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That day, on a cruise ship that is not as big as the largest cruise ship in the world.
But the luxury facilities in it are not inferior to the largest cruise ship in the world.
I was chatting and joking with Alvarend, my little friend-well, not exactly a friend. Because I know him as a relative of my late father.
I've played together, but only. That is also rare because Alvarend was domiciled in London until before he went to college.
But even though I and Alva - my call to Alvarend - rarely met, we were quite on good terms, although not intensely exchanging news, especially since the incident that had happened to my family, related to my father's death.
And then I disappeared to investigate my father's death, and to take revenge on those who were involved in the conspiracy that scapegoated my father, and then killed him vilely. In the end, it was Alva's fathers who helped me solve it, besides there was a coincidence that made them have the same enemy as me.
Noted, the story is in The Smith’s.
( Promo number ).
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Speaking of the big day of the Alva family at that time, that day I was met by a girl from the Alva family.
One of the ranks of beautiful women who dazzle with a variety of ages in the Alva family that is very many personnel.
Valera, name.
Valera Madelaine Aditama Adjieran Smith, if not wrong.
Val, as soon as he's usually called.
Beautiful teenage girl is amazing indeed, besides cute.
But very centile!.
But not a centile in disgusting levels, but adorable.
To me.
I knew Val from the moment he was born into the world.
But in the days before I saw her grow into a four or fifteen year old teenage girl if it wasn't wrong, I'd only seen her in finger counts on my hands.
Chatting with Alva is rare, and even rarer with Val. Never mind chatting, meeting Val alone is very rare.
Eh know-know was a teenager was his real sister Alva.
It's just, Val is one centil after his son.
What I just noticed after the cruise was over, the beautiful girl who always hooked on me every time we met, turned out to be just me, not on other men.
But Val is a friendly girl to everyone she meets. Val's parents taught him well, apparently, how to treat others, regardless of social status.
Not only Val, but all the children who are heirs in the lineage of the Alva family dynasty, I-note there is nothing arrogant, rich pretentious, even though well they are really rich. And don't ask me what the total wealth of the Alva family is, because I think it takes hundreds of accountants to count it.
But, the heirs of various ages, as well as their nature and behavior. But to get along, they never sorted out based on social class.
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Back to Val.
That cute and beautiful teenage girl, one day made me quite surprised.
When she declared that she loved me, and wanted me to be her husband. Wedding ceremony of Cepet.
What?!.
But then I laughed.
And Val pursed her lips so adorablely.
Honey, it's still her.
Try him my age.
I will definitely be torn without a remnant.
It's so amazing that Val is the thing.
Makes me never feel angry if he always sticks to me when we meet.
Well, even though there is also a feeling of unease when Val like that.
But never did I ambush anything Val did to me, because only to the extent that he was spoiled on me, or to push me to just hug.
Centil, but not cheap. And sometimes spoiled excessively. But I keep letting it.
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The cute and beautiful teenage girl has become a young girl now. It's been almost eighteen years. And oh my God, Val's getting good looks.
The little girl grew more and more charm. Beautiful over the line I think. And I think any man who sees Val would think the same as me.
And I think also, Val and his family, are God's beloved creatures. Because indeed no one can see the flaws in their physical and facial features.
Not to mention their wealth, which somehow Val's parents and sisters gathered up to that much. It feels that the word ‘banyak’ is also less precise to describe their abundant wealth.
If people are shallow-minded, they may think they are doing the exercise. Haha!.
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Back to Val. Val the young man, was already a young girl.
For some reason, my brain and my heart over the past few years have been quite intense in remembering it, thinking about it.
There's a strange feeling in my heart, that right now I'm seeing some Val photos in my phone gallery. Be it his own photo, or a variety of photos where there is a picture of Val in it.
There was something that intrigued me, every time I saw Val's photo, and remembered the various behaviors he had been acting on me all along.
But there's no way that tickle is a feeling called love, right?.
Yes, it is impossible.
When I fell in love with you?. On bocil?.
I rejected my own heart's conjecture, for one thing.
My feelings for Val.
I just love him. That’s it!.
Val is too adorable not to be loved.
By me.
It was so adorable that I loved her so much.
But, I feel, the love I have for Val, is different from the love I have for Lena.
My sister's.
Did I really fall for a young girl?.
Once again, I dismissed my own guess. Not likely.
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I only love Val, not her. That's what I believe.
Don't want to play and take heart in Val's attitude to me who said he loved me, like a woman loves a man.
After all I thought, what Val thought was the love he felt for me, was just an euphoria of teenage girls, young girls who would only last a little while.
And I, will be free from the shackles of ‘sindrom caterpillar’ Val to me.
But ....
Years passed, but Val's attitude didn't change for me.
Val still looks ‘mengkilaiku’, ‘pursuit me’.
Damn, how do I feel and feel comfortable with that?.
There's something I feel lost in my day, if I don't talk to Val, either by chat or phone call.
There was an uneasy feeling, as Val began to ask questions frequently,
“Kak Kafeel why the hell do not want to date Val? ...”
Not comfortable because you don't like it. But somehow explaining it was hard for me.
I just felt like I couldn't possibly make Val my lover. And I've been thinking about talking seriously to Val about his feelings for me.
I want to ask her to stop wishing on me, on my love.
I've determined it a few times, but every time I see Val's face, I don't have the heart.
Until today.
A few days ago I really made up my mind to go to London, and asked Val to let go of his feelings for me.
The feeling I thought was euphoria monkey love only.
Val's path is still long for his future, and of course get a companion who is not far old with him.
After all, I want to have a female escort who is on par with me. In age, that is. At the maturity level. Not a young girl. Even though that young girl for God's sake was so adorable. But I don't want Val to wish me too far. So yes it is, I round out my determination, to go to London, when my work is a bit quiet in Jakarta.
But before that happened, it turned out that Val had come to Jakarta first, and it surprised me. Val will start his studies next week.
But Val says he's missing seeing me.
Oh Tahaan!! ....
Why don't Val's feelings go away to me?.
I feel frustrated, but I don't know why.
But I think I'm gonna ask Val to stop wishing on me right now.
It just so happened that he was visiting Jakarta. Once again, I really made up my mind to seriously talk to Val, to let go of her feelings and hopes for me.
But before that happened, in fact Val who had already started talking about my feelings for him. Val's question is more or less the same.
It was just that his tone of voice and gaze when asking this time were different. In accordance with Val's words before asking me, if the girl looks serious enough to ask.
It was supposed to be a loophole for me to ask Val to stop wishing on me. Yes it should be ... But in reality, something was raging in my heart. Val with a question, here's his expression.
Makes me curious about the reason Val who knew wanted to speak seriously to me.
And then Val said,
“Because Val really loves Kak Kafeel.”
Still with her face and Val's serious tone of voice. Making there a warm feeling in my heart, there was also an uncomfortable sigh at the same time.
Again, there's a sense of intrusion, if I have to make Val stop wishing on me.
“Val know what love is?”
And that question escaped my mouth.
I wonder, this young leaf will answer what.
But indeed I really want to know what the answer of this girl in front of me is.
And I put on a smile, when Val literally answered my question, explaining the definition of ‘Cinta’.
Then Val's adorable expression came back.
But that adorable expression slowly faded away, as I started to say some things about love, as well as my gaze.
I know, maybe Val was disappointed after I said a few things about my views on love. How I feel and respond to his feelings for me.
But then, my heart seemed to tremble at the sound of every word, about Val's feelings for me. Too sincere, too serious if the feeling Val feels for me is just euphoria.
And when Val asked what he was that I always praised with the word ‘warming’, only to the extent that I only felt anxious about him, coupled with the sentence Val who said, just like that,
“Because in Kak Kafeel's eyes, Val is just a naive little girl about love-“
My heart, being real, started to feel uncomfortable.
Then when I dismissed Val's allegations, with Val saying that if I had never taken her feelings seriously, there was guilt that then enveloped my heart.
Along with Val's face I saw began to look sad. Until Val says, “Excuse Val yes Brother?. For the comfort of Kak Kafeel who is disturbed by the existence of Val, and the attitude of Val who is like a caterpillar.”
The more I felt the discomfort too-too in my heart. The more I felt that, as I listened to every word of Val's mouth, after he apologized for his attitude towards me.
Then I became unhappy with Val's conjecture that I was disgusted by him.
Where there is so!.
Just the Val!.
If I were to be disgusted by him, there was no way I would have allowed for all these years his caterpillar-like attitude to me.
How the hell?!.
Time until Val thinks so?.
So I'm pissed off.
At once, riled.
More riled up, besides knowing I felt anxious when Val said that he wanted to make sure he did not pursue the uncertain.
And I know, if ‘thing is uncertain’ it is me.
At a time when I felt sad, other than as if there was a pinch in my heart. When Val said,
“Kak Kafeel, maybe it will only be a dream Val only next ...”
And the discussion from Val's mouth that kept saying it was disturbing to my ears, as well as my heart.
It was up to Val to say, if he was going to give up his hope for my love that he couldn't possibly have.
In accordance with what I had ever expected.
But why is it that when I heard Val say the thing I wanted to ask of him, even my heart is sad?.
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Your mouth is your day.
“Kak Kafeel, Val release from Val snare from this moment ...”
That's what Val said with half a chuckle.
Wishes right?. To escape the entanglement and chase this young girl so that I can live my daily life as a normal mature man?.
Looking for a woman who is age-appropriate to me.
Like that, the one in my brain, my wish. And I should have felt relieved after hearing Val say that.
Yes, should.
Maybe even happy.
But in reality, I felt a slash in my heart.
Me, not willing.
Not willing if Val decides to stay away and keep his distance from me.
Me, it feels too ordinary to feel ‘ganggut’ Val in my life.
If Val stopped that ‘interference’, I would have lost it. I can ....
Loving her? ....
So I told you my reasons for Val not to stay away from me.
But Val didn't want to accept my honesty thinking that I was just pushing myself and pitying her.
Val, go ....
AARRGHH!! ....
I love you Val!.
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What happened, happened!
Bocil, or whatever it is whatever!.
Obviously I don't want Val to stay away from me!.
Very unwilling!.
Seeing Val's legs move to turn around and step away, it made me think he would have gone very far away from me if I hadn't held him back, stopping him.
No-no, I don't want to, I don't want to, I don't want to, if I have to get away from Val!.
I was already hot to see Val pinching Achiel's cheek.
Then once Val gets away and forgets me, she'll meet someone and get in love later.
And me, nelongso? ....
Oh hell no!
L loved her.
I love you, Val.
May this kiss make you believe.
If, I don't want far, don't want to lose her ‘Val Pretty’ AA Kafeel.
I love you, Valera Madelaine Aditama Adjieran Smith.
Maybe I've gone crazy, to the point of falling in love with a girl who's even younger than my sister.
But I do, Val ....
I do Love you!.
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I-I swear I love you
Really Crazy for your sake
I swear My Heart is Dead to You
There's Nothing Else
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To be continue ....