Fall of Dream Pesantren (Move WRITE)
Azmy Hard Head
The sound of tahlil echoed in Ammar's house. Today is the seventh day after my father's death. The sadness in the hearts of Ammar and mother is still left. How not, the mother who accompanied the father for twenty years more, now must give up her life lover to be left behind. Even worse, Azmy, Ammar's sister was lying in her room because of the burden of thought that befell her.
“Dek, you don't think too much. Remember the doctor pesen first fitting you are given home.” Ammar continued to rub his sister's black hair.
“I still remember. I feel sorry for Mom. Mother must bear the burden of family life.”
“You're patient, I can definitely get through it. Mother is not alone. You don't think about the no-no.”
I entered the room with my eyes open from crying.
“Let all of this be a real mom, My. You must be healed. The people in the boarding school are still expecting you. You don't think too much.”
“Mas Ammar ready to help mom anytime. You heal quickly so that mother does not add sad.” Ammar said with a forced smile.
Azmy's pain is coming back. Sometimes he suddenly fainted while taking a drink in the refrigerator or was praying. Sometimes he regained consciousness for a moment. Sometimes I want to be alone at night. That's what makes Ammar always think about the condition of his sister who is getting worse because of the death of his father.
“Azmy doesn't hurt anything, ma'am. Azmy is healthy. Mending paternity money is used for the construction of pesantren. Not much, but it's more useful.”
Azmy's words just touched the hearts of mom and Ammar.
Mother's blood is slightly up. He felt that Azmy no longer needed his attention. The misunderstanding that makes the mother a little ride apitam. Suddenly, she snapped at Azmy with a rather high tone of voice
“Istighfar, Mom. Istighfar.” Ammar calms mom.
Istighfar apologized to Azmy.
“Bu, just passed out earlier I dreamt see father waving. Dad took me somewhere to go. Dad said if I'd catch up soon.”
Mom's tears are dripping. Is the youngest child delirious?
Mother's tears flowed more and more profusely soaked both of her cheeks. Mother was powerless to see the condition of Azmy who lay weak helpless. Mom came out of Azmy's room because her head was suddenly dizzy.
Is that a gesture to mom and Ammar from dad?
What if the cue Azmy said was true?
“My, you rest. Later tonight do not wake up pray Isya.”
“No need, five minutes more Azan Isya. I'm afraid bablas until dawn.”
Ammar began to realize what his sister was saying. Words that others think are ordinary. Behind Azmy's refusal to be awakened, there is a hidden purpose of his refusal. Ammar's tears almost dripped but he was still strong enough to keep the tears from coming out of his eyes. He just waited for his sister to say what the rejection meant.
Ammar was still waiting for his sister to open her mouth. To eat, Azmy can't do it alone. Not felt, azan isya already reverberating. People who are in front of the house first to perform prayers Isya berjama’a in musalla. The carpet has been held on the terrace of the house for the implementation of seven days father after prayers Isya later.
Ammar helped his sister to take wudu. Azmy can barely walk normally. His legs are sometimes stiff because of a blockage of blood to his brain a few months ago also affects other parts of the body. The brain is the center of all human movement. Naturally, if Azmy pain can spread throughout the body without being estimated first. Azmy was forced to pray by sitting for fear of suddenly falling during prayer.
Azmy's illness has returned since my father died. A few days ago, the boarding school bought permission for Azmy to return home due to his unstable condition plus the departure of his father which caused a little tightness in his heart. Azmy's body often gives off cold sweat followed by heat and relentless dizziness. The pesantren gave permission until the pain he suffered was completely healed.
The boarding school deliberately gave Azmy old permission compared to other students. For Azmy, missing a formal lesson is common because he does not care much about his formal material at the boarding school. Even so, he could be ranked second in formal subjects.
How not, while the lesson was going on in class, Azmy suddenly collapsed. Similarly, when he got a task for azan, he suddenly fainted before finishing it. The health of the boarding school has raised its hands because of his worsening condition, especially after his father died.
Azmy's condition is getting more and more alarming. Her body is getting thinner. His appetite suddenly disappeared. The hallucination is increasingly becoming so. he increasingly often mengingau when sleeping. Even more concerning, he often shouted in the middle of the night. It was not his cry that astonished Ammar and his mother, but what he said after shouting.
Azmy often tells the story of a stranger in black clothes approaching him in the middle of the night. It happens every day so that Ammar never sleeps at night to watch Azmy if he screams or is having nightmares.
Until now, Azmy has not been able to do its activities normally. He also did not want to go to the doctor to be examined. Let alone doctors, to neighbors who are experts in traditional medicine also do not want. The drugs that Ammar sought from herbal ingredients belonging to his father was also no one touched though. He did not want surgery to justify the blood vessels in his brain.
Azmy is a rather stubborn person. Other people's proposals are good for him, sometimes considered bad. The operation that the mother thought was good to cure her illness was considered not good because it did not leave everything to God. He even argued if the operating money was donated to the mosque or to an orphanage to be more blessed.
“Compression of the people is good, but it would be better if the one who gives maslahat it must be healthy wal afiyat.”
After the prayer, Ammar went to the living room to accompany some neighbors and relatives who will carry out the seven-day tahlil father. Azmy was in the room writing something on a piece of paper. He then folded it and placed the paper in a pile of used clothes in the lower closet, hoping to be read by someone. His behavior is strange. Write a piece of paper and tuck it in a pile of old clothes like a person who would leave a will alone.
This night was very cloudy, unlike the previous days. Only on the seventh day after his death did the father of the night return to overcast. It's exactly the same at night when you're gone for good.
Is tonight a sign that someone is going home again ?
Coming home is not just going home; a return that will surely be done by all living beings in the world. After the return, all deeds will be measured as bad. The return that leads man to a new realm that remains there.
