Destiny Syakila

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The subconscious Syakila.

”This...why did everything go dark? Everything is pitch black! I can't see! Where am I?” syakila Mummings.

He was circling in the darkness. He doesn't know exactly where he is. He was not free to look in the darkness. He tried to get out of the dark, but, as trying as he could, he could not get out.

He always felt like he was circling in his place. It's hard for him to get out. He didn't know exactly what place he was imprisoned in at the moment. But he was not in a forest. He felt no trees, no grass and no footing on the ground.

”Is this in the forest? But, one I did not find a tree, while fumbling.”

”It's so dark. Is there no one here? Is it just me alone?” he murmured again, asking himself.

He kept walking in the middle of the darkness. He's very scared. He doesn't know the direction. But, he kept walking.

He was shocked when he felt his hand in someone's grasp. He pulled his hand, ”Who? Who are you?” ask that guy.

”Honey! It's Papa. Papa will lead you down a slightly bright path.” replied Halim.

”Papa? Is this really Papa?” Syakila did not believe.

”Yes, you don't believe it? Asya, dear.”

”Hah! Papa! Right, it's Papa! Syakila misses Papa. Papa where is it? Syakila could not see Papa.” his outstretched hand felt in front of him, on his left and right side, behind him to be able to reach back the hand of Halim, his papa.

”Papa here baby, in front of you. Papa can see you clearly.” he reached Syakila's hand, who was looking for her position.

Shakila immediately embraced the body of the father. ”Papa can see in this darkness?”

”Iya, baby! Come with Papa.” with Halim. He let go of Shakila's embrace and led Syakila the way out of the darkness.

They walk and keep walking. Syakila's legs are starting to ache. He did not know where the end of the road he was on was. It was very far he had stepped with his papa.

”Pa, is it still a long way out of here?” ask Syakila.

”Why? You tired?” Halim asked back. He stopped his steps. Syakila stopped.

”Yes, Syakila is tired! Syakila wants to rest for a moment.” replied Syakila.

”Alright, we'll take a break. But, not here, we walk a little more, there is a chair. We can rest for a while there.”

”There's seats? Where are we really, Pa?” Syakila. He followed Halim's steps leading her back to walk.

”We are at the bottom of your heart.”

”Basic of my heart?” Syakila repeats the speech at the end of her papa sentence. Does he feel very disbelieving? Basic heart? Where possible!

”Hum! You alone bring yourself aghast in the darkness of your heart. This is a picture of your heart. Why did you send yourself in the dark?” ask Halim.

”I..I don't know, Pa. Why am I suddenly here. When I woke up, I saw that everything was dark. Nothing is clearly visible. I've been trying to get out of here for days. But, I feel just circling here.” said Syakila.

Halim sat on the chair. He led Shakila to sit down. ”Lay!” halim's Word.

Shakila raised both of her legs on the chair. He lay down, his head held in Halim's thigh. Halim stroked Syakila's head slowly.

”For a long time, Syakila missed Papa's caress in Syakila's head.” Syakila said.

Halim did not answer. He kept caressing Syakila's head. Syakila felt hypnotized by the gentle caress of her papa.

For a few days he could not sleep. Feeling the affection of the person he missed, he felt calm. Unknowingly, Syakila fell asleep.

However, his sleep was now disturbed by a voice that he did not know where the voice came from.

He did not feel his hand on his head. He opened his eyes and sat down. Now he can see in the darkness.

Now there was a dim light in the dark that he felt. He was not in the forest. But he also doesn't know where he is.

”Basic heart? Is that really so? Ah, my papa where?”

”Papa!..Pa! Papa where?” his yell. However, there is no word from the father. Syakila also did not see the papa there. ”Did papa leave me here? Papa just brought me here. Didn't take me out of here.” murmured sadly.

”Sorry, darling! Papa can only bring you to this dim light. Only you can get out of the bottom of your heart.”

Syakila was surprised to hear the voice of her papa which was out of nowhere. Syakila continued walking alone.

”How can I be here? Who pulled me here?” he asked himself as he continued walking.

”What is this? Why is it so cold?” he kept walking in the cold. ”Who is he?” he saw someone lying there. From his sight, the one lying down was a woman.

”Thank God! There's still someone else here besides me. So, I'm not at the bottom of my heart.” he murmured.

He approached the woman. He was shocked when he pulled the long hair of the woman covering his face. ”This..aku...i myself!”

”Hei..! Wake up! Did you hear me? Let's wake!” Syakila tried to wake the woman, patting her cheek gently.

The woman opened her eyes.

”Who are you? Why is your face so similar to mine? And why are you here?” ask Syakila.

”I am you. You brought me here. You froze me here.” replied the woman.

”Hah! No way! I...how could I freeze myself?” syakila Mummings.

”You close your eyes and ears, freeze your heart, make your heart dark. Do you no longer want to live?”

”I... no! It's not! Me...me...”

”Cash your heart..Open your heart's eyes.Why are you aghast here, at the bottom of your own heart? A hum? You don't want to go back to the world?” asked the woman, who was nothing but a mirror of her own heart.

”Ke world? I. I don't want to go back there. But I don't want to be in the dark here either. I. I'll find my papa. I want to stay with papa.”

”If papa wants to take you with him, papa won't leave you here. Papa wants you back in the world. What makes you not want to go back there? A hum? I am here to suffer for the hardness of your heart. Look, I'm cold, but I can't die. You imprisoned me here.”

Syakila. Aye! Papa won't leave me alone here, if papa wants to take me with him.

”Syakila!”

”Syakila!”

Again Syakila heard two different male voices calling out to her. He covered his ears.

”No! I don't want to go back. I can't go back! I...hu...hu...hu...” Syakila cried sadly. ”I...I will only hurt them both.”

”Who? The sardine? Geo?” ask the woman.

Syakila. ”I. I love them both...Geo....Sardin's my lover. I don't want to be divorced Geo, I love him. I just realized how I felt about her. I love my lover too. I promised to marry him. But I don't want to be separated from Geo.” Syakila is still sobbing.

”Then, you want to stay in this darkness? Climbing in this cold? You have to make a decision on yourself. Don't be stubborn! Get us out of this place!” said the woman.

”I...I can't make up my mind..hu ..hu...hu...I can't....they both mean the same to me, if I come back just to make one of them hurt.”

”You are selfish to yourself! Look, the one who suffers is our own!” the woman held Syakila's face.

Syakila looked at the woman with her watery eyes.

”Make a decision, get us out of here. This is your destiny. You have to be strong to see others get hurt. The choice is in your own hands..Geo is your husband...Sardin is just the lover you promised to marry. Between the two, you know which one is the main one?”

Syakila did not answer. He looked seriously into the woman's eyes. He looked at himself and Geo in the woman's left eye and in the woman's right eye he saw her and Sardin.

Syakila brushed the woman's hands off her face. ”No! I can't hurt them both.I can't see them sad, disappointed because of me. I can't...my sick eyes...I can't hu...hu ..hu....don't force me!”.

”Then let us die in the darkness and in this cold!” said the woman.

”No! I'll get out of here!”

”I can't see the other one happy with the other woman! I can't..I'm jealous.with me gone, I can't see them both there.”.

”Don't imagining them happy also make you sick?” ask the woman.

”Sick...at least..the pain is not as painful as I see firsthand their happiness with others.” replied Syakila.

”Teraju! I've resigned! If we die alone here. I'll just massage!” said the woman.

Syakila fell silent at the thought of the woman's words which were none other than herself.

.. ..

The Syakila ward.

Geo awakened. He saw Syakila. The woman is still the same. He got up and sat on his own side of the bed.

He saw Sardin. The man was asleep, facing Syakila. Geo looked at the clock, at 02:00, at two in the morning.

He got out of his bed and sat by Syakila's bed. He held Syakila's hand.

Syakila, wakeup! Please please! You have been asleep for a long time. Don't you miss your mother? Your brother? Your sister in town S? Do you know, you've got a cute bangs from your sister. You've become mama two. You don't want to get up and see your niece? mind Geo.

He refused to sleep again. He continued to hold Syakila's hand, as long as Sardin was still sleeping.

.. ..

The subconscious Syakila.

Syakila was still crying. Think about what decision he wants to make. Honestly, making that decision was very difficult for him.

But he also had no other choice. He had already tried to get out of this gripping darkness and cold, but, he still could not.

”Alright! I will decide to return to the world. I.. I will choose Geo, he is my husband.” Syakila stressed.

I saw a speck of light shining. ”Ah..ada small light. Where did it come from?”

He stood up and walked in the direction of the light. However, as far as he stepped, he felt, he still returned to his original place.

”Syakila!”

Syakila turned her head back, the speck of light had already become big and eliminated the chill she felt.

He saw the shadow of a man. However, he did not clearly see his face. The man walked in the light of that light. Syakila walked over to the man.

The light that the man was carrying was getting brighter eliminating the darkness. Syakila had clearly seen who that man was. He smiled happily.

”Syakila! Thank goodness I found you here. Let's go home.” the man stretched his hand forward.

Syakila welcomed the man's hand with a still smile, ”Iya. I'm coming with you.”

”Are you okay?”

”Yes, I'm fine now. Geo, I love you.” Syakila said. He opened his arms, wanting to hug Geo.

Geo smile. ”Thank you, I'm happy you love me.” her hand blocks Syakila who wants to hug her.

Syakila became astonished. Why did Geo refuse his embrace?

”Syakila!”

Syakila saw a man coming from behind Geo. ”Sardine Jack!”

Geo turned his head, looking at Sardin. He gave Syakila's hand to Sardin. Sardin grabbed Syakila's hand and grasped it.

Syakila was increasingly astonished by Geo's behavior.

Doesn't Geo love me so much? Don't want to let go of me for anyone, even if it's Sardin? But, what is this? He gave my hand to Sardin, smiling Syakila's mind.

”Syakila! Thank goodness you're okay. It's time we go home.” said Sardin.

Syakila did not answer. He was still thinking about Geo's change of attitude.

”Iya, now we go home!” connect Geo.

They also went home. Sardin and Syakila were in front. And Geo walked behind Syakila. Every now and then Syakila looked back, looking at Geo with a thousand questions.

.. ..

In the Syakila room.

Geo felt Syakila's hands move. He's very happy. ”Sardin, wake up!” it woke up Sardine.

However, he realized, he was still holding Syakila's hand. He let go of his hand.

Sardin opened his eyes, ”What's up?” tanyakanya. He got up and sat on the side of the bed, rubbing his still sleepy eyes.

Geo saw Syakila's hand fingers moving again. ”Come, see for yourself. Syakila's hand moves.” he said happily.

”Ah, really?” Sardin got out of his bed, he sat on the side of Syakila's bed and clasped Syakila's hand.

Geo jealous. However, he immediately brushed it off.

Sardin felt Syakila's fingers move. ”Yes, you are right! Syakila's hand moved. Thank goodness!” said happy.

Reflex Sardin kisses Syakila's forehead. Geo is jealous again.

”Syakila, open your eyes.” Sardin said.

Slowly Syakila opened her eyes. He saw Geo. Geo smiled happily. He was the first man Syakila saw while conscious.

Geo leaned into Syakila's body. His hand pressed both ends of Syakila's pillow. He wanted to embrace that body. But he realized something.

Syakila is not my wife anymore. I had no right to embrace him Geo's mind.

He saw Syakila's face up close. Like her the woman was expecting her embrace. But that's not possible. In his face, Shakila's face and eyes. Then, he pulled himself. He stood up straight. ”Sardine. I'll get a doctor. Sorry, earlier.”.

”It's okay! Just relax.I can understand it.” trim Sardin.

Geo nodded. He immediately walked out of the room without seeing Syakila again. Syakila was astonished and sad to see Geo's attitude.

Outdoors.

Geo leaned against the wall. Eyes closed. He wanted to embrace Syakila's body. But his status is different now.

His hands are clenched strong. He punched the wall with all his strength. Until the back of his fingers was injured.

After feeling the pain on the back of his fingers. He went from there. He went to the doctor's office, saw the doctor.

Inside the ward of Syakila.

”Syakila. You finally came back to your senses. You know, we're all very worried about you.” Sardin said.

”How long have I been asleep?” ask Syakila.

”Twelve days, twelve nights. It's been a while, isn't it? Your uncle, your aunt, Rosalina's aunt, Geo, and I are very worried. We are afraid, afraid you will not be aware.” Sardin said.

”For that time you guys took care of me?”

”Iya. I just came here today. The one who's been looking after you all along is Geo. When you were unconscious, I also fainted. We're both treated in this room. Two days after the treatment, I just woke up. However, my uncle took me home. I was treated with aunty at home, until my medicine ran out I was allowed to visit you.” Sardin said.

So, for twelve days Geo accompanied me here and took care of me. Syakila thought.