Fire Sun

Forgive Me

A hand rubbed his head slowly, causing a deeper drowsiness when Thunder opened his eyes. His head suddenly stood up, and Thunder rubbed his eyes. "Sori, overslept."

The guy who was waiting for Joceline to wake up was actually asleep with his head in the patient's bed. Joceline smiled faintly and shook her head. Implies that he doesn't mind. "Sleep again if you're still sleepy, you're like a lack of sleep."

Thunder just grimaced. Yeah, he's been having trouble sleeping lately. Moreover, hearing Rainbow and Gesna crying from behind the walls of the room.

Joceline's room was silent. The girl also looked silent while watching Thunder. "Tur, I'm sorry."

Joceline tried to sit down, Thunder immediately stood up confirming the position of the pillow. "Sorry, I didn't know that you can't eat shrimp, you can't have tea. I'm sorry, if I don't know much about that."

Joceline's eyes look teary. Gesna's words seemed to shake the girl a lot. Thunder clasped the hand of Joceline that was not infused. "You don't have to think, it's not your fault. I haven't told you about it."

It is not the fault of Joceline because Thunder does not tell about the beliefs he espouses. Gesna could tell also because of their closeness and the frequent coming of the girl to the house. "Sorry Gesna, yes. He talks sometimes, but his intentions are good."

Joceline could only smile incensefully. Even in these conditions, Thunder still defended Gesna. "Have you loved Gesna?"

"It's not just me, Gesna's the favorite of the house. Mama's, Papah's and Rainbow's Beloved." Thunder gently rubbed Joceline's arm for the girl to calm down. 

"He doesn't like me, does he?"

"No, really. He was angry yesterday actually for being sad. Papah I have considered him to be like his own father" Thunder said. "He was far from his parents, Ling. So my family is already considered like his family. She was very sad to lose Papah. Understand why he's so angry."

Joceline nodded with full effort. He realized that the arrival of Thunder alone was a real impossibility. At least at this moment, Thunder's body was beside him, even though the man's heart was not participating.

The person they were talking about was sitting pensively on the edge of the basketball court, after practice. With heavy eyes still looking haphazard, Gesna sat on the long chair, looking at the water spots that began to fall from the sky. He forgot his jacket.

"Not home yet, Ge?" ask Ilham who just changed clothes. "You together?"

Gesna. He's lazy to go home. Gustav was busy with research, Thunder bothered Joceline and he was not fit to accompany Rainbow.

"Yes already. I'm first, yeah." Inspiration waved and disappeared behind the corner.

Gesna raises and straightens both legs in the chair. Now, the sleepiness just felt. Moreover, the air that is quite cold. He opened the phone and put on earbuds, playing the songs on his playlist.

When you try your best but you don't succeed

When you get what you want but not what you need

When you feel so tired but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse

The sky was getting louder and the rain was falling more and more. The falling points are like strands of sleep-conducting songs for Gesna. Feels comfortable. He had already laid his head in a bag, looking at the water that was going down to stoning the earth.

When the tears come streaming down your face

'Cause you lost something you can't replace

When you love someone but it goes to waste

What could it be worth?

Gesna remembered the red bracelet on her right hand. It was gazed upon by a yellowish slab that reflected the luster from the biased corridor lights. Smiling little, Gesna then covered her face with a damp towel draped on her shoulder earlier. He remembers singing this lyric fragment in Cisangkuy Yoghurt.

Lights will guide you home

Ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

Gesna did not care if anyone looked at her strangely for sleeping in the long chair of the school. There are not many students after all. There were only one or two classes on the top floor were taking additional lessons, and the return path of those two classes did not need to pass through the place that Gesna was currently in.

He breathed a long breath. Somehow, Gesna even had trouble forgetting everything about Adit who passed in his lonely days. Usually, Adit is often joking crisp, likes to fight vague, but funny. The guy was also often entertaining at a time when Gesna had problems. The more he wanted to forget, the more he remembered.

Will everything be new when it is no longer there? Gesna didn't know, because she started to fall asleep.

***

Adit turned his head when Bara was approached by a girl holding a large bag. Gita, that girl is Bara's best friend.

"bar, Bara... Anterin I'm home, dong. It's raining a little, "gita's pinta with a clear face. Gita's hair was dipepol origin with riap-riap children's hair stuck out tense.

Bara clucked, still sitting quietly in the canteen chair. "Send to pick up your girlfriend."

Gita laughed while pushing Bara's head. Looks like only the Gita is that brave to Bara. "Where's the boyfriend from? From Hongkong?! Raven, Bar. I'm tired from training," said Guitar while pulling Bara's hand.

Adit noticed Gita at a glance. The girl was probably from training with the basketball team and indeed her face looked tired.

"My motorbike is again serviced, ngegojek aja lo sono," refused Bara who did not bring a vehicle. He just came in today wearing ojol.

"If Gojek was there, why did I force you?" Gita looked disappointed, there was still residual sweat on her forehead. The girl was researching the truth in the face of Bara. "Don't you really bring a motor?"

Bara nodded and Gita let out a disappointed breath. Adit who saw the two then remembered Gesna and Thunder. There is no way Bara does not want to help the Gita, considering the Gita also often helps Bara in matters of study. Gita is a girl who relaxes if PR or duty borrowed Bara.

"Now, use my bike, Bar." Adit grabbed the key and gave it to Bara.

I look in shock. "How will you do?"

"Easy. It will rain." Adit dedicates casually, allowing the next Gita to pull Bara to quickly move from the canteen.

After the two of them left, Adit decided to return to class. Earlier, he and Bara skipped the second lesson because they were saturated.

Before continuing the subjects, Adit took the time to go to the toilet to wash his face. Teachers often do not understand that how to explain them is very boring.

"Eh, who's sleeping? Is she sleeping there?" The conversation of someone in the toilet was heard to the front of the sink.

"Basketball boy. It's a matter of course, they're often squandering there."

"But it's alone, girl again." The two men then talked about how to recognize the figure of a woman only from the calf in sight. 

Adit did not want to be curious so he ignored the conversation. When he was going back to class, he passed the figure that was the conversation just now. Adit's eyes were glued to the shoes at the height of his feet with a striking red tick. Those are Gesna's shoes. 

Adit's feet stopped and watched. Geez, why the hell this girl if sleeping does not look around the place and circumstances? Indeed the face and half the body covered with towels, but from his feet it looks that it is the feet of a girl. Of course it will be the talk, Gesna only wears long shorts while snuggling down plain only without cover. Didn't Gesna know that people could have evil intentions just because of the scene just now?

Adit buzzed small. Some argue in the chest, between willing to let or remind. Although in the end, Adit did not choose both. He simply took off the jacket and wrapped it over Gesna's legs.

Adit knows, he shouldn't be this bike. Think of it as a social act, not because of Gesna, but because of a woman. However, Gustav and Meilan were always kind to him. If Gesna is rude, Adit realizes that anyone would be angry if he found out he was a bet. Adit then took his place on another empty bench, joined the spread while guarding the bench next to him.

The rain was still heavy, the sparks splashing towards the chair. Adit glanced, the towel that covered his face and the upper part of Gesna's body was already revealed a little, revealing a sad face that was asleep. That girl must have been hit hard. Adit had never seen Gesna cry like she did at Thunder's house. Moreover, the eyes are still swollen until now.

Adit clucked and looked away, swearing at the brains of those who could think how Gesna went through every night, with whom she passed him and what he did.

Gesna rubbed the water splashing to the face. Oh, my God, he just fell asleep. While moving his stiff body, Gesna looked around. Silent. The school is deserted. Everyone must have gone home, even Budi did not patrol and woke him up. Though usually Budi will check and expel students who are still in school before night.

A well-known fragrance bursts into the smell and Gesna finds a jacket covering her legs. Who covered him? The fragrance smells like Adit. Is it possible Adit?

Gesna held onto the jacket with a right and left look. There's no one. He looked at the third floor porch, there was also no one. It was almost night, Gesna decided to go home. The feet go to the toilet to wash your face.

"Eh, what's wrong with Adit?" asked a voice that sounded before Gesna stepped in. The quiet sound of the school made that sound clear. It seemed like the voice of the twelfth grader who had yet to return home.

"don't know. What the hell?"

"So, I saw Gita being bullied by Adit, take off their tutoring. Isn't Adit Gesna's boyfriend?"

Gesna gold bag strap. The gita? During this time, the former captain of his daughter was never seen close to Adit. Is that what makes Adit no longer look at him?

Canceling the desire to wash his face, Gesna immediately turned to the parking lot of the motorbike. If this jacket belongs to Adit, what does it mean that the guy gives him a jacket while again close to another girl? Want some revenge? Want to make his feelings fly and then slammed with news soan?

There are a few bikes left there. Gesna glanced at the clock. Tutoring should be over, but it might be the rain that keeps the school residents stuck home. Some were still sitting in the corridor near the parking lot and at the security guard post, Gesna saw the shadow of someone who made her chest beat rowdy.

Adit's? That's Adit? Didn't Adit come home with Gita?

Gesna glanced at the jacket he was clasping. Means this jacket is Adit's jacket. It must be Adit's jacket. He has yet to find a student who has a fragrance like Adit.

"Jaket lo, right?" Gesna tried to open his mouth as reasonably as possible, reprimanding the guy who was busy with the game on the phone.

With his eyes still busy to the screen and his thumb twitching, Adit nodded slowly, not answering 'yes', making Gesna almost gaped. The man then locked the phone, grabbed the jacket that Gesna put on the security desk, put on the jacket and passed from there. Walking in the rain.

Gesna gasped, not expecting the reaction given by Adit. He then took his scooter to the same place Adit, basecamp.

Not until basecamp, Gesna had seen the figure of Adit. That guy's really on foot, raining. For some reason, Gesna felt annoyed and stopped the scooter next to Adit.

"Barength?" bargained for.

Adit shook his head and continued walking, leaving his head and jacket wet from the rain. Gesna had already scolded the boy's name in the heart. Rarely did he want to offer people help, who were offered even cocky half-dead.

He was still following Adit at low speed. The world is often joking. When he does not know why he can remember Adit continuously, unfortunately the guy was even very indifferent to his presence. It's not like he's been ignoring Adit all along. Why is it upside down like this, anyway?

"Gue kepengin GOR chicken porridge," said Gesna still equating Adit with a scooter.

"Go-Food," Adit's reply began to make a sound.

Gesna almost laughed behind the helmet. The guy finally made a sound. "Rain. It is difficult to find his Gojek," murmured Gesna with contrived disappointment. "Pengin there directly, but how about if you meet a guy who wanted to rob me yesterday?"

Suppose Gesna wants to try, trying to find answers to the anxiety about Adit's name that is often present. He wanted to know what was going on with him, right now. As if helping Gesna resolve her curiosity, Adit suddenly stopped and sighed. The guy was even willing to ride on the scooter, occupying the driver's seat as Gesna shifted backwards.

"Not eat?" gesna asked when she saw Adit only ordering warm tea.

The man shook his head slowly, staring at the tea glass without turning away. "Gue ate his porridge stirred, entar lo nausea."

Gesna. Adit's sentence just sounded distant and unfamiliar, exceeding the distance. The man sipped tea while flicking a glass with his finger, creating rhythmic beats.

Gesna bribed the porridge back. It feels like the time was not yet known, Adit is not even this cold. Glancing a little from the edge of the bowl, he found Adit's nails back broken and there were blisters on the middle and index fingers.

Why can Adit not be aware of the wounds on his own body? I don't know why, Gesna was upset. He piqued and rushed to grab the medicine box. Gesna pulled the wound adhesive, grabbed the clasped hands and placed the plaster there. The sharp end of the nail due to the fracture was also scissored. Do you know if there is a technology called guitar pick?

Instead of thanking her, Adit stood up.  "How, Mang?" ask the guy to the seller.

"Twenty thousand," replied the seller.

Gesna swiftly reached into the pocket of his pants, handing over twenty thousand money to the seller. Following Adit's steps who walked out of the tent.

"Well, why not get it?" adit asked while taking out a cigarette and leaning on the power pole.

Oh, apparently Adit wants to smoke. Gesna thinks Adit's leaving. However, Gesna hunted to pay and left behind food.

"Suddenly the skewer," he pretended while pretending to look around. The rain had subsided, leaving the night wet and cold.

Adit clucked, sucking a few times before stomping his cigarette dead. "Sate what?" ask Adit when they get back on the road.

"Sate at the top." Let it be, Gesna wants to be a fool for today only. He still wants to be with Adit because the journey to the chicken porridge is only passed by them in silence.

"danger. It's raining, slippery in there." That was Adit's response. That drenched bloke didn't even comment anymore. Not throwing silly jokes or crisp seduction that he apparently missed.

"It's satay at the top" replied Gesna.

Adit was silent, not answering Gesna. Either hear it or not. The low speed of the scooter should make Adit easily hear his words. However, the guy did not turn his head at all or glance at the rearview mirror.

As Gesna regained consciousness, the scooter that Adit was driving was heading towards the outside of the city. The air was getting colder and Adit was just passive without a sound. Why did Adit still grant his wish? He always asks without thinking. Though he had been troubling the guy all along. He was always rude. But he never was friendly.

"Dit, it's not. Pengin just go home," the break-up ended all the commotion in the heart. Adit was shivering, so was he. But Adit must have been cooler from being in front. If he is curious, he is curious enough.  Gesna should not force Adit who is a nobody.

Adit stopped. The guy took a deep breath and turned the scooter. Still without comment, re-enter the streets of the city. Miris once, when she first joined Adit, although not familiar can be very comfortable. Different from now, already know each other but feel awkward.

Gesna's eyes felt very sore. He lowered his head and the bows came off immediately. He now knows the answer. He knows the answer when it's too late.

No matter if he was to be rejected, Gesna stuck out her hand, hugged Adit's waist and cried as much as she could on his back. And that guy is still tight-lipped. Not asking questions and not calming. Choosing silence as an argument that Gesna could not understand.

Once there, Adit retracts the key and hands it over to Gesna. "Change clothes first" Gesna asked as she opened the door.

"No need to." The guy immediately turned around while pulling out the phone, like he was about to order a bulge.

Gesna's frustration rises. He hopes Adit lasts longer. "Well, if you don't want to!" the thrill of it crashing through the door, opened two wood leaves as big as possible. Slam bags and shoes to the floor hard.

Why the hell couldn't he explain everything in more organized language? Gesna summed up the tablecloth and pulled as hard as he could, releasing his wrath on the plates that fell in a sinless mess. Gesna hates papa so much that he slams things, but why is he now the male successor? Why is it all annoying? Why does everyone not understand what it means?

Adit came back running. Ha... Did he have to destroy the house to keep the guy here?

Adit looked at him with a look that Gesna could not understand. Stupid, Gesna chose not to care. He looked at everything that was falling apart with a smile of relief. Let him take a broom and a pengki, cleaning up the remaining debris.

Surely Adit will ask 'Why', for sure. He was waiting for that when Adit finished cleaning up the damage. But the man simply turned towards the door, neither reprimanding nor asking her. No, this isn't what Gesna hoped.

Gesna hastily reached out to Adit's hand. "I haven't come home yet, I have no friends."

Adit releases his hand, grabs the phone and presses the call. "Ham, where are you?"

Gesna's eyes were already rounded once Adit knew to contact Ilham. He pulled Adit's phone. "Not so, Ham. Its nothing. Bye."

Adit took another breath like trying to be patient. The guy kept walking to the door. Gesna tried to hold back the move again, this time by hugging Adit's back tightly. Unlock his defensive veil and it doesn't matter if Adit knows his weakness.

"I'm sorry... Sorry, Adit," hissed Gesna begged. "Don't go."