Decants

Baswara Only Akara

Hearing Carol's words so unexpected now made everyone who was there surprised to hear her. Even Arsen who had not noticed the quarrel immediately turned to the two parents who were fighting when he heard Carol's words.

“Pa,” said Dewi looking at her father now with a look of disbelief.

The girl was now kneeling under her father's feet looking at her father with her own eyes. He did not expect that his father would divorce his mother because of his actions this time. He was wrong, but not his mother. All her mother said was just to demand justice for her.

“Pa, Dewi beg Pa, don't do that. Mama is wrong. The wrong goddess Pa. The wrong goddess made Queena wrong. Don't divorce Mama Pa,” cried Goddess while begging her father. Arsen who saw that now even stood up. Things are getting chaotic and erratic.

“Didn't your own Mama want to be like this?” ask Carol so cynically. The goddess is crying. Dhisi, who heard the husband's words, remained silent. He was no less surprised to hear all this. He did not expect that in the end he would also lose Carol.

Carol wasn't hers from the beginning. She had a status as Carol's wife after Erlinda died but she never got Carol's heart. Carol is still with her past. Carol is still with the same heart. The heart of the man was indeed only for Erlinda.

“Pa, Mama said it was just because Mama wanted to. Papa can be a good father to me. I really need Papa. But if Papa doesn't want to do that, I don't have a problem with Pa. But don't divorce Mama. Mama loves Papa so much,” said Dewi with tears that have now flowed so swiftly. He did not want if his mother had to lose the man he loved so much.the man he had always fought for him. Although his father never saw his mother's struggle. But Dewi knew, just by being a good wife for Carol alone, her mother was happy even though Carol never considered her existence.

“But not with Papa. There are only wounds and disappointments. Papa lost the person he loved so much, the household relationship that Papa hoped would be happy even left only wounds. Queena is the only memory left. And now you also want to take her?” carol asked with a sad look at the Goddess who is still resting at her father's feet.

Bagas wanted to approach the Goddess and ask the girl to wake up. But he knew he had no right to interfere in the matter.

Dhisi who had just been silent now immediately pulled his son and asked him to stand up immediately.

“Stop the Goddess, don't beg anymore. If this is what Papa wants then let it go. This is the best for us,” said Dhisi, closing his eyes when he said that. Her tears were not flowing to the woman's face.

Shortly after, a doctor who examined Queena along with the nurses, finally came out of her room. Seeing this Arsen who first approached him which was immediately followed by Carol as well as others.

“How is my son doc?” carol asked with a worried look.

“Patients are past their critical period. Luckily the father was not in the water a little longer,” said the doctor who made all who were there now exhale relieved when he heard the doctor's speech.

“Patients will soon be moved to his outpatient room,” said the doctor again who after his leave immediately. Until soon Queena who was still loyal to close her eyes was taken away to go to her own room.

“Do not approach my child again, and do not appear in front of my child again. I can take care of her, Queena also still has a complete Oma to take care of her,” said Carol to Dhisi who is now seen tightening her face to hear Carol's words that forbid her to meet Queena.

Although Queena is not her child but all this time she is the one who takes care of Queena, becoming a mother for Queena. And caring for Queena deserves her own child.

“Don't stop me from looking after Queena, and don't forbid me from seeing Queena. I'll keep Queena safe until Queena finds out about our divorce. And one more thing, even though I wasn't Queen's real mother but all this time, I was the one who looked after her and became her mother. There is no such thing as a former mother,” said Dhisi firmly who after her immediately went from there while throwing her hand from Carol.

Carol who heard it now just clenched her hands and immediately followed Dhisi who had already walked after Queena and the others.

Without Carol knowing now Dhisi's heart is so broken. The man she loved so much was still not able to accept her. And we're not her she got her heart instead she lost Carol. It is something that from the beginning is not for us then we cannot force. If it continues to be forced in the end, it can now only be a wound.

As Dhisi had heard from someone. Don't ever want to hug the sky if you can't hug her.

It was true that in the end he still could not embrace the sky. Even though he tried, he still could not reach it. He could only look at her with admiration without being able to reach her and hug her real.

Pseudo and real expectations are painful, all inversely proportional. Nothing is easy. Even with such a great struggle it still cannot reach it.

Baswara is like a union with Bagaskara, but in fact Baswara is only an Akara that will not be able to become an atma for Bagaskara.

“Should have known this from the beginning. But I was blind and kept pushy,” inner Dhisi with her sliced smile. Seeing her who is currently just trash for the man she loves.

“Forcing in a relationship, I should never have done it before. Stupidly I play with feelings that are not really mine,” continued Dhisi who is now lamenting his fate that looks so sad.

Somehow could any human being lead such a miserable life for eighteen years? Whether she was indeed such a strong woman, or even she was just a pathetic woman who was shameless.

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