Hot Daddy: My Beautiful Morning

Which I don't understand

When I woke up the next morning, in the middle of a still thick dawn, I realized I was leaning on Daddy's shoulder. The most comfortable shoulder I felt as a child. But I'm no longer a little Kejora. My brain tells me I have to pull away, I can't sleep leaning on it. But my heart says something else. I comfortably leaned on his shoulder. Very inconvenient. Until I refused to hold my shoulder. I kept closing my eyes. Then...

Warmly I felt, his breath sweeping across the face, so close. I seemed to find him again, a figure who always gave me warmth from the coldness of darkness. And gently, I felt her caressing my face. "I love you, Kejora."

Oh, Dad. I'm so happy. "I love you more, Daddy."

I looked up, smiling embarrassed. "Eh? Are you awake, honey?"

"Em, but don't want to get up, ding. Daddy's shoulders are comfortable. Kejora so remember the days of the little Kejora first. The spoiled cruelty. Those were the happiest times. Which is full of memories. Not like lately, there's a distance."

There is a heart that feels stuck. Daddy breathed heavily too. "Who said? It's just your feeling, honey. You have to understand, Daddy's busy. Daddy works for the Princess and Queen Kanjeng too, right?"

No, Dad. Daddy can deny. But I understand enough about the abyss that stretches it. "Kejora is big, Dad. Rampage-"

"Already..don't discuss...."

"Hmmm...."

"What's important now is that Daddy's here, right?"

I smiled blandly. I know it's uncomfortable, but it's uncomfortable not to talk about it either. There is a wedge that I must make relief and feel plong, I also sighed deeply. "No more distance, huh? Please, I don't want any more distance between us. I always need Daddy by my side."

"You forbid Daddy from working? Hmm?"

Guyons....

"Dad... Daddy knows what Kejora means. Don't pretend like that."

Faintly heard, the sound of a small laugh came out from his lips. "Ehm, yes, yes. From now on Daddy's gonna pay more attention to you, okay? Daddy promised."

I straightened my shoulders, and asked, "How will it be after Daddy gets married? Is Daddy gonna forget me?"

Ah, there was a slight sense of relief that made me reflexively grab and hold her hand. Again he was stunned, but finally he was willing to return my hand. "Honestly, I'm so scared of losing, Daddy. I'm afraid my place has been replaced by someone else. Especially after Daddy has kids. I'm afraid Daddy-'s affection will be-"

"Of course, don't think about it. Daddy will love you. Daddy promised."

"What can guarantee that Daddy will still love me? I'm not Daddy's real son. My position must-"

"One year it's still a long time, Kejora. There are many possibilities that will happen. Why are you afraid of something that is still a secret of God? Aye, right?"

Yeah, I know. But it's something we don't know yet - that's what's scary. I leaned back on his shoulder. "If I could, I wouldn't want this to bother my heart either. But...."

"Yes, Daddy married you then. Wanna?"

Huh huh?

Reflexes, my shoulders back up. And at the same time our gazes were locked. Moments later, he smiled. "Life should not be taken too seriously. You are still young. Enjoy your youth. Studying diligently, to be smart and graduate with good grades. Okay?"

"Em." I nodded, then lowered my head. And a moment later back sagging on the back of the chair.

He's just kidding. Why am I so clumsy? Come on, Kejora. relax, relax, relax. Don't geer...

"Remember, yes. If you discuss your innate nature again, your fear of losing Daddy's affection, we do not need to find a mate for Daddy. Daddy married her to you only. You won't lose Daddy. Daddy got wife. Oma can be a daughter-in-law. Keep loving Oma grandson. Well, we make everything easy. Easy, right?"

Oh, my God, Dad. Daddy's still joking? Daddy made my heart so jump, you know...! I'm throats. "Yes, Daddy told Oma, yeah. Ask for blessing, tell Oma that we want to get married. Dare, no?"

It's insane! The craziest joke! And - which should not.

Daddy glanced at me for a moment, then smiled. "Well, who's afraid. Wait and see, Daddy's gonna tell Oma one day. Now you focus on school first. Okay well? And let's enjoy this holiday with a plump heart. Be happy, darling. I want you to be happy."

Ih, what the hell? Is he joking or serious? Why is it so hard for me to tell the difference? Oh God.. Relax, Kejora. Relaxed...