Decants

Talking With Wounds

  Queena looked doubtful. Once again he stared at the whitewashed door in front of him with his confused gaze. Should he really go in like he promised Arsen or he would just leave there and renege on his promise to Arsen.

“No Queen, you can't back down. I promise you with Arsen. Just saying he's evil keeps going is enough. The important thing is that you have spoken with him,” said Queena who is now monologuing in front of the door of Dhisi's room.

Queena exhales violently trying to strengthen her heart and mentally prepare her to talk to the woman who has raised her, as well as the woman who is the reason she lost her mother.

Queena had promised Arsen to talk to Dhisi and Dewi in exchange for Arsen to take her for a walk. And Arsen actually did it even though the man was just doing what he wanted.

But now it's Queena's turn to keep her word. Arsen did not force Queena to do so immediately. Even Arsen said if Queena had just done. And now that Queena was standing in front of Dhisi's room, she was steadying her heart.

After a war with her own mind, Queena finally knocked on the door. It didn't take long for him to wait. A woman now stands in front of him with her face that looks so surprised when she sees the arrival of Queena.

“Queena, what's wrong with nak?” dhisi asked with her puzzled gaze seeing Queena's arrival to her room.

“Mama says you want to talk to Queena, what do you want to talk to?” ask Queen who feels prestige if she says if she wants to talk to the woman.

Hearing Queena's words, Dhisi smiled, gently. He was so happy because now Queena wanted to talk to him. After everything the girl had heard. Queena completely avoided him and now Queena is back to talk to him.

“We enter aja yes.we chat inside,” said Dhisi while inviting Queena to immediately enter his room.

Yep. It's just Dhisi's room, because since he married Carol he was in his own room and never slept with Carol. Carol always puts limits on her. Carol loved Erlinda so much that she didn't want another woman to touch her.

Upon entering the room, Dhisi's distinctive fragrance goes directly into Queena's sense of smell. His gaze was so flat looking at a wedding photo that it looked so ironic. A man; a flat-faced man with a sharp gaze and a woman who develops her smile so perfectly.

I don't know why Queena's heart aches when she sees this simple wedding photo. Even Queena is sure if it is the only wedding photo that exists.

“Queena, Mama wanted to apologize to you earlier. You might think if mama is a bad person,” said Dhisi with her gaze that is now so straight staring at Queena. Her hand was about to hold Queena's hand but the girl immediately threw her hand not wanting if Dhisi held her.

Dhisi's heart hurts so much to see her. Queena has never been this rude. And he knew for sure the disappointment and anger of the girl was so great that he did this.The anger of the girl must have been so great for him. And it hurts when he sees the child he has cared for from childhood with affectionate kin hate him.

Queena who saw him just kept quiet. He did not actually firmly see that, but he also could not forgive him so easily. After aa that the woman did to her mother first.

“It's right? Queena's gone. Mama calm down, Queena will help Dewi to talk to Daddy to cancel this matchmaking, so there is no more Mommy and Daddy second, so,” said Queena who immediately went from there with his words that are so striking. As if the Goddess could be like her mother if she already liked the man who would be in a match with her.

After exiting Dhisi's room, Queena immediately passed towards his room. Actually he wanted to go directly to the Goddess' room but his heart was still unawares. He's still not strong and can't do that.

So he wanted to calm himself first, then he would talk to the Goddess. Doesn't everything need a process.

After arriving at her room Queena immediately laid her body on her mattress and drowned her face there to hold back her sobs. Seeing Dhisi who was crying he was so heartless because no matter how she used to be the woman who took care of him and took care of him and loved him from childhood.

But on the other hand. If Dhisi is absent and becomes the third person in the relationship of his mother and father then his father will be a warm person, his mother will remain with him and love and take good care of him, he will have a younger brother to play with as a child. Queena guessed her life would be much happier with her mother.

“Mommy, what should Queena do?” queena asked with a rough breath. Now he straightened his body and immediately wiped his tears. Now he feels completely confused about his own mind. Between forgiving or letting.

Queena is now getting out of bed and her current goal is her father's office. Because on a night like this his father would be in his study. With her weak steps Queena immediately walked into Carol's room.

Without knocking on Queena's door, she immediately entered Carol's room. It looks Carol who is now so focused on the work in front of her.

“Daddy,” call Queena gently which makes Carol now raise her eyebrows next to her turn towards her child with her confused look.

“Queena Bay, can you not?” queena asked with a sad look at her father. Now Queena has spread her hand. Carol who saw him immediately walked towards Queena and immediately hugged her son even though she did not know what Queena had just experienced.

“Queena loves Daddy and Mommy,” said Queena who is now increasingly tightening her embrace on the one that makes Carol also tighten her embrace by occasionally peeping the top of Queena's head.

Now Carol understands for sure all this has to do with the fact her parents just found out. But Carol did not want to discuss it because she did not want to make Queena more sad so she chose to keep hugging her child without saying anything. Just give comfort and tranquility to his son.

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