CAMELLIAS

episode 33

Camellia pov…

Of the many tears that came out of my eyes, today one of the happy tears, which I could not express with words. 

"I love you and I miss u so bad" one sentence that broke my heart. No matter how hard I avoid, my heart cannot be lied to.

He is the man who is now sitting cross-legged in front of the Jupi cage, although occasionally sneezing, because it turns out he is still allergic as before. I still look at him in disbelief, how can we be reunited, even though I have been avoiding him so far. If it's true what he says, if it's all that brings us together, or our hearts are still tied together, I don't know. All I know is that I'm happy to see him near me. 

"Where are you going?" He asked, breaking my daydream. 

"You take Jupi for a walk out." My answer. He just nodded his head, and again rubbed Jupi's head, even after he sneezed.

"Smoke his hand," I thrust out a pack of wet wipes, and, 

"I make food for us to eat dinner, your hands must be dirty to hold Jupi. You are allergic" I continued. 

I was cooking spaghetti, because that's all in the fridge. Me and Febian rarely cook heavy and troublesome dishes, usually we only provide some ready-to-eat food as a mainstay menu if lazy to go out. 

"What cooking?" Jupiter stood up, following me to the dining table.

"I'm cooking this," I'm putting a plate of spaghetti carbonara on him. 

"I don't know if you like it or not" I continued. 

"I like anything." Reply, and choose to sit directly opposite me.

"Enak, you're a cook." Praise him, with a mouth full of spagethi. 

"The season is all, I'll just go in." My reply, since all the seasonings just stay put into the paste, all are instant and fast paced.

There was no sound during the meal, neither I nor Jupiter were busy with their own meals. Whether because it is really delicious or because of hunger, Jupiter is so eating one plate of spaghetti in just an instant. 

"You again?" I asked, because Jupiter looks so hungry.

"No, I'm full." I just nodded, and went back to putting one last mouthful of pasta in my mouth.  But just as the fork was about to enter the mouth, Jupiter's hand first held my hand, and she took the last mouthful of my spaghetti.  

"I was waiting for you to bribe, but it didn't. So, I'll take it myself." He said while wiping the rest of the sauce attached to the corner of his lips. 

"Why?" Ask, because I'm still quiet. Even the fork hut I was holding, still had not budged and I was still holding tightly. 

Jupiter grabs the cutlery, and puts it on the plate. Still with his control, now my hand was held tightly, after the fork was again lying on an empty plate. 

"Why? You're not full? Want to eat out?" Ask.  I was hypnotized, neither answering nor resisting the control of her hand, when her big fingers clasped my hand. 

"Continue, why dumb?" Further. 

"You're real?" My toot.

Jupiter smiled, took off her hand, and stood up from the chair toward me. 

"try holding. I'm real." Now he is crouching, resting on one leg. His head looked up, because I was sitting on a chair, while both hands pulled my hands and cupped on both cheeks that felt warm. 

"Real right?" I stroked her cheeks with both of my thumbs. Tracing the line of her face and nose that I had always imagined. And now the shadow is real in front of me. 

Jupiter shifted his body, now he really only rests on both knees, he really, 

"While it's too late, how's Kara?" Ask. 

I smiled at her, though a warm, clear liquid suddenly flowed from my eyes, but I wanted to smile. 

"Okay" I replied. Both of my hands were still holding both cheeks, until out of nowhere I dared to pull her face closer, and closer to my face. 

Her breath was warmly sweeping my face. The aroma of his body that is always fragrant, piercing the sense of smell to make me lose my mind. I don't remember anything anymore, because all I knew was that when his lips touched my lips an electrically powered stream flowed down inside my body. Her tongue sweep, down every inch of my mouth, made me lose my mind as she deepened her kiss. I heard a small sigh slide from his lips, as he increased the rhythm of his initially gentle kiss, now changing faster and more passionately. 

His kisses now turned down his cheeks, ears and neck. His wet tracks ran through every inch of my skin, until he started unbuttoning the two shirts I was wearing. 

"Jupiter,,," I held her shoulder, as she began to lower my collar.

"Jupi, no, no." I held her shoulders even more, and this time I really did not let her touch my body too far. 

"Sorry," he said. Although it looks clear, the fog of passion so dominates him, but fortunately Jupiter can still hold it. 

"I'm sorry," he said again. This time he also re-attached both buttons of my shirt that had been opened earlier. 

The hot kiss that I did and really did I did was conscious, and on the basis of love. I do have hot kisses a lot, with some guys, but not the guy I love. However, this time I enjoyed it so much, because I did it with the person I love so much. 

"I helped wash the dishes." Jupiter came, carrying her plate. 

"It's okay. Let me wash it." 

"Together, okay?" And now I wash the dishes, while Jupiter dries the dishes with a washcloth. 

The wall clock has been showing at ten in the evening. And Febian has no sign of home yet. He doesn't usually come home this late, usually he'll be home by eight in the evening. Usually I'll find out where Febian is, if he hasn't reached the apartment by nine. But this time there is an exception. I'm grateful Febian isn't home as usual, even I really hope he doesn't come home tonight. 

"Your house has two rooms. Sati again whose room?" Jupiter asked, when she and I were both in the chair, after finishing washing the dishes. 

"Febian's room." My answer. I don't want to lie, because it would be harder to explain if I kept lying. 

"Febri?" He looks confused, though, 

"Febian Wirawan's. CEO, Bumi Daya," I explained.

Whether it was just my feelings, the look on Jupiter's face changed. 

"He's your lover?" Ask. Now he moved his seat closer to me.

"You think?" I asked back in a seductive tone. And, obviously, he's getting a bit dislike. 

"I asked, is he your girlfriend?" In a resentful tone Jupiter asked again. 

"Is Nadira your fiancee?" Now I ask back.

Jupiter didn't answer right away, she just silently looked at me meaningfully.

"Kara, listen to me. That Nadira and I, "Jupiter seems confused, "I and Nadira are not what you think. That, too complicated." Further.

"Acupoon. Me and Febian are complicated, I have a hard time explaining them, too" as if not to be outdone, I have described my relationship with Febian as complicated. In fact, my relationship with Febian is just a friend, after all, Febian does not like women. 

Jupiter seemed increasingly confused, even he rubbed his face, combing his hair with his finger. 

"I know we're both complicated. But, can we clarify our relationship first. I'm going to finish my relationship with Nadira, as well as yours and Febian." Said Jupiter, her tone sounded serious and earnest. 

"Nadira's my best friend, I don't want to hurt her." My answer. I know Jupiter must have been disappointed to hear what I said, but that's all I have in mind right now. 

"Your sudden presence? Even you were present earlier compared to Nadira." Decak Jupiter, even he turned his face. 

"But all this time you've been fine, no, without me. Even if you can have a serious relationship with Nadira, that's a good step forward. And, you will remain fine, until your relationship is valid in the eyes of God and the State." I pulled her chin back to face me. 

"With, or without me, you must be fine." I clearly. 

"You sure?" Ask Jupiter.

"Yes, of course. Even you can be a successful man like now, it's because of the support of Nadira. I have no effect at all!" 

"You're wrong!" Elak Jupiter's. 

"You made me what I am now, and you are my only reason." Jupiter took my hand. I was very happy to hear it, but as soon as I was reminded of the white gold ring that was coiled around his ring finger, I was forced back to reality, if he wasn't mine. Although he said the word love a hundred times, it still will not change his status to my lover. 

I don't want to get back stuck in a complicated relationship, which I ended up hurting again, like a few years ago. I still remember how complicated my relationship with Jupiter ended horribly. Even because of that incident, now I have to bear the consequences alone. 

"You want to sacrifice for your best friend, don't you want to sacrifice for me too?" Ask Jupiter. I smiled faintly at her words.  

"I've sacrificed a lot for everyone, even I sacrificed for mistakes I never made." 

"Kara," Jupiter cut my words.

"I don't know what you've been through or what you've been through. But, I'm asking you please don't disappear again, we'll face it all together. We fight together, me and you." Jupiter was earnest, even sounding desperate. 

"Even if you don't want to, I can understand. But I can work on my own, and no one can stop me." Evidently. 

"Don't talk to anyone when I'm with you, because it's just you and me. Understood?" Added again. I could only smile at her possessive like that, because deep in my heart, I desperately wanted her to be the way she is right now. I want Jupiter so badly with all its annoying nature, the convict and selfish. 

Time crawled with certainty, it was almost midnight. Suddenly my phone rang, and a message came in, "If in fifteen minutes the man doesn't come back, I'm in!!!" Threat Febian. I wonder how he knows if there is Jupiter in the house, not one day he is outside. 

"Iyee," I said briefly. Besides, there's no way I'd allow Jupiter to spend the night at my house, even though I don't want her to leave. 

"It's late, you better go home." 

"I don't want to go home. I want to stay here." Knockabout, 

"You stay here with Febian, I'll find another rental." 

"I'll go wherever you move" jupiter said. 

"Yes, I'll think again" my god. 

"Come,," I pulled up Jupiter's arm, slightly dragging her body to the door. Even though he refused, I forced him. Before Febian actually came and went inside the house. 

"OKAY. I'm home, but promise first," Jupiter held out her little finger.

"What promise?" 

"Promise, if I can come here again, and promise you won't suddenly disappear again." 

"Freak promise!" My lips, and ignore the pinky oath that Jupiter asks.

"Let's promise, "" now he pulls my hand, and hooks his pinky with my pinky. 

"Well, you promised. Promises cannot be circled." He cried, shaking his fingers right and left. I smiled at his silly behavior, but my smile disappeared as soon as his phone rang and displayed a name I knew so well. The look on Jupiter's face instantly changed, but I replied with a smile and a nod. 

Jupiter shifted the green button on her phone screen, and placed the flat object in her ear, but never released the link of her little finger with me, even now she fully grasped my hand. 

"Yes, Nad. I have some important business outside, why?" 

I still listen, even though I don't want to. But Jupiter didn't give me a chance to get away. 

 

"What?! you're home?" Now that my eyes and Jupiter's eyes met, I still gave my best smile, giving her a hint that I was fine. 

Jupiter immediately ended the conversation, and put the phone back in his pants pocket. 

"I'm home, yeah," she said.

"Yes," but he never let go of his grasp.

"Say he would go home, take his hand off." I brandished the link of her hand, and Jupiter smiled knotfully, while slowly letting go. 

"Go home, waiting. Febian wants to go home, too." 

Now the door of the apartment was open, even Jupiter had put her shoes back on, but she was still silently staring, not moving one bit. 

"Nadira's love must have waited a long time." Love again. 

"I'm home, yeah,,," 

"Yes, one more time. You got a glass!" Jupiter chuckled, one hand rubbing the top of my head. 

"This time I won't let you go again. So, don't try to escape again. Understood?" 

 I didn't answer, I just smiled. 

Jupiter is approaching one step closer. He brought his face closer, so that the distance between us was only a few inches. I closed my eyes, welcoming a kiss from him. However, it was not a kiss that I got, but it was a small story in my head.

"Oh," I complained as soon as I opened my eyes.  

"Basic bawdy!" Jupiter Eject. He laughed with satisfaction at seeing me grimace in pain. 

"What the hell," honestly I was embarrassed, because at first I thought he was going to kiss me. 

"Where home!" I pushed his body hard, though, 

"Wait on! Someone's missing." His eagle.

"Otherwise,,"

"It." He pulled my chin and kissed my lips at a glance.

"Bye,," Jupiter immediately left, before receiving a protest from me. I could only smile at his passing, which was getting lost and out of sight. 

*God, may I be selfish this time.

I love him so much*.