I Can Be Happy Without You, Mom

Chapter 1 Fighting Again

"Mas, the token is almost up" Rania reported to her husband.

"I don't have any money" her husband replied casually.

"Then how?" tanyakanya.

"Yes try to borrow first, I will change," replied her husband.

Rania sighed, she had already guessed her husband's words like that. Although he never stopped hoping, but always broken with the same answer.If according to many people the marriage that has been running over five years has been financially successful, it does not apply to the households of Rania Salsabila and Alif Darmawangsa.

Their marriage was 11 years old, with a 10-year-old daughter named Alisa Putri and a 3-year-old son named Bintang Dwi Putra. From outside their relationship looks harmonious, their lives also look quite when in fact their debts accumulate. Rania is rarely given a living husband on the grounds that his salary is up for the installment of the motorbike and other needs.

"Who else do I have to borrow from, Mom?" rania asked, getting upset.

Alif was just silent as usual, he preferred to dodge if there was no solution. Actually not he does not care but indeed he is lazy to think again, for him he has done his duty as the head of the family that is slamming bones. Whether the money he made was enough or not, it was his wife's business. And this has happened since the beginning of their marriage, initially Rania thought that she could change her husband's nature with affection, in fact until now it remains the same.

"It's always like this, never giving a solution always silence and silence. I'm tired, our debts are piling up. Every day instead of decreasing it continues to grow," said Rania half-calling.

"Then what should I do, Nia? I've been working, not just foot barges. If the results are not enough, then how else," replied Alif gently.

"Yes you try, if it is not enough, look for another job. Our child is two, Alisa already wants to go up to 5th grade, Bintang is also still small need adequate nutrition intake" said Rania.

Alif just kept quiet, he lit a cigarette and chose to quit smoking. That's how he was, always choosing to avoid rather than fight with his wife. Maybe this is what makes their household last up to 11 years with the same problem. But for Rania it was her husband's attitude to make her tired, always avoiding every problem and returning with an ordinary attitude as if there had never been a fight before.

Rania has to think of a way to earn money, otherwise the electricity in her house will go out. He took his youngest son Bintang, riding him on a motorcycle to his brother's house to borrow money.

"Assalamualaikum," said Rania saluted.

"Waalaikumsalam, uh Rania let's go in," Tiara, Rania's older sister.

"Tumben's here early in the morning, aren't you cooking?" ask Tiara.

"Not Brother, I'd like to ask you a favor,"

Shamefully Rania began to come clean, but she was forced because there was no other choice. Her debt to her brother was already a lot, but Tiara still always helped her if she needed a loan.

"Why else, you need more money huh? Your husband still doesn't give you a living?" tiara asked as if she could guess.

"I'm dizzy Brother, it feels no longer able to live this way continues. It's not that she doesn't want to be grateful but she's outrageous" replied Rania starting to shed tears.

"This just hold it, there is 500k money you use first. You should sell so that the money can rotate, you have also often made a business. Just try selling that does not need a lot of capital but can sell every day, so you can always hold the money," suggested tiara while handing the money to Rania.

"Yes Kak, I want to try selling fried foods and snacks and ice only. Hopefully it can run smoothly," said Rania.

"Amin," replied Tiara.

Rania immediately said goodbye to start buying materials and children's snacks in the market. Actually she wanted to leave the Star with her husband, but that was impossible because her son always refused to be with his father if there was no her. Perhaps it was because they were rarely together that there was no closeness between the two. Her husband is always busy working and rarely has time with their small family, but somehow she feels the pay that her husband gets is never in line with his time at work.

Sometimes she thought her husband was lying about his salary, but soon the bad thoughts came from his head. Her husband is actually kind, patient but less assertive in every way. He had been trying to accept his shortcomings all this time, but the demands of a bigger life often made them quarrel and fight again because of the circumstances.

"You brought what it was, how much?" alif asked when Rania came to bring a lot of groceries.

"Mbak Tiara gave me a loan, I want to start selling again. Here you fill in the electric token," replied Rania as she handed over the token paper.

Yes like this they are, after a fight if the problem is resolved the situation will soon improve. But Rania will choose to remain silent for days if there is no solution.

"What do you want to sell?" ask Alif.

"I want to try selling fried foods, it's already bought bananas, tempeh, benjes, the same ingredients tofu and ote-ote. If the black crackle is children's snacks, it must be a practice because here it is close to boarding houses and kindergartens," answered Rania.

"Yes but you don't get too tired, the stars also need your attention" said her husband.

"Yes I know Mas, I won't be like you who can't carry out her obligations" replied Rania annoyed.

During this time he never neglected his responsibilities as a wife and mother, even more important than himself.

After cooking the rice, he bathed his son Bintang. Alisa is inter-schooled by her father, while she cooks. After all the homework was done then he started preparing to start selling. Lucky Star never fuss as long as she is on her son's deck, so she can do her activities while watching her son play.

Her husband immediately took a shower after dropping off his daughter at school, then rushed to breakfast and accompanied the Bintang to play for a while.

"You don't work today, Mom?" ask Rania.

"Later in the afternoon, so now you can still accompany the stars to play" replied Alif.

"You have to save Mas, two months later this contract runs out. Don't wait, I'm ashamed" said Rania.

"Yes I know, I try before time I will pay" Alif replied.

The star is seen playing with his father, he feels very happy. Their togetherness is very rare because Alif is too busy working, but even so Bintang will cry if his father leaves for work.

"Dek, I asked for the money to buy cigarettes, yes" Alif said.