Chasing Your Halal Love

The biggest loss

All 12th grade students are gathered in the Hall there are also classes that take turns taking toga and including my class.Finished taking toga I with my three friends chose to be in the canteen because of the clock recess.

"Ra, you got a problem?"said Dilla who I only returned with a sledgehammer.

"Why do you wear glasses?Are you crying?"diva said with squeaking eyes while I just stared at her flat

I saw the clock was showing at 10.I also chose to leave school not caring about my two friends who were screaming.

"Gue came home first if Andre nyariin said if I have any business" I said then waltzed away

It did not take long I have arrived at the hospital with ojol.Akupun immediately entered Adnan's room.

It has been 3 days Adnan was unconscious.There was only me waiting because Papa who happened to come home because there was business.

"Mas, you are not tired of sleeping continuously.You do not miss the same I ya." said me while holding Adnan's hand

"It turns out, yes, said Dilan miss it hard let alone miss it to you mas heavy.You wake up yes I miss." said I who still faithfully embraced his limp body

"As tomorrow is my graduation day, you wake up!I really want at graduation you are also present with me.Mas know not now I am so crybaby little boy."I chuckled and then returned sad

I feel like a child left with both parents.Bingung is what I feel.I am confused with who I lean on while my back is not okay.

Sometimes I regret my actions at that time.If only time can be replayed I want to repeat when first met.Not to return to hate him but by loving him.

And it's true that I was in the phase of a fall.

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Right today was my graduation day and it turned out that I graduated with satisfactory grades.Happy must be yes.With soon I also walked down the hospital corridor.

With toga and kebaya clothes that I wear to make the hospital visitors look at me wonder.See there exactly in front of the room Adnan care there are both my parents,both Adnan's parents and Fasha's sister and my two brothers were there.

I saw from a distance Mama who was crying in the arms of Kak Fasha, the Father who was silent while bowing his head while my parents looked sad that made me more confused.The closer I approached them all.

"What's up?why is everyone crying?"my words that they all just look at me with a hard look to interpret

"Ma, Bun,Well, what's the matter with all this crying?"said wondering

"Sister, what is all this?don't make me ask?What's the matter exactly?"I said firmly because there was no answer I also chose to enter the room.

Deggs..

My heart stopped suddenly.My body felt weak but my two brothers immediately embraced and calmed me.The tears of my eyes had fallen.I walked limply towards someone wrapped in a white cloth.

"Mas Adnan woke up, don't leave me awake mas." I said with tears falling down

"Let's get up.You don't joke." said I who pat adnan's cheek and then I hold Adnan's hand but there is no warmth there only cold palms and closed eyes

"You calm down the deck.Be patient." said Abang Zou who brought me his arms

"Not you all lie.Adnan is still alive my husband is still alive.Yes Bun?Adnan's alive, right?"I said with half a shout and then hugged back Adnan's body which was stiffened but quickly Bang Ano pulled me and hugged me

"Istigfar Ra.You don't hug Adnan like that.You can be sad you can cry but you don't jatohin your tears in Adnan's body.You don't overdo it like that." said Bang Ano who made me look cynically at him

"What did you say?Rara's exaggerated?what's wrong Rara nangisin Rara's husband?Rara was left to go bang and this is not a matter of being left for a moment but this is forever.It's natural that Rara behaved like a gini.Abang said that Rara was excessive because Abang had never fainted left by a loved one."I said while crying as much as I could

"Ma.maafin Ra's brother."ujar Bang Ano then hugged me back

While Adnan was taken by the nurses to the ambulance.We all followed from behind.I accompanied by Bang Zou entered the ambulance.

I deliberately boarded the ambulance to wait for Adnan.Once I hope that Adnan will get back up from his long sleep.I still cry in my brother's arms that occasionally he stroked my hair.

We have arrived at the yard of Adnan's parents' house where there are yellow flags and people who are doing the service.Both of my friends then embrace me.

They cried and calmed me.While not far from there there was already a Bara beside me.He also helped calm me and just said condolences.

My tears can not be dammed again when the funeral process Adnan.I cry as much as I want.Taste Bang zou's clothes have been wet with tears.

Gradually everyone has left the burial area and live Me who is still there precisely accompanied by My Brother.

I also walked and squatted towards the maelstrom of Adnan.Air eyes are still breaking.I don't care about myself it feels sad, tired, longing to invade my heart.

"Mas Adnan why are you leaving so soon?Where your promise was.You are happy there, so-until you leave me.I love you mas,I will definitely miss you.I go first yes mas see noh Abang Zou would want to say something to me if later.I say goodbye if you are afraid alone you take me aja."I smiled and then came back crying.

I was still sitting squatting on Adnan's lap while hugging his headstone.It felt heavy for me to leave him.

Bang zou had left me because I was annoyed to see me who kept crying in Adnan's mouth.For long I hugged Adnan's headstone until a heavy hand woke me up.

"Ra woke up son." said someone with a heavy voice that resuscitated me

I raised my head and looked at the man, and then I saw someone lying next to me.There was happiness in my heart after that I pinched my hand and it hurt.

"Fyuhh is finally just a dream." I said in my heart

"Ra, why are you dreaming." said the middle-aged man

"Ee.eh gapapa Pa.Saf Rara fell asleep and didn't know Papa was here."I said with a smile

"Oh gapapa Ra.That's why you cry?"papa

"Huh?no way Pa, Rara did not cry maybe it was a flickering." I said then rubbed the rest of the tears.

"Oh yes.This is Papa bring rice and sit you eat yes." said Papa then handed the rice in front of me and then I ate it because I could refuse Papa's orders

I also ate the food given by Papa.While Papa sat beside Adnan's bed by reciting the holy verse of the Quran.My mind is still disturbed by the dream earlier.Sekelah there is a fear to lose Adnan.