I've Finally Lose
Fall one grows one
Alif was so happy to see me coming home from the hospital as well as I felt. To relieve the sadness of losing a child, I started various activities but the rest of the light had to rest a lot. Sahir also started his work again because the last few days he did not go to sell.
Not that two months had passed, I felt that there was a strange thing in me. I who used to not really like eating wry now I like it. Every day I tell my husband to buy me a white guava, I don't know why I like it so much. My husband was surprised to see me. I started to realize I was late for the moon. In my heart said what can I not be pregnant.??? Aahhh .. It was probably just a dream. Just yesterday I miscarried... But.. if it's true......
To dispel my doubts I asked my husband to buy me a pregnancy test kit.
Tomorrow Sahir buys me a pregnancy test kit. My husband and I were happy with the result. After the test, I became pregnant. I'm so happy that I'm finally pregnant again and Sahir is so happy.
"Honey..... From tomorrow you must not be too tired. " Say Sahir.
"iyha baby." I replied. "How about we go check my contents first to make sure.?? I asked my husband.
" Iyha .. tomorrow we go check." replied Sahir.
"Alhamdulillah.... God gave us trust again." I said in my heart.
This time I have to rest a lot, not to be too tired. But as long as I'm pregnant everything I didn't like in the time I wasn't pregnant now I love it. I felt a distant difference from the first, second and third pregnancies. In this third pregnancy, I really like foods that are wry and do not like sweet foods. Even my eating time this time decreased. When I was first pregnant, I loved to eat. My third pregnancy is so painful for me. Every meal that went into my stomach only lasted a few minutes the rest of it all came out. Decreased appetite, head often hurts when I sleep enough. I started to get scared, I was afraid of what happened before. But Sahir always strengthened me.
I don't feel like my pregnancy has entered 20 weeks. But my nausea hasn't gone away until now. Every month I go check my contents. Thank God he is doing well.
I am thankful that God is so good to me. She still gives me a chance to feel her name pregnant. This is God's promise to those who are patient and sincere.
During my pregnancy I felt Sahir was not paying attention to me like the time of the first pregnancy. Every thing I want must be rejected on the grounds that there is no money. For example, I told him to buy me milk, but he didn't buy me because the money wasn't enough. But I have to believe with my husband our situation is different now than it used to be. My husband's former job was so good, enough salary but now it's not. Everything's different. To get a hundred thousand dollars is very difficult. He had to go around the village selling vegetables even if the buyer was crowded if not enough to breathe and be patient. I have to understand our situation. What I want during pregnancy I have to endure. But I'm sure with God's plan everything will be beautiful in time.
