I[Not] An Actor

Divorce Request

"don't be sad, let them enjoy the intimacy they probably won't do when they find out the truth" the voice of the baritone bang andri roused me from my daydream about mas bima

"what does brother mean?what exactly happened?"ask me who never knew the reason behind my marriage with bima

"you who are patient on deck, hopefully Bima can find out the truth as soon as possible so that he can leave alena without anyone asking for it" continued bang andri which made me even more confused

"yana really doesn't understand what you mean"

"it's better that we go home, your love must be tired and we also need rest" andri stepped into his car first and I decided to follow his steps

we also left the tomb of Papah and returned to the main house of the Hernawan family.

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At night arrived precisely after the prayer isya the invited guests, most of whom are the father of the father, began to come to perform prayer for alm.papah

but I have not seen the existence of mas bima among the fathers who have begun to fill the living room and also the family room that we have vacated for tahlilan event for the next 7 days

"how can we start now son andri?"ask ustad who deliberately invited his brother to lead prayer tahlilan for the next 7 days

"yes, sir, we just start" replied kak andri without wanting to delay the tahlilan event again tonight even though mas bima was not present among us

but I also can't do anything because I myself am confused about what to do and how to live my next life.

tahlilan event was running smoothly and wisdom, we really solemnly pray alm.papah may get the best place in the heaven of God.

I gasp when I will turn to help bi pasih distribute gifts for the fathers who have been willing to take the time to pray alm.papah

but my movements stopped when I saw mas bima sitting beside me and holding my hand so that I did not leave my seat

"what is it?do you need anything?"ask me a little whisper

"can we talk in the room?"

"maybe but wait a minute yes I said it used to be equally afraid mamah mamah find me later"

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"what is it?what do you want to say?"ask me as soon as I enter the room bima and maybe from now on it will be our room both

"sit down" he said pointing at the empty sofa beside him and I followed his orders sitting next to him even with a different sofa

"there's something I want to talk about and it's about this marriage" she continued,

I who was from the beginning still feel confused can only be a good listener

"then what do you want to say?"I asked her to dare to ask her

"i want us to end this marriage"

Degs....

my heart stopped beating when I heard his words about wanting to end our marriage that had only been established for less than two days

there are no words I can say when mas bima expressed his intention to end the marriage between me and him

not wrong because this marriage is a marriage that was never expected by her but too painful for me

I sighed with all my chest before I answered the words I said

"mama will never allow you to get divorced and you should never think of divorcing ayana because mama has registered your marriage to be recorded and official in the eyes of the law"the sound of my mother interjected as I was about to open my voice and loudly opposed the divorce between me and the bima.

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