Fire Sun

Missing Something

When Adit decided to step down, he had already carefully considered everything. Including the risks he will carry. Everyone already knew of her relationship with Gesna, even though they did not know how to end the relationship. Adit doesn't care about talking about anything. He's been wrapped in skewed myths since long ago. All along, they had also only dared to talk about it behind the back. However, Adit objected that Gesna was accused of various kinds. Like an accusation of cheating or a gift of marriage. Genius-genius once a student at this school. I don't know what their hypothesis is.

Right said Bara, he is a difficult person. It is hard to open the heart. It is hard to fall in love and hard to turn away. This stupid is indeed. He also did not understand how he could fall in love unplanned. He never thought of falling in love until he knew every pain he had received was due to his feelings.

If he hadn't fallen in love, he couldn't have the emotion of seeing Gesna embrace another guy. If he hadn't fallen in love, he couldn't have objected to Gesna ignoring him. Adit realized he was falling too deep than he thought. Do not understand why, there is no basis that can be used as a clear reference, all flows without Adit can be prevented.

Though he knew, Gesna did not retaliate. But he kept diving deeper, hurting himself, time and time again. Adit decided to retreat because he realized, he forgot to love himself. How can you love someone else if you don't love yourself?

"Our heart is only one. The period of being sickly continues?"

That was the sentence Adit heard from the conversation of the passersby in the corridor. Motivational sentences for Adit put an end to all that is clearly unachievable.

As if testing his determination, the situations that exist often clash Adit with the things that most avoid him and want to avoid him. Yeah, it's all about Gesna.

"Adit, you said yesterday to Gesna's neighbor, right?" Ms. Muslicha called out to her as she passed by the teacher's office. The woman pulled her arm over. "I saw these few days Gesna's eyes were swollen. She why? Has the disease recurred? I think if he plays basketball again, he's fine."

Adit. What should he answer? "I've rarely seen Gesna, Mom. I'm busy with bimbel." His mouth was clucking softly. "Maybe Gesna was sad because Papa Guntur died."

"Lho, because of Thunder's papa?" Ms. Muslicha frowned not understanding. "They're brothers?"

Trapping questions. Next time, Adit will walk around a little further than through the teacher's office. She shook her head. "No, Ma. They're close from long ago."

"Oh, dating?" The mother laughed while nodding as if understanding. The nod that spears the heart of Adit. "Yes, thank you, Dit. Uh, plan to graduate where are you going?"

Adit's lips suddenly grimaced, his eyes staring at Ms. Muslicha nanar. "Not yet, Mom."

"Sure from now on, Dit. Others have been trying to pursue the campus-grade passing goal, you know."

The conversation with Ms. Muslicha just now further clouded Adit's mind. In Mother's eyes that alone between Thunder and Gesna was a special relationship. Why did he try not to see her all this time? And about the future, gosh, graduation's only a matter of months and he's not thinking about this.

Adit again walked towards the back when he accidentally almost collided with someone in the corner. The face of the man looked surprised. His eyes are slightly swollen and reddish around the petals. His favorite light is dim.

Adit immediately returned the view forward. Let it. Gesna wept for the loss of the man she considered papa. After all, he's nobody else. There is no capacity to entertain the girl. His own heart needs to be entertained.

On the other hand, the shocked Gesna almost collided with Adit becoming silent. Glancing towards the loss of Adit. The guy seemed to deliberately not see him, just look at his face reluctantly. As long ago they became two lazy strangers greeting in basecamp, throwing each other's faces when accidentally met. 

Adit returned as arrogant as Pharaoh. Though Gesna knew, Adit was not arrogant, nor cool. He's the noisiest guy in his life. Reckless, noisy, likes to organize, likes to suddenly come, often spam chat, bring up. Accidentally, Gesna's lips clucked, her tongue bitter.

Gesna understands the consequences of breaking up with Adit. Gesna understands it. But why does it feel so empty? As more and more are missing from his day. Ever since Papah left, it's all like no life. Pizza, rice, meatballs, siomay tasted tasteless and he had no appetite. Mamah no longer sent the chicken and reminded her to eat. Rainbow works in the room only. Thunder is often pensive. Gesna forgets the last time you ate three meals a day. Not to mention, right now, no one could be coerced into accompanying the meal. 

The house feels very quiet, really dead things. Everything feels different. Something disappeared somewhere. But everything remains the same. Gesna rubbed his eyes. Last night he failed to sleep in the rainbow room, because they even discussed the longing for Papah and ended up crying in congregation. Crying over something that couldn't possibly come back, leaving so quickly without getting ready.

Adit once said, Everyone has their own battle. Gesna did not know why he could remember those words. Maybe he's impressed. True too, he finally proved that everyone indeed has their own battleground. The proof, the Thunder family which he considered to be something perfect, is now fractured with a gaping wound because Papah left behind.

Gesna realized he wasn't a good entertainer. For a week trying to accompany Rainbow, instead of calming him often joined in crying. For that, today, Gesna determined not to stay at the house of Thunder first. May the rainbow be strong, even without his arrival. Today, he will train as hard as possible and then go home to sleep. 

Gesna's head bowed, again walking with the corner of the eye that returned sore. Toilets were his destination. 

"Eh, you know that Lambe School suspended?" A voice rang out when Gesna was behind the room. He rubbed the weeping that had been overflowing while sharpening his hearing.

Someone else is like screaming. "Seriously lo?" Before long the atmosphere returned noisy. "Ih, really. Lost it account. Crazy they, already remembered the same Chief Tribe as well, still only. I'm told to read DM, dong."

"Lo read that part too?"

"Read. It's crazy if I miss that." The second man laughed. "What's the DM, huh? Maybe gini, 'Gue wait within 1x24 hours or your account will I make suspends'."

The two of them laughed, making Gesna grimace. Did Adit freeze the account? "Enak times huh, so his close friend the Chief? To be Gesna, I don't think it's possible. But maybe it can't be a friend like Bara or Miko?"

"Lo's dream. She has girlfriends. After all there is a girl friendship with a pure guy? I'm not sure. Someone must have liked it."

"Thunder-Gesna Kayak you mean? Gesna seems to like Thunder."

Gesna closed her eyes. Why are these people telling stories without looking around? Didn't you realize there was a room full of people?

"Eh, you know what's the latest?" The whispers sounded again. "The news is that when Thunder died, Thunder embraced Gesna in front of everyone. Everyone, including Joceline."

"Lo's oath?"

"I think Thunder likes Gesna" said the voice enthusiastically. "Keep, continue .. Reportedly Joceline until fainted, and the Chief immediately unplugged from the place. Crazy, yeah. Love the quadrangle." The voice clucked in disbelief, Gesna was already about to open the door but she again heard an additional sound.

"But I think Gesna broke up. I just saw them both pass their faces." The third person certainly witnessed how awkward he and Adit were, earlier. Gesna breathed a bitter breath. "Continued time on IG TTB live yesterday, Bara will say about moving on-move on that while looking at the Chief."

"That's a lot of update lo." They laugh. "Thunder is like breaking up with Joceline, huh? Rarely look the two anymore."

"His Joceline is reportedly being treated in hospital?" The crowd was boisterous again. It was not just two people, there were more than three people there.

"Hus, hus. Hitherto. Be careful, if it gets to the ears of the Chief Tribe can be serious. He was told to speak to her in the blue cafeteria. Want lo?"

Gesna rolled her eyes. Joceline is so weak, huh? How could Thunder trouble himself? Been grieving, uh had a sickly girlfriend anyway. It made Thunder today a training permit because it was requested to the hospital by papa Joceline. That girl was too much to bother him.

He immediately changed the uniform with a training shirt. Exercise is still two hours away, but it's better to wear pants. Basecamp is no longer a comfortable place to wait for a training schedule, so Gesna chose to sit in the Pespel canteen while installing earbuds.

Now, Gesna already has a second account to spy on all. Honey, for some reason, the Lambe School account went missing. Though Gesna has not read the replies that exist. Is it true to be suspended like the gossip of the women?

He opened his backup Instagram homepage. Curiosity Gesna because the news made him open the account The Tahan Banting, watching IG live folder stored in the IGTV section. The Tahan Banting live duet with Instagram youth radio station, Best FM. It was like they were on a mini stage. Gesna's eyes were watching the band. There are a lot of extra players, not just Adit, Miko and Bara. There was a chibordis, there was an additional guitarist as well as a violinist, a girl wearing a white dress with a crown of flower arrangements, her establishment near Adit.

Their most recent upload was five days ago with an audience of about two thousand five hundred. Adit tambak happy. The guy's smile was so wide there.

"Hello, we're from The Tahan Banting. It's great to meet Best FM's invitation to Indiebest." The guy smiled back as some people clapped. "The first song, the song of regret of a million people. The Scientist." The Scientist."

"Come up to meet you. Tell you I'm sorry. You don't know how lovely you are. I had to find you. Tell you I need you. Tell you I set you apart."

Does Adit remember that he really likes Coldplay? Gesna's throat suddenly dragged and she picked up a bottle of tea. His lips sang slowly. "Nobody said it was easy. Oh it's such a shame for us to part. Nobody said it was easy. No one ever said it would be so hard. I'm going back to the start."

To date, no one knows they have split apart other than the son of the basecamp. What we talked about in the toilet was just assumptions. If Lambe School still exists, surely the style of Adit's cuek was going to be hot news. But ... will Adit just be silent about it like that?

"According to this Indiebest theme, Broken Heart. So we're gonna bring you some heart-slicing songs." Adit smiled softly and flatly. "This second song is the heartbroken song of people +62. Of his God - Pupus."

Adit's guitar clinks and the guy starts to reopen his voice. "I don't understand what I think, a miss that's never been so great. I love you more than you know, though you'll never know."

In silence, Gesna continued to hear songs that were also often sung in the canteen. The children here often sing old songs that sometimes he never knew. 

"I just realized my love was clapping one hand. You're breaking my whole heart."

The audience began to move their hands in the air. Sing with Adit. Why is this time, the song Pupus sounds so sad? Usually ordinary. Adit continues to sing even without Gesna realizing the band is switching songs without stopping. Friction of the violin that makes the song different from other songs.

"See your eyes like an arrow, which you release into the heart of my heart. Even though you keep your love still your breath scented decorate atmosphere. When I kiss your lips sweet." Again, everyone there is seen singing.  "My love doesn't have to, have yourself despite the slicing, slice all the promises."

Bara, who is on the right side of Adit, became the second vocalist. Sometimes chiming in on Adit's vocals. The event itself is like a garage party theme located on one of the grassy pages. Not much decoration and lights. Best FM, maybe.

"Roman Picisan, still his God. Good night people are heartbroken" Adit said as she finished her second and third songs on a medley. Surroundings look dim, only floodlights that shoot from various directions towards the stage. "Last song. This is the best song in my opinion. Where if you hear this song, you'll know the world won't end just because you're heartbroken."

Bara chuckled loosely while carrying the bus suddenly to cause a shock effect. "It's a good thing you've moved on, huh, Dit?"

Adit glanced towards Bara as the others cheered. The guy continued his sentence. "Maybe not many know the name of this band. It is a side band of Eross Candra, her guitarist Sheila On 7. Alright, Jagostu - Want Not to."

Oh, this is what the girls were talking about. Gesna focused on Adit. So ... Adit's moved on? Indirectly, Adit told that between them there is no relationship anymore, right?

"What should I do. If he chooses not to stay and everything goes on. The vibration must remain swallowed and I'm sick still have to survive. Because everything keeps going."

Applause sounds great again.

"You don't want me to continue what's left, even if things are different and never are the same." There, Gesna saw Adit close his eyes as if he was permeating the song.

"I can hold her but not her heart. Oh, painful. All have heard, all my heart longs for him, but his heart has gone and has long died."

Gesna was stunned to hear this never-heard song. Is it because of that, Adit no longer looked at his face? Adit really moved on? Really move on?

"You don't want me to continue what's left, even if things are different and never the same. May the wind blow a new dream, though I know no one will ever be able to change its beauty."

Gesna scratched behind the ear. Before long he complained, the skin was sore because it was often scratched. He grabbed the medicine package and put a wound plaster on the earlobe. Though Adit had once reminded him not to scratch the back of the ear and head too often.

Ah, Adit again. The name ignites a sting of pain that Gesna does not know why it can come. He had no idea why being ignored was so upsetting. He didn't know how to resist the thing that came uninvited. He did not know how to get rid of the memory of Adit who later more and more often passed without permission. And he doesn't know why hearing Adit move on feels like drowning.

The guy's smile was reflected again, but it felt that there was something squeezed and painful. Adit had forgotten about him and was happy. Gesna cursed her heart that secretly wished all could come back good and pleasant. Not as it is now foreign and obsolete.

For many times, today, Gesna ran to the toilet, just because she wanted to cry.

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The conclusion is simple:

Gesna thought, Thunder likes Joceline

Joceline thought, Thunder likes Gesna

Adit thought, Gesna likes Thunder

Thunder thought, Gesna likes Adit

That's how the quadrangle happens. 💟