CAMELLIAS

episode 35

Camellia 35

 Jupiter pretends to close her eyes, only to put Camelia to sleep. But Camelia did not fall asleep and only looked at her until four in the morning.  Maybe Camelia thought Jupiter was asleep, when in fact she was just pretending to close her eyes. Jupiter was well aware, if he was being looked at by Kara endlessly, even he heard Kara mention his name several times, although his voice was soft and very slow. However, due to the early hours of the morning and no other sounds, Jupiter could hear Kara's voice, saying she called her name repeatedly. 

Maybe after feeling very tired, finally Camelia as Kara, turned off the video call connection, and the screen of Jupiter's phone turned dark again. Jupiter opened her eyes and let out a weak sigh, she did not know where to begin to express her true feelings to Nadira as well as her extended family. 

Jupiter is well aware, he will definitely hurt Nadira, not only Nadira is disappointed, but also his extended family and Nadira's extended family. The relationship and Nadira have passed the phase one level to a more serious level, namely marriage. Even if there is no transverse charcoal, the two families agreed to hold a wedding later this year, which is only seven months from now. 

Jupiter's chest feels so tight, given the deadline that has been determined by both sides of the family to stay soon, maybe even the marriage could be accelerated without his knowledge first. Because, when the proposal event took place, all events were prepared by his extended family, Jupiter did not know if he would be engaged to Nadira that soon. 

At first Jupiter only considered Nadira as an ordinary friend, but because they ended up continuing their education at the same university abroad, they eventually became more familiar. Especially because Jupiter still continues to search for the whereabouts of Kara, who was lost somewhere, and hopes one day Nadira knows the whereabouts of her lover, and gives him important information. 

However, the closeness between himself and Nadira gradually grows the seeds of love, especially Nadira. Because Jupiter was always nearby, Nadira finally began to love Jupiter. Whether since when Nadira began to like Jupiter, and also maybe because he was used to being together and had begun to feel desperate, because he did not find Kara, Jupiter finally accepted Nadira's love. Although Jupiter doesn't know exactly, how it feels for Nadira. 

Although the relationship and Nadira has been running for two years, it still does not foster a sense of love for Nadira. Her feelings are too big for Kara, so she can't share her heart for another woman. 

At first Jupiter feels no need to take her relationship with Nadira too seriously, after all she still hopes one day Kara will return to her. But, it turns out that both sides of their families are too excited to know their two children are in a relationship. Without waiting for long, they finally got engaged. 

Jupiter sighed again, now he deeply regretted his decision to establish a relationship with Nadira. Jupiter should have been a little more patient, because Kara was back in the end. Jupiter is very happy once she finds Kara again, or rather they find each other. However, now Jupiter was confused because he had to decide which one he would choose. 

Although his heart is very sure, if he loves Kara, but he also has to think about how the fate of his family, if suddenly he breaks his relationship unilaterally. Jupiter massaged the base of her nose, trying to divert the dizzy feeling that began to strike her head. Perhaps seeing the early morning sky can reduce fatigue, Jupiter thought. 

Finally he walked to the balcony, in front of his room. At his place he opened the window, letting a cold, cool morning breeze blow over his body and began to enter his room. 

The morning breeze still felt so fresh and cold, so bone-piercing. Jupiter stretched out her hands, and closed her eyes for a moment. He tried to calm his mind, considering what steps to take next.  He must continue his relationship with Nadira, for the sake of his family, even though he does not love Nadira. Or, she has to fight for Kara, even though she knows there will be many people who are against her relationship, one of them is her mother. 

A flash of Kara's shadow, as she smiled and the shadow of the round-eyed girl cried, milling in her mind. Jupiter was eager to hug her beloved girl, and could see her sweet smile every day. 

Jupiter opened her eyes again, now she was sure and sure, if all she had to fight for was Kara, and also her heart. Although it must be difficult, Jupiter will still try to defend Kara, because for him it has been enough all this time he relented. Not for now. 

There may still be a few hours until the sun actually appears to split the earth. However, as if his drowsiness had disappeared, even though Jupiter had not closed his eyes for a minute, but he did not feel sleepy. Instead he wants to be early in the morning, and go back to meet Kara. To erode time, Jupiter chose to run around in his yard. His house assistants were so shocked, seeing the child of his master who had woken up first rather than them. 

Jupiter runs around his yard which is quite spacious, and can make him sweat. 

"Tumben" a woman's voice stopped her footsteps. Jupiter looked at the figure that had suddenly come, even at this early hour. 

"Can't sleep, brother." Jupiter answered her sister. 

Dea, who was still wearing maroon-red sleepwear, approached her sister who was lying on the front porch of their house. 

"Want a drink?" Dea asked, as soon as she saw the breath of Jupiter gasping. 

"You," Jupiter replied. 

Dea immediately went back into his house, took a bottle of cold water, and gave it to Jupiter. 

"Tumben is so good?" Jupiter asked, after downing nearly half the contents of the bottle her brother had given her. 

"You are tumben. Sister wakes up every day at this hour, and must be out of the house. Find the morning air." Reply Dea, closing his eyes and breathing deeply into the morning air. 

"Every morning? Why?" Investigate Jupiter, because he does not know if his older brother always wakes up earlier than others, even earlier than people who work at home. 

"Like it. The air is fresher, and it's also cooler." Answer Dea. 

"Not because of anything else?" Ask Jupiter again. 

"No.," Dea replied with a meaningful knot smile. 

Jupiter wasn't a kid yesterday afternoon that was easy to lie to. She knew that her brother was still thinking about his divorce from Alfaro one year ago. 

"Waiting for him to come home?" Jupiter asked. 

"No," Dea replied briefly, sighing heavily. But Dea forgot, if his sister would not be able to believe just like that with his words that look still hanging and uncertain. 

"What a surprise?" Dea asked, smiling faintly. 

Jupiter just nodded as she spread her gaze, looking at the morning sky that was starting to turn orange red, a sign that the king was coming. 

"You still love him, brother?" Ask Jupiter.

"Mmm," Dea simply muttered, answering Jupiter's question. 

"Then why did you choose to separate. I guess after the presence of Aksara can make your relationship improve." 

"Yes, indeed the presence of Aksara in the household of brother and Alfaro makes us become closer. But, it doesn't diminish my guilt." Dea let out a weak breath,

"I thought Kara's departure would make me and Faro okay, but it wasn't." Continue Dea while bowing her head. 

"Alfaro and I continue to be in the shadow of guilt. I continue to feel guilty for supporting Faro's criminal activities. Likewise with her, who is getting more and more guilty because Kara immediately disappeared like swallowed by the earth. And also, because Faro still loves Kara, to this day." Obviously Dea. 

Jupiter did not light up in the slightest of words of her brother. He quite understands how Dea is, who continues to feel guilty after the events of six years ago. Dea thought after Kara left, she could easily replace the girl's position in Alfari's heart, apparently not. 

Although they eventually married, and had a four-year-old son named Aksara Keenan, it did not make Alfaro open his whole heart to Dea. In the end, in the middle of last year, Dea and Alfaro officially divorced. As for child custody, it falls on Dea. Until now after the divorce, Dea prefers to return to live with his family. Alfaro chooses to return to live with his father, Fathur. 

"You haven't found where Kara is?" Ask Dea. 

Jupiter is eager to say if he has found out where Kara is, but he is afraid that if Dea knows of Kara's whereabouts, and goes back to acting like before, Jupiter finally chooses to lie. 

"No, I haven't found it yet." Answer Jupiter.

"I have to find her whereabouts," 

"For what, brother? He's gone, there's no point in looking for Kara. He had nothing to do with the divorce of brother and Faro. I don't want you to always blame someone else for what happened to your life. Divorce is your choice, so don't involve others, just to cover up your failures." 

"I'm not looking for Kara to take revenge or harm her like I used to. But, I want to find it for you." Jupiter was flabbergasted to hear her brother's words. 

"So you don't know you're happy with Nadira. Brother also knows to this day you still love Kara." Dea stared fixedly at her sister's chocolate bead. 

"You can lie and always pretend in front of people, but not with me. You know, the thing I regretted so much up until this second, is that I never figured out how you and Kara really feel. I was so overpowered with jealousy that I closed my eyes and didn't see how you could love each other." 

Dea took a deep breath, as if seeking strength before she revealed her entire heart to her younger brother. 

"You know, I'm tormented to see my sister suffer." Jupiter grabbed her brother's fingers, even Dea's voice began to tremble withstanding the cries. 

"I'm fine, brother,,," 

"No! You lied!! Don't be like this, please. Brother please,, I am, I feel so guilty if you end up having to marry a woman you don't love." Now Dea started sobbing,

"Find Kara, fight again. Brother will always support you, no matter what. Enough of me failing in the household, you don't want to see you destroyed like me. Because, if that happens I'm the first person. Who will feel very guilty. Because I was one of the reasons you split up." 

Jupiter smiled in relief, finally he had one additional strength for her to re-attempt. Although it was only the support of her brother, but it was enough for her. 

"Yes, sister, I will definitely look for Kara. And bring her back to my side." Jupiter answered with confidence. 

Dea finally smiled in between her tears. He slowly wiped the top of his head. 

"Mother,,," the cry of a small child, made the two turn their head towards the voice. 

"Aksa's up?" Dea asked her only child, who was still yawning to resist sleepiness. 

"Why wake up, it's still morning." Continue Jupiter. 

Aksa ignored the words of the two adults in front of him, he still rubbed his eyes with the back of his hand. 

"Aksa wants milk, "" he whined, came to Dea and chose to sit on his mother's lap. 

"You want milk? Are you still drinking milk in a bottle? In dong's glass!" Jupiter Ledek. Aksa simply pursed his lips, not responding to Jupiter's words. 

"Come, I made milk inside. It's cold in here." Dea carried Aksa to bring her back into the house. 

"Awww it hurts...mom, uncle Jupi naughty!" Whine Aksa, while holding her cheek pinched by jupiter. 

"Let's hit me, Uncle Jupi." Dea soon approached Jupiter and snapped Jupiter's head. 

"Awwww,, sick tau! Ko jitak really is!" Complain Jupiter, because it turns out Dea really hit it hard. 

"Gazurin!!" Reply Dea while sticking out his tongue and immediately leave Jupiter in hasty steps, as if afraid Jupiter is chasing him.

Jupiter just smiled at her brother and nephew, walking quickly into the house. He again rubbed his jidat which still feels a little pain, due to Dea's punch. 

Seeing Aksa who must understand the condition of his parents when he was very young, is not easy. Sometimes Aksa often asks where Alfaro is, or just ask his parents to sleep together in one bed. Aksa is too small to understand the meaning of a separation, and of course it is the result of the selfishness of adults, until finally the children have to bear it. 

Jupiter did not blame her brother or Alfaro in their decision to split, perhaps many unseen problems, which they experienced, so in the end they chose to separate. 

But, one thing that became his consideration, which is one of the reasons his sister failed in the household, namely because of the lack of strong love between the two of them. And Jupiter doesn't want that to happen in her life. 

Jupiter wants a strong home, based on a strong sense of love. Not only was one strong, but from both sides it had to be equally powerful. While now even Jupiter doubts, whether he can be as big as it loves Nadira, if he is not strong enough to love Nadira, then it is certain he will end as tragically as his brother , Dea. 

Unlike Kara, even though it has been six years, even Jupiter never knows the existence of Kara, but does not reduce her love, in the slightest. Instead, the longer he loved Kara, the more he didn't want to be away from her, even if it was just a minute. 

 

But as if back tested, now Jupiter finds Kara just when she has the status of being Nadira's fiancee, Kara's best friend. But the heart knows where it should dock, with full confidence Jupiter will again try to defend Kara. Although he knows, many people will be disappointed with his decision, but he only wants to be selfish for this one time. 

jupiter loves Kara.....