
It's not surprising that I can't sleep well tonight. I could barely sleep all night until the next morning my eyes were reluctant to open. What I remember, last night my eyes could be closed after severe drowsiness overruled me, just after I heard the sound of chickens crowing the sign of the morning.
This morning, I was still curled up on my side under the covers hugging my pillow when Daddy knocked on my door. His voice sounded so good to me. The heavy drowsiness I felt made me unable to open my eyes, let alone have to get up and move my body. If I was not wrong, because I did not get a response from me, Daddy asked permission to enter my room, he had time to ask from outside the room: am I fine. He knocked on my door again several times while calling my name. And finally she lowered the door handle, and was probably surprised to see me still lying on the bed.
"Why you?" he asked as he walked up to me, then put his hand on my forehead and nape my neck. "Not hot," he murmured. "What's wrong with you, honey?"
I shook weakly. "Drowsiness," I murmured softly, barely making a sound. "I couldn't sleep last night."
"Why? Watching it? Play games? Huh yeah?"
Indiscriminate. I can't sleep thinking about you, Daddy. Because Daddy haunts my mind and keeps me in the shadows. I tried to open my eyes a little, but I couldn't. "Just can't sleep" I said very slowly.
"Wake, yuk? Breakfast first."
"I just slept, Daddy."
"Darling, she said she'd buy a dress."
"Titip Mommy only. Please let me sleep first, yeah. Pity me. So sleepy. I can't get up, Daddy."
"Hmm. you are this. Come on, continue sleeping. Daddy's gonna tell Mommy. If you are hungry, wake up. Breakfast."
I don't answer anymore. Just nodding weakly. And, maybe because of anxiety, I know I feel Daddy's lips stuck to the corner of my lips. Geez...if he wanted to do anything, I don't think I'd be able to stand up to fight, though not necessarily I would fight.
"Pity," muttered Daddy. I felt her fingers stroking my hair, and then she fixed my blanket. After that, he came out of my room and I heard the sound of the door clattering as he closed the door behind his back.
Three hours later, my drowsiness slowly disappeared, and was completely gone when Mommy Rani came with her shrill voice. He came into my room after the door opened with the door handle in Daddy's hand.
"Kejoraaa..," litchi. "Geez, girls, how is this clock still sleeping?"
I grin. "Night I couldn't sleep, Mom," I said. Then we hugged.
"Why can't you sleep? You invited Daddy what? Overworking? Huh uh?"
"Heh, Kunti! Indiscriminate by the way" said Daddy. "Basic gesrek!"
"Nothing to say, Mom. Just. emm. don't talk about it, yeah." I glanced at Daddy until he understood and passed away leaving us both. "Mommy brought a dress for me?"
Warm as the sunlight barged in through the room window, Mom Rani smiled and lifted the paper bag in her hand. "This," he said. "But don't look at it. Surprise for tonight."
"What does that mean?"
"I want to see, try, fit or not."
"Warrantable. Don't doubt eyke's ability. Mommy assures me, Daddy will be pangling to see you tonight. And he's gonna fall in love."
Huh huh? I feel my cheeks blushing and feeling hot. I also covered my mouth with my hands. Mom Rani could talk like that, I thought. And I have to ask. "Mom, did Mommy say that?"
"Mommy already knows, dong...."
"Know what?" I'm getting embarrassed.
"Don't be a plain ass...."
"Hmm, yeah. Mommy knows from whom? Daddy time story?"
"From Oom Hendri" he said. "After that, Mommy's with your Daddy." He smiled and looked at me deeply. Then he clasped my hand tightly. "thank you. You made Mommy relieved. Mommy's guilt on your Daddy is now gone, gone, gone, it's plain."
I get the point. It turns out that all this time Mommy felt burdened because she had left Daddy and broke the marriage bond between them. But even if forced, the two of them will not feel true happiness for their hearts.
I cleared my throat slowly. "Mom," I said, "dong's story, why did Mommy get married to Daddy, how did you get divorced? Please, huh?"
"Daddy never told you?" she asked, still with the same look.
I'm shaking. "Never."
Mommy nodded, and her gaze became sad. "But don't be surprised, will you?" her door. He also took a deep breath. "Mommy.Mommy was pregnant."
I flinched, a little surprised to hear his confession. My chest rumbles. "Pregnant? Same Daddy?"
"No, Honey. Mommy got pregnant with Oom Endru. But, because Oom Endru was arrested for something, he was imprisoned, so Mommy married Daddy. Mommy and Oom Endru are getting married. But destiny says something else. Gibran was a good man, for the sake of saving Mommy's family from embarrassment, he was willing to help Mommy. He is willing to fulfill the request of his father Mommy, who incidentally is a friend of his father Gibran. Just like them, your Mommy and Daddy, we were friends from childhood like our parents. She was so kind that she wanted to help us, even though Mommy ended up having a miscarriage. If you're asking why we split up, yes because we're destined not to have that feeling. The affection between us is like a brother, like a sister. While. Mommy's feelings, Mommy's love remains to Oom Endru. So... After Oom Endru was released from prison, Mommy asked permission to Daddy to. And he allowed. Mommy knows she's sincere, but still Mommy feels guilty. Moreover, he was long since widowed." He smiled, and immediately came back as cheerful as before. "But it's all just the past" he said. "The point is, now Mommy is relieved. Thank you, yes, dear."
I nodded stiffly. This is surprising, as well as a relief. Because I used to think that I was the cause of the separation between them. A foster child who is too dear to Daddy. Apparently not. I'm not the cause of the separation between them.
Thank you, Lord. You have told me this truth. Thank ye.
"Kejora, sorry, yeah. Mommy is not a good person. Mommy. You could say Mommy is a bad girl. Mommy got pregnant with Oom Endru, but married Gibran instead. While... Cruel, she's pregnant, but she's leaving so her boyfriend can be with another woman. Mommy knows, she wants Gibran with a woman who's still a saint. But... Daddy even married Mommy who was pregnant with another boy. Your mother's sacrifice seemed to have been in vain at that time. But not anymore, right? Daddy will be with you. Good girl, beautiful girl, and.you know what, you're still new. As your mother's expectations." He looked down, then smiled. "Eh, for a second, you're really new, right? Has it been unboxed by Daddy?"
Geez.. Gesrek is crumbling again.