Grandpa's Choice Man

Upset and Sorrowful

"Ra, sorry. I'm sorry I've been too outrageous with you. I was too emotional. Ii'm sorry. Don't go away and disappear again, dear, "sorry Rama cried on Tiara's lap.

Rama no longer exalts prestige because he has fully realized that Tiara has become the most important part of his life. Rama was unable to face the fact that Tiara was not on his side, even though he admitted his mistake.

"I know that my words will be a wound that may last forever in your heart. But, please give me a chance to improve things. I promise I won't be rash again. Trust me, I really love you. I want our household to remain intact. Do not go again" lamented Rama clenched his hands to strengthen himself.

"Dragon, I'm not going anywhere. Tiara still belongs to Abang. Just, Tiara asked for a little more time to calm down because it still hurts. Although not yet able to be a full wife, but Tiara always tried to keep herself and honor for a brother. One day, Tiara will definitely give Tiara a full body soul. Patience first yes," said Tiara shed tears.

"I'm not going to force Tiara on that. I just want you to stay by my side. I'm sorry, honey. Go home whenever you want. I will be patient and faithful waiting for you. Don't forget to tell Mama. Mama is worried about you, "whimper Rama while looking up to meet Tiara.

Seeing Rama's wet cheeks with a reddened face, Tiara could feel Rama's sincerity to him. His sissy gaze further sliced the inner Tiara as it looked very tired and his blackened eye bags signaled his sleep clock was irregular. In fact, his face looked more tapered like he rarely ate.

"Yes, Bang. Tiara called Mama. My mom is calmer now. There is a brother who needs to be calmer. Forgive Tiara who has made Brother and Mama anxious yes," said Tiara while rubbing Rama's cheek gently.

"Abang deserves to be punished like this, Ra. In fact, you can hate me, but you don't want to get away from me" Rama said, looking more deeply at Tiara.

"Husstt," whispered Tiara as she placed her index finger on Rama's lips, then asked, "Sister would I tell you something?"

"What?" rama asked with a frown.

"Here stand," answered Tiara guiding Rama to his feet.

Rama obeyed Tiara's will and resigned to what Tiara would do to him. Being able to meet Tiara again alone has become an incredible gift to be grateful for. Especially when Tiara was fixed in his eyes certainly made regret and regret linked deeper.

"I've tried many times to hate you, but I can't do it. In fact, the heartache I felt did not make me think of giving up. I just need time to make peace with myself and my situation. I must have come home, but not yet" Tiara said seriously as she held her husband's arm.

Rama nodded because he had no choice but to. Of course, he was very grateful that Tiara had not avoided him.

"Now we eat yuk. If you are skinny, how will you take care of Tiara" persuaded Tiara.

Finally, a thin smile Rama was adorning his face. Rana smiled at him. After that, they also enjoyed the dishes Tiara had ordered. They can also enjoy their food in peace and quiet. Without chatter or affection, only their gazes occasionally spoke of pain, love, and longing.

"Oh yes, Bang. Almost forgot. Tiara wants permission to take part in the audit to Yogyakarta. Here's his letter of duty. There are listed who is assigned to participate. There's Mr. Arjuna too. Does your brother allow it?" ask Tiara.

Actually, considering the jealousy had been blindly when knowing Tiara with Arjuna certainly made Rama a little objection. However, this experience certainly meant a lot to Tiara's apprentice and she still felt guilty so hesitant to refuse.

"Yes I allow it. The important thing is not to be too tired and do not eat late. Be careful, dear," said Rama with a heavy heart but trying to make.

"What's wrong with Juna?" tanya Tiara hesitated.

"No problem. I believe you" answered Rama calmly.

"Thank you, brother," said Tiara very excitedly.

"But, for cooperation with Selvi. Excuse me. I can't obey you yet. There is a lot to do and a lot of procedures to go through. You try to discuss with Hans how good it is. The worst possibility is until the project is completed. How, Ra?" rama gamang.

"OK, Brother. It'sit's okay. But, after this, no longer work with him," Tiara replied slightly disappointed but held back with all her might.

"OKAY. Ready. I'll take you home, right? As if by knowing where you live, I became calmer, "pinta Rama begged.

Tiara nodded.

"Ra, can I hug you?" asked Rama expectantly.

Tiara replied with a smile and nod. Rama quickly walked towards Tiara, while Tiara stood ready to receive Rama's hand. After all, she was just as empty to be away from her husband. Rama immediately grabbed Tiara to his chest, kissed Tiara's tubers, and gently rubbed Tiara's back with a soft touch.

"Miss you so much, Ra," whispered Rama made Tiara return Rama's embrace by wrapping her arms around Rama's body.

"Abang take good care of yourself while Tiara hasn't come home yet. Keep your mom lonely too. Let's go home, Bang," said Tiara while sniffing the scent of Rama's body that was very soothing.

"I still want to hug you" argued the spoiled Rama.

Tiara also obeyed Rama's will. In fact, of course, it is very pity and feels to be an evil wife for leaving the husband but he really still withholds a very extraordinary heartache. If possible only accused of cheating may still be acceptable, but the accusation to the point of pregnancy is certainly very painful for women. He did not expect Rama ever thought that cheaply about him.

With laziness, Rama would not want to have to take off his embrace. The sight of Tiara's eyes was so deep that Tiara was forced to turn away because if left unchecked, then she would not be able to hide her tears anymore. Rama's gaze still depicts unrest even though Tiara has forgiven. There is still not complete in Rama because he feels Tiara is not completely okay.

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Before heading home to the boarding house, Tiara and Rama first stop by the supermarket to buy Tiara supplies, from toiletries to stomach issues. Rama actually still wants to linger with the Tiara but Tiara still seems to give a limit that is difficult to cut. After all, they entered the car again.

Unexpectedly, Rama did not immediately drive his car. He even faced Tiara and looked at her full of sheep. Rama held both cheeks of Tiara before he could glare to avoid falling into contact with her.

"Ra, look at me!" pinta Rama further sharpened his gaze straight into Tiara's eyes.

"For what, Bang. Let's go!" take Tiara to shift the conversation by lowering her gaze.

"Look at me first!" rama is as gentle as possible.

Tiara was forced to look at Rama whose gaze had already blurted out the question that immediately jolted her mind. Tiara's eyes warmed up.

"Are you sure you're okay?" ask Rama slowly.

That was the question that had always been his weak point when his mind was being shaken. Moreover, Rama's gaze shone sharply making him even more unable to hide his feelings. Suddenly, tears fell without being controlled. As Rama wanted to hug the crying Tiara beside him, Tiara first held back with both hands clenched on Rama's shoulders.

"Big bang!" crying Tiara while hitting softly on the shoulder and chest of Rama who resignedly accepted the Tiara attitude.

"Sorry" said Rama.

"Abang dog. I'm disappointed. I'm upset. I'm ill. All this time Brother snapped, I was still patient. Brother Cuek, I can take it. Especially when you are kind and considerate, Tiara is certainly very happy and valuable. When I realized that I already loved Brother, suddenly Brother himself destroyed the feelings I had built up. If you only accuse me of cheating, of course I can still defend myself and will not be this disappointed. But, what? Brother accused me of being pregnant with another man, isn't that very demeaning and devastating to my pride as a woman as well as your wife? How could the husband accuse the wife of such a cruel accusation with only photographic evidence from the EX? Fucking brother! What kind of husband is this brother?" swear Tiara while sobbing issued his long-saved fatigue.

"Sorry, Ra. I'm a khilaf" said Rama out of words.

"Tiara must have forgiven you from the beginning because hating you also can not do. But, sorry does not necessarily relieve pain and wounds that have been gaping. Maybe over time, everything will gradually close but will not completely close because the wound in the heart will last forever." said Tiara with a trembling voice but fully aware of his words.

For a moment Tiara let out a long and heavy sigh, then again said, "Accusingly fornicating! It was unexpected that the words would come out of my brother's mouth. I want to give up on this relationship. My heart is already hurting. In fact, I can't even explain how her pain was debased and looked down upon cheaply by her own husband. Reprimanded with a high tone alone is enough to make the inner wife hacur, Bang! Understood?"

Rama just looked down and resigned. Tiara increasingly brutal beat Rama's chest until Rama a little grimace in pain but did not hold it because he could not imagine how sick Tiara because of his sassy words.

"It's so stupid of me. Already humbled. It's considered a cheap woman. But, I can't stop loving you even though I've been disappointed and it's a great pain. I hate myself for being too blind to love. No matter what my thoughts and feelings are torn here and there but loving you always has its own space that makes me unable to leave. If I hadn't loved you already, I wouldn't have felt this sick. Brother bastard! The devil! Goddamn bum!" absorbent Tiara who began to relax but tightened her fist until her hands trembled holding back the emotions within her.

Rama was silent and could not say Tiara's words, which hurt his sanity. Staring at the eyes of the wife who nanar but there is sincerity that continues to shine. Rama felt guilty not playing but did not know what to do to calm his wife who was already injured.

Tiara lowered her head with a still heavy breath but the muscles in her face and neck began to loosen. He began to catch his breath and wiped away the tears on his cheeks.

"Have, Ra? I should how?" rama asked softly and carefully.

"My earrings home. I want to be alone first. Too long close to Brother made me remember everything and it was so painful to kill me traumatized. Brother, I want to be alone. I want to take care and make peace with all this pain. Please, brother don't bother me first!" pinta Tiara turned her eyes away from Rama.

Rama immediately obeyed what Tiara said because he did not want to make his wife more tormented. His thoughts and feelings were as if they were shapeless. All was chaotic but tried not to look weak in front of Tiara as Tiara was probably more tormented by her trauma.

Along the way to kos, Tiara was slowly calm. His issues are starting to subside. Leave the wet time with the nose and thickened lips are flushed.

Arriving in front of the boarding house, Rama also helped Tiara bring his groceries but only up to the gate because the cost is a Muslim boarding so that no men are allowed to enter if not in an emergency.

"Remove you here. Here kos muslimah. No men can enter" Tiara said in a raucous voice.

"OKAY. You take good care of yourself ya___Honey," said Rama hesitantly threw his favorite call to Tiara because it felt inappropriate after what he did to Tiara.

Tiara nodded as she received two large packs of her groceries to bring into the cost. As Tiara was opening the lock of the boarding gate, suddenly a familiar voice startled Rama and Tiara.

"Rama" said a veiled woman who had been pecking beside Rama.

Tiara stopped opening the padlock out of curiosity with the woman who greeted her husband. Tiara's gaze became wry after knowing the woman who was pecking beside Rama with a full gaze of taste to Rama. He was getting inflamed until he dropped two crackles of his groceries.

"Nafisa" said Rama who gawked in confusion.