I[Not] An Actor

Husband's Permit

"mamah's friend rest in the room huh na?mamah does not want to sleep alone"he asked me risma and I could not resist

"yes well yana yamah but yana permission first on mas bima ya mah, fear mas bima nyari" I replied,

inevitably now whatever I will do I must ask permission first to the priest as a sign of my devotion to the priest who has now officially become my priest.

after getting a nod of the head from mamah risma I also moved from my seat and looked for the existence of the bima

after surrounding the luxurious and large house, I finally found his figure who was standing beside the swimming pool while holding a cellphone taped to his ear.

"yes baby, I will try to go home here there are still many mourners who come" heard the sound of a bima who might try to calm alena the wife who asked her to go home

"don't you better not come here first, you still can't accept you here, nor do I know why mama and papah turned out to be so dislike of you,calm down I will try to go home but I beg you not to meet mama, mamah still reject your presence in this house, yes ok...yes, I'm closed, yes, I will go home after the guests are no longer there"bima also hung up his phone with a little annoyed whether what happened in this house before him so that the rest of the house looks chaotic

bima turned around and how surprised he was when he found me standing not far from him

"what are you doing here?"bima asked me still in her cold tone.

"fucking mas"

"what did you make me?"

"mmm, I slept with you tonight, okay?"ask me doubtful although I also believe that bima will not want a room with me but back again it is a privilege for me whatever I will do must be with his permission

"why ask me?the one who wants to sleep with your mama is not me" he replied again with a sharp tone

"yes ask you when asked brother andri, I'm saying you're not brother andri"

"huufftt.ya has slept with mamah anyway I will go home to the apartment"

bima just kept quiet not responding to all the words I said to her and because I felt that I was not considered I chose to leave before her dislike grew bigger on me

after getting married, Bima was so obvious to show her dislike for me, she actually had to marry a second time with someone she did not love.

that night I spent time with my mother who fell asleep next to me by holding tightly my hand so that I would not leave her

because of fatigue because all day so many events that drain energy and also the mind then I was slowly following the trail of mamah sound asleep and even forget the guests who are still crowded out there.

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the next day I woke up because of a shock to my body that disturbed my deep sleep, slowly but surely I opened my eyes and tried to open it perfectly

how surprised I was after opening my eyes perfectly all I saw was the handsome face of brother andri who was slightly bent his body to wake me up

"astaghfirullahaladzim" my speck when I saw brother andri's face a little close to mine

"wake up the deck, we should be ready for papah's funeral" she said with a sweet smile

what a smile I never saw before I knew him

"i_iya sis, I'm sorry I overslept" I said as I rose from my sleep and I realized that my mamah risma was no longer in the bed where we slept last night.

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