I Can Be Happy Without You, Mom

Chapter 5 Never Appreciated

"Your wife was really disrespectful, being spoken to instead left. The daughter-in-law does not know herself, given good advice and does not like it" said her mother.

"Let's talk to him later, maybe he's tired of selling, Mom," said Alif.

"That's why my mother told him to work in the office again, not tired of the money is also a lot. Whereas if selling fried foods, it is tired of not how much," added his mother.

"Later I try to talk to him again, I'll take it easy,"

"What shopping money do you love less? Why does your wife look like that?"

Alif is confused to answer it, he does not want his mother to know about the problems in his household. He did not want to be seen failing to be the head of the family in front of his mother. He was afraid that his mother was sad or even angry with him, for his mother's feelings were more important than others.

"All I have left to Rania to take care of household needs, but maybe not enough to buy her needs, Mom," replied Alif.

"That means your wife is not good at managing finances, title only economics but take care of the husband's money is not becus,"

Rania heard all their chatter, the others must have heard it as well since the house was not very spacious. Alif looks silent, no more effort to defend his wife. Though all this time her husband never provided her properly, for example if their spending a month in the figure of 2 million rupiah, then Alif would only give her 500 thousand rupiah. The rest of Rania who will desperately cover it up.

"Rania, that's your mouth. Everyone has nothing right in his eyes, it is better not to come here too often so as not to hurt. Pity your children if your household has trouble hearing his chatter,"

Her husband's grandmother said softly while rubbing Rania's back gently. It doesn't feel like she can be here much longer, but it doesn't feel good for her other husband's brother if he comes home too soon.

Actually it's not that Rania does not want to work in an office anymore, just where are the companies that want to accept 36-year-old women with good positions while the young are just a lot of unemployed? Rania is self-conscious, although she is a woman who is quite smart in terms of academics but the age factor is very influential. Every job vacancy that he read on average gives a maximum age requirement of 30 years. Then why waste time on an uncertain thing, while there must be a way in front of the eyes?

"But I can't bear to hear it, Grandma, as if it was all my fault. I'm tired, 11 years is not a short time to sacrifice. It hurts if everything we do is never appreciated,"

Rania could no longer hold back her tears, the pain that had been so long buried along with the swiftness of the tears that were plunging freely on her cheeks. The old woman's embrace was not even capable of breaking the concussion inside her chest. If suicide wasn't a sin, he might have done it a long time ago. Sometimes he felt that God was unjust to him, given suffering that never had an end to its base. But when he began to blaspheme, God will immediately give him happiness without his can think. And finally he could only stop.

"Alif," call her grandmother.

"Yes, what's wrong?" alif asked, approaching them.

"It's night, tomorrow your son's school and your wife's selling. You better be home soon, your house is also very far away, pity the Stars," told his grandmother.

"They just came, why did you tell me to go home? Alif is my son, not just Rania's husband. Don't listen too much to the drama queen, nothing made like a soap opera"

"Dear, don't say that. That Rania also has feelings, don't say too hurtful. Imagine if your daughter was treated that way," this time her father-in-law tried to defend her, while the husband she expected was silent.

"I'm just talking about reality, he's really, really" he said as he opened his mouth.

Rania looked intently at her husband, Alif feeling the code from his angry wife. He is now in a difficult position, like eating simalakama fruit, any choice he chooses is equally risky. But his love for Rania is able to make him decide, he still wants to build a household with her.

"We went home first yes, the grandmother's words were right. If there's time we'll be here again,"

Seeing his son more obedient to his wife arising envy in the heart of his mother. The woman was so unhappy, she who painstakingly took care of him from childhood now feels unfortunately greater to the woman who has only been accompanying him for many years.

They immediately say goodbye to everyone. Rania continues to greet her mother-in-law even though the woman brushes her off. The woman seemed to invite Rania war, but she was lazy to respond. He felt his life was very difficult, for what hit the war drums just to obey the ego alone.

Their two-wheeled vehicles began to drive through the streets of the capital Surabaya.The narrow motorbike accommodated the four of them, increasingly crowded when Rania kept her distance from her husband. She still felt annoyed to her husband, her silence made Rania's position more cornered in the eyes of her husband's family.

"Sir, the handle will fall" said Alif.

Rania did not heed it, until at home she chose silence. After changing clothes he immediately accompanied his children to sleep. The united annoyance and tiredness made him immediately lenakan the cradle of the night wind.

'I'm sorry Nia, I know you're hurt by your mother's words. But I couldn't do anything about it, I couldn't see my mother crying. I don't want to be an ungodly child.' Alif can only be inward when he sees his wife sleeping with her eyes closed.

The cold air made Alif's manhood instinct rise, especially when he saw his wife's negligee exposed to the thigh, showing something very evocative. He started m*nc*mbu his wife was sleeping. At first Rania was silent, but r*ngs*ngan for the sake of r*ngs*ngan whose husband gave her was able to wake her from the dreamland.

"Mas, I'm sleepy" said Rania with her eyes closed.

"But I miss your body, dear," seduced Alif.

"Can't it be tomorrow?"

"For a moment, let me make you satisfied,"

Rania can only step down. Their long marriage made Alif hapal right his wife's weakness. Their passion is never quenched when it comes to husband and wife relationships. Good communication to satisfy each other makes them understand each other. But unfortunately this is very inversely proportional to their economic problems that are still gloomy.