I Can Be Happy Without You, Mom

Chapter 8 I'll Give You a Month

"Astagfirullah Nia, why did you ask for a divorce. Poor children, they are still small it is impossible to live without a full family. I'm sorry to you, I'm really sorry" Alif said.

"I'm so tired, you never defended me even though I was right. You told me to respect your mother, but did you ever tell your mother to respect me? Never is it,"

Rania could not think clearly, she felt very upset with her husband. Already not giving him a decent life still have to feel the inner pressure of his in-laws.

"I promise I won't be silent anymore, but be patient I have to do it slowly. You're not in my all-wrong position, it's easy for you to say that,"

"Originally you know Mas, even my biological mother if it is wrong I will not defend. Parents if wrong should be reminded, if not the child who reminds then who else. It is precisely sinful to let our parents do something wrong, that is our name to plunge it,"

Alif just silent, maybe his logic justifies but his feelings do not want to accept. During this time almost never words of apology slid from his lips, because of his declining nature of his mother who always felt perfect. Perhaps in their view others are never right whereas they never do wrong.

"I'll give you a month Mas, if there's no change in your attitude then my decision won't change. If you're not willing to divorce me, let me sue you" Rania said seriously.

Rania's loud words managed to make Alif fragile, to be honest she didn't want this marriage to just crumble. Actually he loves his wife and two children but somehow he can not show with his attitude. His behavior was not in line with his sweet words.

"Nia, please don't talk about divorce anymore. Look at our children, how they live if we get divorced. Don't you love me anymore so you want to part with me?"

Alif pleaded with his wife, this time looking sincere until the man was not ashamed to cry wailing grasping Rania's hand. This is the weakness of Rania, however much she has been treated arbitrarily, will be melted with sweet promises that slide from the lips of her husband Alif. But at this moment he was already completely exhausted, not wanting to fight anymore. Their children can also live happily even if they are not together.

"It is you who have no pity on them, it is all because of your actions. You never really fought for us, you loved yourself more, Mum,"

"I'm sorry, I'll try to understand you,"

Rania did not want to hear the words of her husband, she chose to sleep beside the Star and covered her ears with a pillow. She was reluctant to listen to her husband's defense again, her decision was unanimous and could not be challenged.

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Next day.

Rania wakes up with her eyes moist, she immediately takes a shower and berwudhu to feel fresh. She did not wake her husband because she was still upset, so she decided to go to the market to buy fried materials with the money she had left. Because his capital has been reduced he reduced his spending than usual.

"Kok tumben's buying a little, Nia?" ask the mother of the grocer and vegetable at the market.

"Yes ma'am, the money is just enough to buy this," replied Rania.

"If you want to take it again is okay, pay it tomorrow after you get the money. If tomorrow's already paid to take more, I believe you're an honest man, too,"

Rania seemed to think for a moment, this is a good offer that dear if rejected. But she was afraid that her husband would take advantage of the situation, taking advantage of it as usual.

"Thank you for the offer, but it doesn't seem necessary Mom, I'm afraid I can't pay. Because I also don't know what will happen tomorrow" he said softly.

"Alright, I pray your sustenance is smooth, yes,"

Rania came home soon after all the groceries she had bought. At home, everyone was still sleeping, and so was her husband. Rania cooks simple to save money, vegetable spinach and tempeh and fried tofu without fish. Today Alisa's off school so she lets her daughter wake up a little unlucky.

After all the homework was done he immediately made fried food with the help of Alisa who had been awake, while the children's snacks he had issued since earlier. Today the fried food he sells is not much, but he is grateful that at 10 am everything is up. The star suddenly woke up and fussed like never before, it turned out that he was coughing up a cold and his body was hot.

"Wake up, that's the hot star of his body,"

Forced Rania to wake Alif because of panic, she was very worried if her son was sick in contrast to Alif who could react more calmly. Rania is sometimes upset if her son is sick quite badly but Alif can still be calm as if not worried about the state of his son.

"Yes his body is very hot, has been given medicine yet?" ask Alif.

"Yes not yet, he just woke up,"

Rania rushed to boil water to bathe the Stars, although the Star refused he kept bathing because the doctor said so, still had to be bathed so that germs and bacteria are lost.

"Honey eat first continue to take medicine yes," persuaded Rania.

Alif just kept quiet to see his wife was busy taking care of the stars, he was confused not knowing what to do.

"You really just keep quiet anyway, should be quick to shower and help take care of the stars or keep selling," said Rania upset.

At this time she was already lazy to sweeten to her husband. He had completely lost hope for the man. Alif obeyed his wife's will, he immediately went to take a bath. He wanted to take care of the Stars, but the boy just wanted to be with his mother so Alif had to take care of the merchandise.

"It's been two hours but the heat hasn't come down, let's take it to the doctor instead" Rania asked.

"But I don't have any money, taken to the health center" her husband replied.

They immediately took Bintang to the health center, according to doctors there were no serious problems, after redeeming their doctor's prescription immediately home.

"Darling, while not allowed to snack outside yes, mother bought bread only yes. Star do not play outside first, must be obedient so that it heals quickly, dear" said Rania softly.

The star nodded weakly, he fell asleep with his brother. The girl stroked her sister's forehead gently and kissed her, seeing that she loved her sister very much. Rania immediately counted the earnings today, her forehead wrinkled as her trading money dwindled.

"Mas, was there anyone who owed when buying. Is this money lacking?" ask Rania.

"Nothing, everything pays. But I took 20 grand to buy a cigarette, "the husband replied casually.

"What's? Yesterday you borrowed 50 thousand cooks already finished anyway? Now you just take 20 thousand more without saying, you understand not the heck I'm struggling to save enough spending. If you keep going like this how much money I have will always run out,"

Rania's inflamed, her chest feels tight. His tears flowed without being able to be restrained again He could not hold it anymore so as to make his two children see his sadness this time.