Grandpa's Choice Man

Between Regret and Worry

Bu Ina took off her embrace and looked at her son with a wrathful look. Bu Ina could not even stop her tears from imagining how broken Tiara's heart was at the moment.

"Rama, what the hell is on your mind? Mama did not think. Ngapain also takes care of and even finances the treatment of Nafisa. You are married. Act like a husband who can be trusted his words and keep his promises. Even if he's your first love or friend, you still don't deserve it" hardened Ms. Ina.

"But, Tiara also knew she agreed, Ma. We talked about this and agreed to help him out of sheer pity. Rama had no feelings for him. Rama's help is because of pure friendship, Ma," objected Rama defended himself and told the truth.

"But this kind of thing you shouldn't do, Rama. Moreover, Nafisa is a woman from your past. If Tiara finds out how you used to be, can you guarantee she's not hurt? You do not make a rash decision. Think carefully. Before you decide to finance, have you discussed with him first?" mother Ina's advice spewed out all her annoyance.

Rama tried to remember the incident on the train. Rama also realized that he immediately decided when he knew the state of Nafisa. Then he told Tiara after he had promised Nafisa.

"No, Ma. Rama said after promising Nafisa to finance him. Rama reflex aja because he felt sorry for Nafisa who was confused how to finance her treatment. Tiara also said pity and strongly supported Rama to do it even though Tiara also knew how Rama's past with him," said Rama still defend although a little bit terbesit regret.

"Well that. You should have thought there. Rama open your eyes and your heart wide. Learn more with your wife. He's your responsibility. He is a trust that you must take care of as well as possible. If you had promised Nafisa, how could Tiara refuse him? What would you do if Tiara refused? Are you going to cancel a promise you made? Sure, you wouldn't lick your own spit and try to keep persuading Tiara until she approves, would you?More importantly where does Nafisa or Tiara's heart hurt?" said Bu Ina trying to give understanding to Rama with his point of view.

Rama was silent and did not say anything about Bu Ina. Guilt began to appear more and more real and trying to tear apart his feelings and thoughts.

"Can't answer, right? Better yet, forget Nafisa. If this is the case, it would be better if you stop caring about him. Mama who was not her real mother alone could feel a deep sadness on Tiara's face earlier. Are you blind, Rama? Tiara won't say no to your concern for Nafisa because Tiara's heart is very soft, though sometimes stubborn. Moreover, they are both women, of course Tiara can feel a little difficulty experienced by Nafisa. That's where Mama salutes Tiara, she is good at putting herself and putting her ego aside in order to keep the feelings of others. Have you ever thought about it? Your little wife is a grown woman packed into a cheerful, spoiled little girl. He will not necessarily show feelings of sadness, disappointment, or other expressions that worry those closest to him. He's good at keeping his own wounds. Don't you think that far about her feelings? Really, just this time Mama was very disappointed in you, Rama," continued Bu Ina excited to dry her tears.

"Excuse Rama, Ma," Rama regretted that he could not speak until only that sentence could come out of the mouth of Rama because it was true what his mother said.

Rak could not argue or defend himself anymore in front of Bu Ina. He knows all his mistakes. During this time, he always said he loved Tiara but did not think in the least about how Tiara felt to him, how Tiara felt to his attitude, and only attach importance to the reciprocity of love from Tiara without trying to understand it more deeply.

"I apologize to him. Throw away prestige and self-esteem. Tiara's feelings and the wholeness of your household are more meaningful. Do not be late because of the pain of regret that has no medicine," said Bu Ina highlighted sharply her youngest son.

"Ma, what about the promise of Nafisa's treatment that I've been carrying all this time? Did I just cancel?" rama asked confusedly and expected an opinion from the mother.

"Just pay attention to the look and the way his father speaks! Do they seem short of money? No, right? Even when you offended Nafisa's treatment, she didn't expect the material as your help. He asked you to be a son-in-law. Where is the logic that you have always preferred? Nafisa's father is a retired renowned college lecturer. Of course, it is impossible if you do not have savings everywhere during work. Why do you believe so easily with Nafisa just because of her sad household story? It's easy to lose it, but your attitude is often cold to your own wife. You think Mama hasn't been watching you all this time?" ms. Ina replied that she was still venting her emotions that never subsided.

"Think for yourself. Finish yourself. You're the one who's decided so you have to bear the consequences as well. Mama didn't interfere, but two things that Mama implored very much. Take care of Tiara's inner birth and take responsibility like a husband. Tiara has left her family to serve you. Not because of your past, he must bear the disappointment alone because it is also impossible for him to complain to his family, especially Mama. You are the only one who should be able to listen to her every complaint. You should prioritize her in every decision. If he is hurt by yourself, then lose your dignity and dignity as a husband. Catch that!" sahut Bu Ina while passing from before Rama with great disappointment.

The breakfast at the breakfast table was cold without touching a hand. No one had time to think about the stomach in the morning of those who were already full of wrinkles. Rama also sat in the living room and pondered his attitude all along. Come to think of it, it was inappropriate for him to promise such a promise to Nafisa just because of Iba. Rama was also surprised by her who was so easy to pity Nafisa when clearly the love story with Nafisa had incised a deep wound for him.

Rama also wondered if he did not have to communicate with Nafisa again, maybe Nafisa would not enter his life again. His kindness to Nafisa turned out to have been misinterpreted so that it led him to a very strange and draining tempest. He was certainly sure to remain loyal to Tiara but he was still worried about thinking of a solution for the treatment of Nafisa which he was afraid to bear.

Rama leaned his back against the sofa and wiped his face full of boils. He immediately took the phone in his pants pocket and called Bayu.

"August, Bang. Is brother okay? This clock hasn't seen his nose?" sapa Bayu is very chatty because various divisions have been in trouble early in the morning to ask for Rama's signature.

"Emergency, Bay. Handle all. I'm not doing well" asked Rama without further ado.

"Why, Boskyu? Is there a cold war with your little miss?" ask Bayu kepo once.

"More complicated than that, Bay. Been already. Kepo. I'll tell you sometime if I want to. It's working there! Your bonus will be added this month. If there is a mistake, I trim your salary to the toilet" replied Rama immediately hang up the phone before Bayu denied it.

Rama slams his phone on the sofa slowly. He swiped from up to his hot tubs because of the many things he was thinking.

Oh myGod. Just to get hope from Tiara even there is a problem. What other trials are these. Help me melt her and help her believe that my love is only for her. Prayer and hope Rama to calm his inner turmoil.

"Tiara, I love you!" rama whispered, closing his eyes.

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