HEIRS OF THE ADJIERAN SMITH (Tale of the Heirs )

VAL’s POV

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In my life that I never felt boring because I had a wonderful family for me, I was met by God by someone who at the first moment I saw him, I felt the sun in the sky at that moment, highlighting on that one figure.

Makes it look so bright.

In my eyes.

Kak Kafeel's name, which Mika told me at the time.

Kafeel Adiwangsa.

One of the children of one of my family's close relatives.

One of the children of one of my close relatives who can really turn my eyes, even my world, to that one figure.

Though many men also vary the age of the children of relatives of my family, which is not less handsome with Kak Kafeel.

But only one figure of Kafeel Adiwangsa is able to shake my heart and soul.

A figure that made every member of my family raise their eyebrows, when I said,

“Val wants him to be Val's life partner!”

Then,

“Wow!”

“Wuih, Electra Complex!”

“Yakin Val?”

Such tweets came out of the mouths of my family members, when I decided that Kafeel Adiwangsa was the man I wanted to be in my life.

No wonder, if my family seemed astonished at my decision to choose Kak Kafeel to be the man I want to be in my life.

At that time, I was about 14 or 15 years old.

And Kak Kafeel has reached the age of Abang Varen.

“Are you crazy?!”

That question also came up for me.

Yes indeed. I was that crazy.

Falling in love with a man who is the age of brother, who has reached the age of maturity.

‘Electra Complex.’

Maybe I have that syndrome.

Attraction syndrome in someone far older than me.

Which I may have, because I admire too much of the grown men in my family.

Gappa, the Dads, as well as Brother and Kak Tan-Tan, who have their own charms.

So maybe that's what pioneered why I liked Kak Kafeel who was a grown man as well when I met him on my family's yacht during our big holiday.

Then why?.

Rather than me falling in love with a man the same age as my Dad?.

Could it be my Sugar Baby dong?.

Ih amit-amit, coy-coy!.

I could've strangled Dad R until it happened.

Or drowned my brother in the pool, with my body wrapped in iron chains.

Ugh, awful!.

It would've happened to me, if I were a Sugar Baby.

Remembering the story about the men in my family who have ‘side other’ in themselves.

I know that. Tan-Tan once told us stories about Dad and Brother, when they became ‘gila’ because our safety was threatened.

Kafeel was also once involved with some of my Dad on a mission of vengeance.

Does Kak Kafeel also have ‘side other’ like the men in my family?.

I don't know.

Pun, I don't care.

I don't even care if the men in the family have half a psychopath in them.

The important thing is that they love me. Loving and loving our family with all our heart. And ‘another side’ it will only appear if all of us, who the men in our family love threatened his safety.

For that, I also do not care if Kak Kafeel has also ‘side other’ like my beloved men.

All I have cared about since I saw Kak Kafeel who knew about me and met when I was a kid is how I caught Kak Kafeel's attention.

Makes him hooked on me.

Loving me.

The love that people consider to be just the Euphoria of my teenage years.

Which I used to be, I feel that way too. But in fact not.

Rolling time.

And until I was about to reach the age of 18 today, my interest in Kak Kafeel did not change in the least.

Every second, even I feel if my feelings are getting deeper on Kak Kafeel. Loved Kak Kafel so much that I put aside all the shame in me. Pursuing Kak Kafeel without pause, finding him with chat and phone calls, sticking to him if we met without even letting go.

Until the name caterpillar, pinned to me from my family members.

Foolish time for me. I also want to upgrade from caterpillar to gecko, aka gecko if it is close to Kak Kafeel.

Which is said to only be able to go from the person he bought, when there is a thunderbolt.

Nice right?.

If it is not rainy season, it means I will stick to Kak Kafeel without interference, because lightning is not there when the day is sunny or hot.

Crazy am I? I love a Kafeel Adiwangsa.

Stamped as a flippant or shameless woman I don't care.

Either by my family or anyone else.

No. I take heart.

Because I don't care.

In my brain there are only Kak Kafeel, Kak Kafeel and Kak Kafeel.

Even though, my family doesn't really mean me.

They would just say to me, while we were chatting lightly and joking. Because in our family, no one would drop each other, just remind each other.

Admonishes.

Advice, which in the end I listened to a lot after a long time.

It's not that I haven't listened to my family's advice. I listened to their advice.

However, the advice related to Kak Kafeel, when I felt it was against my heart - not that I ignored - I was pending first for me to think about.

I am blind to my love for Kafel.

Until the second it is still so.

It's just that, in the end, my heart and brain started to think about the advice.

The advice I've been waiting for me to focus on thinking. Where now, somehow my brain and my heart remember and think about it.

I always come forward eagerly to approach Kak Kafeel without hesitation, without shame.

My brain was always thinking about how to make Kak Kafeel mine.

Often expressed love for Kak Kafeel adore my heart.

Without thinking about his feelings for me.

Without thinking, if Kak Kafeel might be bothered with my attitude that approached him all this time.

Yeah, I haven't thought about that all this time.

All this time I was just focusing on attracting Kak Kafeel's attention to get him hooked on me.

Although if I discuss with her every once in a while, when Kak Kafeel and I can date, Kak Kafeel will switch the conversation, in various ways.

But me, just relax.

No, I don't care about that one thing.

But now, I feel sad if I remember it.

Remembering also, one of my family members said,

“Val don't be selfish. Val also has to think about Kak Kafeel's feelings with your attitude.”

Yes also, I did not ask if Kak Kafeel felt objected or disturbed or not with the excess of my attitude that approached him, in order to get the attention and love of a Kafeel Adiwangsa.

Then Brother said,

“Do not chase the uncertain.”

Where my brain became thinking harder, for my attitude towards Kak Kafeel in the future.

Making my brain and my heart go to war to make a decision, is it time I seriously asked Kak Kafeel how he felt about me.

Am I getting tired of chasing him?.

No, that's not the cause. The reason, why I was reluctant to seriously ask her feelings for me.

Nor have I ever thought about doing that before.

I've thought about that before.

To ask seriously about Kak Kafeel's feelings for me.

But I've always been sidelined all this time. I always keep clapping, even though I have been thinking about it lately.

But I never realized, to ask that to Kak Kafeel. Because I ...

Afraid!.

I was afraid to ask, though,

“Kak Kafeel has a lover?”

Or, or,

“Is there a woman Kak Kafeel loves in Brother's heart, and that woman is not Val?”

And Kak Kafeel's answer is, “Iya.”

That's why I'm afraid to ask to be sure.

I was afraid that my heart - which with its heart and knees that were as limp as if Kak Kafeel was smiling at me - would be torn apart.

If the thing I'm afraid of is true. If Kak Kafeel has actually had a lover, or it turns out there is another woman he loves.

Besides me.

If that were true, then how would my heart be?.

But the words of my Special Brother Achiel-Bodyguard, stirred my heart as well.

“Love doesn't have to have.”

And that sentence from Achiel's sister, it's influenced me to make decisions that have been difficult for me to do.

Seriously so.

In the end, I do that right now.

Ask Kak Kafeel how Kak Kafeel really feels about me, with thousands of worries and fears surrounding my heart.

Concern over fear, if Kak Kafeel says,

“Sorry Val, for Brother, you are only a sister, because Brother already loves others.”

And if that answer were to come out of Kak Kafeel's mouth, it would darken my world. As well as my heart, it will be like the places that were swept away by the tsunami.

Ruffled, formless.

Oh God, just imagine it, my chest already feels tight.

But the words of Achiel's other brother, made me clap.

“There is a time to hope, and there is a time to stop. There is a time to fight, but there is also a time to mengikhlaskan.”

The words that seemed to knock my heart, to no longer delay asking seriously about Kak Kafeel's feelings for me.

Regardless, ready or not heart and me, if Kak Kafeel's answer is indeed a painful thing for me to hear later.

The very thing I fear.

But I need certainty, right?.

I don't know if the certainty I get from Kak Kafeel will make my heart break like the Titanic hit an iceberg off the coast of Newfoundland.

But I have to be brave now. Dare to ask Kak Kafeel what he feels in his heart for me.

Whatever the outcome, whatever Kak Kafeel answers.

What is clear is that I will continue to love her, even if Kak Kafeel's answer is painful to me.

Because my love is too deep. My heart was already covered in his name with full, without the slightest thing being missed.

I love Kak Kafeel, even though the reality I received from Kak Kafeel was the opposite of my feelings.

Maybe it's my destiny.

Admire without being loved.

What do you want to say?.

Right said Kak Achiel, if love is not always must have?.

Well, maybe I should have a chest, if my love is unrequited, if Kak Kafeel is ‘Kasih Tak Till’ for me.

Or I'm like a pungguk who misses the moon.

No reason, as long as Kafel is happy in his life.

Although Kak Kafeel and his love, will only forever be my dream.

And right now I have steeled myself to ask Kak Kafeel very seriously.

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“True Kak Kafeel's feelings for Val, what do they look like?.”

“If you can tell, why Val suddenly talks seriously like this? ..”

“Because Val really loves Kak Kafeel.”

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“But the point Kak Kafeel does not believe the feelings of Val to Kakang?”

“It's not like that Val. Only ...”

“Because in Kak Kafeel's eyes, Val is just a naive little girl about love—“

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“Val same love Kak Kafeel as sincerely as heart.. but now Val aware, if love should not have..”.

“...”

“Val will try to release Val's feelings on Kak Kafeel ..”

“...”

“Kak Kafeel can feel calm, because this caterpillar will not stick to Kak Kafeel anymore.”.

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“Now Val knows, if Kak Kafeel will never be able to have Val ... Val will learn to slowly let go of Val's silly love affair on Sister.”.

“Cannot!”

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“If Val wants to stay away from Big Brother and also keep his distance, it feels like Big Brother will lose ..”

“Kak Kafeel do not force yourself to encourage Val .”

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“Already Yes Brother... Val already knows the end of our conversation this.”

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“I love you, Val ...”.

“Iya, Val knows it. Kak Kafeel loves Val like a sister to his sister, right?.”

“Not!”

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“Which Sister feels to you, not like the affection of an older brother on his younger sister.”

“...”

“Boy Sister's affection for you is deeper than that.”

“ What does Kak Kafeel mean, Brother has feelings as a man feels for a woman?.”

“Don't make Val hate Kak Kafeel, because Sister has mercy on Val ..”

“........”

“Please, don’t ...”

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After my long conversation with Kak Kafeel which my heart felt was out of order, I was about to leave from before Kak Kafeel after I looked over, as well as to crib him.

I pray that Kafel will not pity me, for my love and hope for him. Because my heart hurts more, if it's pitied like that.

I almost flew high, when I heard Kak Kafeel say that the taste he had for me, was not like the affection of an older brother for his younger sister.

But immediately I realized something related to Kak Kafeel's words to me. I was thinking, if it was because he felt sorry for me.

To me, who may look pitiful in Kak Kafeel's eyes, for so chasing after him.

Perhaps also, Kafel felt bad for my family, for there was one sad girl - when her family was so great - who begged so much love for her, pursued her without pause, without shame..

Well, maybe.

Maybe Kak Kafeel thought so, because he felt he had a debt of gratitude and life on some of my Dad.

And if it is like that, how much more miserable I am.

Aye right? ....

That's why I don't want to.

I don't want to be pitied by Kak Kafeel.

That's why I was a little furious, until I had a chance to speak with my voice that was a little raised on Kak Kafeel.

Besides I'm sad too, anyway.

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I may be naive, but I have principles.

I hate being pitied.

Much more pitied for my love by Kak Kafeel.

Especially by Kafel himself.

So, I decided, to really stop, if that's the way it is.

It would be better for me to be heartbroken to give up my hope on Kak Kafeel, than to have him, with him just out of pity.

No, I don't want to.

So I told Kak Kafeel, please,

“Don't pity Val!”

I called out like that to Kafel, between my sorrow and my annoyance.

“Don’t Brother. Don't in the end Brother accepts Val in Big Brother's life, based on pity ... Don't make Val hate Kak Kafeel, because Brother has mercy on Val..”

My tears are beginning to fall. I can't stand it, my heart doesn't feel good.

How about after this I behave to Kak Kafeel, let me think again.

Right now, I just want to leave in front of Kafel, so that he will no longer feel sorry for me.

Not until I hate him for it.

So I moved my legs, to turn away this one who was facing him.

With my sister Kafeel, who looked at me with eyes, who knew what she was like. I could not see clearly, because my eyes were blocked by tears.

“Please, don’t.” I said, then turned my face away, while moving my legs to go from before Kak Kafeel. However, my legs did not succeed in stepping, my body was restrained due to a check on my wrist for the second time.

Kafeel once again held back my steps, after earlier I had invited him to leave the restaurant with a direct view on the beach, after I said to end our conversation. But Kak Kafeel's hand grip on my wrist right now, is a little stronger than the one before.

Which, when my hands were blocked again, my body also felt attracted quickly until I turned back to where I was facing before I turned away from Kak Kafeel. Only a few seconds, from the check in the hand, and my body is interested. Until at last my hand was freed from Kak Kafeel's hand, which quickly caught my face.

And without waiting for the second to pass,

Cups!.

My lips .. My lips ..

Sticking with Kak Kafeel's lips...

These.. These..

“What is it enough to explain how Big Brother feels to Val?..”

I heard Kak Kafeel's voice speak softly, with his face so very close to mine that I could feel his breath sweeping across my face.

I'm petrifying.

Shock to be exact.

I .. I ..

“Val!”

I heard Kafel exclaim.

At the same time, where my knee seems to be off the shell.

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To be continue ...