
But this did not happen when I was about to give birth. When I woke up in the morning to pee, around two in the morning, I found tanned patches in my feminine area. I knew I was going to give birth soon. My age is enough. I immediately went back to the room, woke Daddy up and he started to panic. And suddenly on the way to the hospital I started to feel the pain of contractions. At the bottom of my body feels crushed by the baby, he wants to get out immediately.
In my tears, I tried not to complain, but could not because the pain was overwhelming. "Daddy.. sick...."
"Patience, Honey. Patience. We'll be there soon."
But after the pain even more so. I was crying incessantly, walking back and forth and getting sicker.
"Son.." Daddy said quietly to my stomach while wiping his tears. "Hurry out. pity Mommy...."
Pity Daddy. He felt the pain I felt. The feeling of being wrong because you do not know how and do not know what to do. Daddy kissed me, hugged me, tried to comfort me, but still could not relieve the pain when the baby tried to break through the exit in my womb. However, it is not my destiny to give birth normally. After waiting twelve hours and the opening of my uterus did not increase, just stuck in the opening two, everyone gave up and let the doctor take action for the operation. The Gibran Junior finally made his mommy's stomach dissected as well.
I gave birth through a C-section. Very pleasant.. hmm....
Again, Daddy shed his tears when he heard the sound of his son crying. Aditama Star. He immediately offered a bow of gratitude.
So did I, when the nurse showed my baby to me and asked me to kiss her, my tears came. Haru's.
Oh. I've become a mother....
Ah, I finally gave a biological child and a biological grandson to Daddy and Oma. The biological children of their blood. I am happy and feel my life is more perfect. Seeing Daddy and Oma smile made me overwhelmed with relief and happiness that I could not explain how delicious it was. I'm very happy.
I gave birth to my son, Mom. I'm sure you're happy up there watching my happiness. Thank you for giving birth to me in this world.
I could only open my eyes in response that I could hear her voice. Equally, Daddy. He's proof of my love for you, as well as for Oma. Thank you for giving us this perfect life. Thank ye.
I can't get my voice out. Although he could, it took extra effort to talk and he had to bring his ears to my mouth. But I didn't do it. My whole body was still numb and I was tormented by the thirst that made my throat feel so sore. Bemoan. But Daddy said something that made me want to laugh, "He's very handsome, like me," he said.
Wwwwww...!
Very confident, anyway...!
But it's true. He is very handsome like his father. My star. The little guy who perfected my life.
I love you, Star of Aditama. I love you, Gibran Aditama. I love you guys. I love you, Oma. I love you too.
I'm grateful. I managed to get through all my difficult times and was surrounded by good people who loved me, until the bad events that happened to me did not necessarily make me lose my mind, especially to suicide. It's not easy to be me, especially when you think about the abuse. But believe me, that power comes from yourself, and is supported by those around you.
In the end, everything you have ever fought for or anything that has happened to you, comes down to one conclusion: you are only a servant of the Almighty.
He holds your heart. He shows the way when the direction of the pace of life you do not know. He gives when you are ready. He who loves opens the way from a direction you never expected.
According to him, your life will be more beautiful. Aami....