my stomach ached, suddenly there was blood clumping and extending like hands coming out, I told Rehan and mother-in-law. The mother-in-law said

"Maybe it's your baby boy"...

"Maybe it's not Ma..."

Rehan and his father-in-law then wrapped the blood in a white cloth and buried it.

Monday has come the time to go check on my womb again. Arriving at the hospital, there are already many people waiting in front of the obstetrician's room.

One by one the patients were called until I was called. Step by step I began to enter the gynecologist's room. The doctor's assistant told me to lie down and started smearing my stomach with a liquid that I didn't know his name before the ultrasound.

After finishing the obstetrician moved from his seat and began to examine my stomach with his ultrasound.

"Mom needs to be operated". Doctor's speech

"Do doc... Do I have to have surgery??" said the Princess with a surprised tone.

"iyha Ma'am, because the mother had a miscarriage and there was still blood and placenta living in the mother's womb" said the doctor.

"Can't Doc just take medicine??" Ask again.

"Can't be Mom.... Take this mother to the treatment room. " Said the Doctor, telling his assistant to drive me..

With a still shocked feeling, the princess just bowed silently while leaving the room. The princess looks sad, how not the princess again has to feel her name lost.

Rehan approached the Princess.

"Why are you, baby...?? Ask Rehan lovingly.

"Darling... I miscarried and the doctor said I should be in surgery (curette)" replied the Princess in a limp voice.

"There is no other way out but to be oppressed" said Rehan again

The princess just shook her head. The princess could not accept that she had to lose the fetus in her womb.

"That's what mom said... The blood that came out last night is really my fetus"

The Princess in my heart.

"Darling you remember that blood you buried last night, it looks like it's my fetus,." Princess Saying

"Yes I remember, then I'll move him to a decent place and bury him well." Rehan.

"Yes." answered the Princess briefly.

Rehan again tried to strengthen the Princess by hugging her, the patter of tears can not weir again all came out can not stand it.

"Prophey darling... This is all God's will." Rehan said.

" But why... God took my fetus faster...?? Daughter

"Don't say that, baby... God has other plans for us, maybe God wants to test our patience and sincerity through our fetuses" Rehan explained

The princess just fell silent.Suddenly the nurse came and took the Princess to the nursery. Rehan took care of the administration first.

Seriate......