HAVE YOU EVER LOVED ME? (TAMAT)

A HEART THAT IS NO LONGER FROZEN

Arumi started to open her mouth to eat and drink. She did it not because of Rayyan, but because of the baby she was carrying.

Rayyan painstakingly feeds Arumi to her food. Rayyan invites Arumi to pray maghrib. Arumi was in her wheelchair. Rayyan became the priest in front of him. Since Arumi was at his house, Rayyan became diligent in prayer. He knew his heart was starting to freeze since only vengeance was in his heart. Salad is rarely started. Slowly his heart began to melt as his love for his wife grew stronger.

Rayyan brought Arumi to enjoy the light of the moon and stars in the sky. Occasionally Arumi's headscarf flashed with a strong gust of wind. They both kept quiet. Rayyan is not the type of romantic man who knows how to express love that makes a woman melt. She has been used to hating love since her mother's betrayal of her father.

"When I was a kid, I loved to see the flickering stars, Rum. With my father and mother who are always in harmony. I was so happy at the time. They accompanied me to see the full moon and the stars. He said I should be able to reach my star, my ideals. I didn't know that one day they were two people who hurt each other." Rayyan said that tearfully. Responded to it or not, he just wanted to melt the atmosphere.

Arumi looked at Rayyan who was looking up at the sky enjoying the light of the moon and stars. Arumi also followed the same thing with his hearing which also enjoyed the pounding of the waves. It was just him and Rayyan there.

"You're fucking Rum? We're back at the inn." Arumi nodded. Along the way there was silence.

Rayyan carried his wife on the bed carefully. Putting Arumi on the bed, she helps Arumi open her sweater and hijab and kisses her forehead.

"I slept outside yeah Rum, if you need anything you call me ya. I'll take care of you from the outside." Just two steps Rayyan took. Suddenly someone called out to him.

"Rayyan.." There was a soft voice Arumi could finally hear back.

"Yes Rum. What's wrong?" Rayyan looked at his wife.

"Sleep here. My son wants to be accompanied by his father. " A smile expands on Rayyan's face. He pinched his hand. It means he's not dreaming.

"really?" Arumi nodded. Then put his body on the bed. Rayyan positioned herself sleeping beside Arumi. He looked at his wife's back. Then they turned sideways and turned back to each other. They were both still opening their eyes, yet there was no initiative to open their voices. Somehow Arumi suddenly wanted her stomach in her husband's elus.

"Son, don't make me ashamed of your father. "Inner Arumi while stroking her stomach. But the feeling grew stronger until Arumi tilted to the right then to the left several times. Rayyan who felt Arumi sleeping was not calm then tried to ask.

"You why.Rum? you can't sleep?" Arumi nodded. Rayyan approached Arumi and then spread her body again.His left arm was used as a pillow by Arumi. And his right hand caressed Arumi's stomach. Miraculously, Arumi closed her eyes. Rayyan heard Arumi's breathing start to get regular. Signs he's asleep. A moment later, Rayyan finally went to sleep with Arumi.

The phone alarm has sounded from Arumi. It was time to pray the dawn of Him, opening his eyes. He saw Rayyan holding a prayer mat. I don't know when Rayyan woke up. It's just that her heart was touched when she saw her husband performing prayers solemnly'.

Arumi enjoys her husband's melodious voice while reading the digital Qur'An from her phone. He did not know that Rayuan could read the Qur'an. Even her voice is so sweet.

"You hear son? That's your father's voice. Good sound." Inner Arumi while stroking her stomach that is still flat.

"Are you awake, Rum?" Arumi nodded. "Do you want me to help you get some water?" Arumi shakes. He can do it himself. He got off the bed and took the water very refreshing.

*Rayyan typed something into her doctor*

"Dok, can't you relate while you're pregnant?"

The doctor answered shortly

"By Mr. Rayyan. As long as the content is strong it does not matter. But it's very risky if the content is weak."

Rayyan breathed. He did not know his wife's content was strong or weak. But he really wanted to do it. Mumpung Arumi seems to have begun to accept his presence. Even if he is strong, if he wants to do it, he will ask his wife for permission first. He doesn't want to make any more mistakes.

Arumi had taken a shower and was preparing for the dawn prayer. He looks fresher. The husband was busy with his laptop. I don't know what's taking care of. If Arumi remembers that Rayyan took all of his father's belongings, there is pain in his heart. But what the hell else? it belonged to Rayyan. And Rayyan should have managed it.

Arumi sat on the bed, she saw a glass of milk on the nightstand.

"drink. I brought pregnant mother's milk for you. I made it for you." Rayyan said while still struggling with her laptop.

"he'emmm." replied Arumi briefly. Actually he was very happy with the attention Rayyan had given these few days. Arumi's soft heart is certainly easily touched by Rayyan's attitude that you think is so sweet. Although there was no seduction and gloating from Rayyan's mouth. But Arumi knows that Rayyan is not the type of man who likes to spread charm.

Then somehow there was a sudden sense of tightness when she recalled her husband's affair when she brought the woman home. And the worse is now that the woman is in an office with Arumi.

"Ray, can I ask you something?" Said Arumi suddenly.

"Yes, what do you want?" Rayyan closed her laptop and looked Arumi in the eye.

"When did you love me?"

"Why are you asking like that?"

"I'm just a normal woman. Who wants certainty."

"First I saw you. And from the first day your father introduced me to you."

"What about the woman you were carrying?" Arumi's face suddenly lethargic.

"Tomorrow when we get back, I'll take you to meet him. This time I won't hurt you. But let it all be clear when you also hear an explanation from him."

Rayyan smiled wryly as she saw Arumi seemed dissatisfied with her answer. He knew his wife was sulking. Or is he jealous? Rayyan hoped that if she was jealous, Rayyan would like her a lot. That means Arumi has the same feelings towards her.

Rayyan approached Arumi and stroked her hair that was not covered in a headscarf.

"Rome.."

"Hem.."

"Can I kiss you?" Rayyan asked for permission even just to kiss. He wouldn't risk it if he suddenly kissed his wife. It was better that she ask permission for Rayyan to also know how Arumi feels.

They look at each other. Arumi nodded. Rayyan was very happy. Tenyata Arumi wants it. It means there is love for her in Arumi's heart.

Rayyan grabbed Arumi's head up, then held her chin and they kissed each other. Go for each other and try to let go of each other's egos after this. Arumi's heart was slowly frozen.